It has been ___ days since I SIed -- Part 2

Jun 02, 2015, 04:07 PM

A few minutes... the urges were just too strong

Espresso · Jun 03, 2015, 01:01 AM

It's been approximately a week, I think.

Bill3 · Jun 03, 2015, 01:20 AM

Well done, Espresso!

Jun 03, 2015, 03:24 AM

5 days. (so almost a week)

Bill3 · Jun 03, 2015, 05:04 AM

Good job shattered sanity!

Jun 03, 2015, 07:44 AM

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Originally Posted by Bill3

Good job shattered sanity!

thanks

sure is good to be encouraged

RedSun · Jun 03, 2015, 01:58 PM

Bill3 you're so lovely. It makes such a difference to have you as a cheerleader

i dont matter · Jun 03, 2015, 02:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Red75

Bill3 you're so lovely. It makes such a difference to have you as a cheerleader

Red75, I think your post may have been the nicest thing I have read on the web in a long, long time.

Fuzzybear · Jun 03, 2015, 03:09 PM

((((((( TJ )))))))
I'm sorry, that sucks. I know that hospital would not be the right place for me....

I'm here for you

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Originally Posted by ToeJam

Went 2 weeks (one of those while in hospital) and then succumbed last night... so 1 day at the moment

Been finding things especially hard since coming back home; Hospital was not the right place for me... but being at home has been overwhelming too right now.

Jun 03, 2015, 03:46 PM

2 weeks, 3 days... 17 days total... i'm shocked.

how do i keep doing this?

i want to cut at least once a day, but somehow, at the end of each day, i'm just too tired.

Possible trigger:

but i do miss cutting. i miss it like i'd miss a good friend i haven't seen in a very, very long time. i miss certain things about it. not just the blood & pain, but the ritual of it, the act itself... am i a bad person for feeling this? in no way do i want to romanticize or glorify SI... but to me personally it does feel very good and cathartic. i'm afraid to say more.

Jun 03, 2015, 04:21 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Red75

Bill3 you're so lovely. It makes such a difference to have you as a cheerleader

it totally does.

thanks bill

Bill3 · Jun 03, 2015, 05:19 PM

ShyPoetGirl: You are doing great! Congratulations!

Possible trigger:

You are not a bad person for finding usefulness in the rituals. This is a common difficulty of stopping many unhealthy behaviors: the rituals, the functions in one's life go beyond the basic act itself. In my opinion it would be good to write down the positive meanings of which you speak, the needs that are being met by the rituals, and think about safer, healthier ways of meeting those needs. If you share those needs here maybe others can help you with them, and vice versa.

TheOriginalMe · Jun 03, 2015, 08:16 PM

It has been 0 days for each of the last three days.

Jun 04, 2015, 03:24 AM

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Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

It has been 0 days for each of the last three days.

awww hugs

sorry

Jun 04, 2015, 03:06 PM

Zero again. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever actually stop...

TheOriginalMe · Jun 04, 2015, 07:04 PM

My T made me promise not to SI for a whole week

I merely promised to take better care of myself, given that it was 3pm and I hadn't had anything to eat or drink all day that was a pretty empty promise.

I eventually did eat and drink a little, and although I haven't injured myself I can hardly count today as SI free.

i dont matter · Jun 05, 2015, 07:23 AM

[quote=TheOriginalMe;4482397]My T made me promise not to SI for a whole week

...... /quote]

I feel your pain. My therapist wants me to do some ptsd therapy and she says that I have to have two weeks of no SH before therapy can begin and the therapy will go six-eight weeks (where no SH is allowed or I have to start over)..... So over two **months** with zero sh? jeeze. Shall I put mount everest in my back pocket too?

Jun 05, 2015, 08:23 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

My T made me promise not to SI for a whole week

I merely promised to take better care of myself, given that it was 3pm and I hadn't had anything to eat or drink all day that was a pretty empty promise.

I eventually did eat and drink a little, and although I haven't injured myself I can hardly count today as SI free.

you sound like me yesterday

didn't injure myself, but starved myself.

it wasn't at all nice. by 4 pm i could barely move

i dont matter · Jun 05, 2015, 01:55 PM

back to zero.

Jun 05, 2015, 06:17 PM

Zero....

Jun 06, 2015, 04:08 AM

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Originally Posted by secretwhisper

Zero....

same.

broke the run this morning of about 4/ 5 days

Jun 06, 2015, 04:28 AM

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Originally Posted by shattered sanity

same.

broke the run this morning of about 4/ 5 days

Well done on making it 4 days! That's some real progress.

Bill3 · Jun 06, 2015, 04:28 AM

You all did well! And can start another good run now.

Jun 06, 2015, 04:42 AM

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Originally Posted by Breadfish

Well done on making it 4 days! That's some real progress.

thanks.

still really envious of people who go without SI for months and stuff.

have no idea how they do it

Jun 06, 2015, 05:28 AM

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Originally Posted by shattered sanity

thanks.

still really envious of people who go without SI for months and stuff.

have no idea how they do it

I used to manage that, no idea how I could have done it now.

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