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My b/f knows I am a cutter and that I still have some issues. Wanna know what he got me for "V" day?? a knife. not just any old pocketknife- it had a 3 inch blade. I was so triggered. my friend took me to the guidance counselor at school and we gave it to her. guys what should I do? I am considering ending our realtionship b/c I know it is not very healthy to be around a person such as him.

Agreed. I can't imagine any kind intention behind a gift like that. I'm glad you're able to recognize that he is not a healthy person for you.

Hard as it may be to leave a relationship (BELIEVE me, i know), that was about the most inappropriate gift. I'd leave and leave now goodwoman.

Ryan

Did you ask him why he did that? I really can't imagine what good reasons there might be for giving you a knife for Valentine's. Then again, I don't know the dynamics of your relationship either. Maybe he was misguided. Does he do other things that make you feel this way? What about supportive things? I think you need to evaluate the relationship, but not just on the basis of one thing like this. He very well not be right for you, but I don't have enough information to advise you further.

That's too bad, though, that he gave you a gift that triggered you and has caused you to feel bad.

(((((((((Hallie)))))))

I can't see why that would be a good gift for anyone on Valentines Day. I couldn't say anything better than above ^^

wow- this just reminded me (and triggered) back when I was living with man and he knew I cut (you could still read the words I HATE YOU on my arm- and he gave me an exacto and told me how to cut to make cleaner scars- relationship ended very bad and I escaped from him after 2 years. I hope your b/f is not trying to be "helpfull" like mine was back then. Be safe as you can o k ?

Halliebeth:

I'd get the hell out of Dodge City and fast. I cannot see anything good in a gift like that. It seems very emotionally abusive to me. I can only imagine how it made you feel. Bless your heart. You did the right thing by turning it over to the guidance counselor and definitely (but not for long)think of a way to end this relationship. It is not healthy for you and I think you're very smart for realizing it. Good for you. You do not deserve this kind of treatment.

Stay safe (no matter what we care for you)

Take care,
Kimberly.

Kathyanita:

I have to say that I am very sorry that you went through all that. It must've been horrible and I think you are very brave for sharing with us here. Please stay safe.

Take Care,
Kimberly.

thank u everyone- i luvs u guys. its ok anyway....i was sooo upset w/ him he broke up w/ me 2nite N E way. All well....i didn't have to do it. i cut about 10 time on my arm 2day.....broke my month record. i am a loser. goodnight.

You are NOT a loser *hugs*

You can't call yourselfa loser AND say you have a one month record of resisting. You're a winner for that month and you're winning now if that episode passed and you're controlling it again. please win today too. its an addictive behavior but to be aware of it and its self destructiveness means youre so far ahead and winning all the time. Its a nightmareto suffer but like a bad dream you come by it honestly.
kathy

((((((((((((((Hallie))))))))))))))

I agree with Kathy, regardless of cutting or not, you went a month without doing it... That takes A LOT of courage and strength to go even that long without falling to the blade. Falling down and cutting doesn't mean you have to stay down. You can pick yourself right back up and start over again. As with anything in life, just try taking it one day at a time.

*hugs*

I hope things are better Hallie. You don't deserve someone that would give you that kind of gift...even as a joke. It's not funny. Let's not even consider the fact that you aren't supposed to have weapons at school. He sounds dangerous for you (dangerous in general).

I hope you are safe. There is someone out there for you that will not only love you, but will support your effort to stop SI-ing.

(((((Hallie)))))

I agree with 1day and everyone else here.

Hugs(( u )) if you want them.

thanks but i still suck at life

don't let it suck the life out of you

NO ONE sucks at life *HUUUG*

i think i am going crazy-for real. lately, i have been triggered a lot more. and I found myself thinking, maybe if I was in a hospital it would be better b/c i would be surrounded by people who care and will help me. plus i'd have someone to talk to 24/7.

((((((((Hallie)))))))) If you feel like the hospital is where you need to be, then maybe you are right. It's your opinion that counts the most. Fortunately, they don't keep people in there forever these days. They will help you start coping and be better prepared to deal with your life. Do what you need to do so that you can get better.

*hugs* I've felt that way too sometimes HaLlie *HUGS* I agree with rap,

we spoke about it and he told me he just thought i would like it. he didnt mean anything by it, but to give me a cool gift. but i have like i guessed "relapsed" cause i am thinking about it all the time again. what should i do?

well we broke up like 2 days after V day so he wont even talk to me. I am not sure what is wrong with him, everything was fine until then.

sorry to hear that hun *hugs*