am i doing this because of puberty or because of my past?

Hi! i'm 15 and just registered to ask about my problem and what it means thanks. I was sexually abused when i was little and my theory is its made me act strange cos i keep wanting to touch penises including my boss (i babysit at his home) and my friend's dad and a man at the beach. I know this is wrong to do but i keep doing it without thinking and have let those men touch my body too. I feel like this when i sit and talk with a guy for a few minutes, my breathing goes fast and very wet underwear from excite. Am i doing this because of puberty or because of my past?

I suspect it's due to your past.

I would suspect the same. I don't know your situation, but can you get therapy for your past sexual abuse? I think it is common for abused people to compulsively try to relive the events. I was never abused and don't have experience with it, but I would reccomend therapy to help you control your urges.

Your past, without a question.

Imagine what would be happening if all pubescent girls did that.

Wow i posted that post the day i registered on the 23rd march, and then it never got approved until now. but since the 23rd match i decided not to tell anyone about those things. but now its been approved . i have touched my bosses penis and he let me but then the next day said its wrong to do until i'm 18. and i have touched my friend's dad's too. and the man at the beach but it was not a stranger. i was sexual abused when i was 11, my mums boyfriend asked me to touch his penis.

i never told anyone about it. but can talk online about it now i guess. well i typed this post anyway so i can.

Some of my girlfriends like to wear shot shorts and pretty open tops to turn on guys. so i thought my girlfriends might be like me i do too so i asked one if wearing it makes her feel excited around guys and she said yes! it feels nice to wear around men and my boobs grew fast early

Yes, I understand that part. Going braless under contoured tops and stopping traffic was exciting to me too but I never touched anybody's penis the way you do.

Your boss sounds cautious of legal ramifications. That is good because that should keep him in check.

i took up tennis because the fashion was nice for that but i wear sports bras now and the skirts are nice anyway.

at least he lets me hug him which is nice, he is single so lucky in that way at least<3

Yes, sports bras are very important. Title Nine (if you are in the US) has the biggest collection of sports bras that have been thoroughly tested by staff and volunteers.

i'm in australia but thanks- i buy a lot of things from america cos of online stores

And 12+ years ago I bought an Australian wool diaper cover for my baby daughter, online, because Australians (and New Zealanders) make the best wool products on Earth. At least "made" back then.

So it goes both ways .

guilty as charged

Hi there.

It sounds to me this is based off of what you went through in the past (which do allow me to say, I am sorry this ever happened to you ). The responses people have to trauma are as varied as the people themselves, but sometimes, in my own casual observations here, sometimes people try to "normalize" what they went through by recreating it later on in life, to varying degrees. Unfortunately, your abuse was how you were introduced to sexuality. This can cause unusual sexual behavior later in life. I'd wager this is what you're experiencing.

Have you ever sought a therapist? They can help you work through what you went through, and help reduce the urge to continue doing this. It can only help.

I hope I was of some help. Know you're in my prayers, and I wish you all of the best.

Hugs,
Harley

PS: Did not know that about Australian wool...lol I'll need to keep that in mind if I ever upgrade my pea coat.

that explains it, i see now! i was taught how to touch my mums bf and then to make it ok i kept doing it with others! thank you for explaining and also i thought it was really amazing to see how my mums bf's changed size and the erupting which i think everyone can admit is amazing.

yes i see a therapist about my wrong feelings about men cos my mum notice it but i never told my therapist about my mums bf. i never told anyone but now that i said it online i think i can say it out loud hopefully soon. at first i just thought it was a biiology problem because being around nice men made my clothes wet and breath deeply. but its my mind i think. unless its like a combination of my body being too sensitive and my past. not sure if my body reactions are connected to me liking making men erupt or if they are separate things.

my mums bf let me in the bed when mum was out and now when i'm babysitting at my bosses house i get in his bed when he is out.

thank you Harley that is nice!

It is not just wool, but everything related to sheep/lamb. Lamb from Australia and New Zealand tastes a million times better than lamb raised in the States.

Yes, those things are amazing, and that you find them amazing is, in and of itself, great. Do not lose that part.

Your choice of a verb is really amazing. I have seen this verb used this way a few times, but not often. Yet, it is really best.

The alternatives:

- ejaculate - sounds clinical, medical, and takes too long to pronounce all the 4 syllables

- come/cum - boring, very boring

Erupt is really great and conveys the volcano-like reaction. I can see how you would find it amazing.

I hope you do not lose your sense of wonder about those things as you grow up. It is really refreshing to read your posts, and I am sure that people in your RL find your being so genuine disarming and extremely attractive. Not that long blonde hair on the avatar is not attractive - it is, but long blonde hair is achievable via the use of peroxide, while your sense of wonder and being so genuine cannot be achieved via using any commercial products.

Just be careful.

thank you hambam for being so nice about me! mum said i'm dirty and my friends are supportive but one gf said i was trying to steal her bf cos i stared at his pants too much. i just want to be happy and i need relief or i'm on edge and uptight too much. if i could be married it would be heaven[if my husband likes being with me] and i keep imagining it

Technically speaking, you cannot steal her bf because he is not her property - he decides for himself what to do, being a citizen of Australia (all citizens of Australia enjoy the ability to exercise their free will).

At the same time, it is a bit socially awkward to stare at someone's pants too much - it is more appropriate to make eye contact and look at the face, from time to time, and at the body as a whole, from time to time, but not focus on the zipper.

he melted me into jelly and i forgot where my eyes were. at least when it happens with adults its ok cos they are mature and i think they expect me to be silly cos my age lol. my boss understands me and accepts my hormoan problems.

well apparently my response to this was a little too much for a forum devoted to sex related issues. seems its been deleted

anyhow, i was just trying to be supportive and encouraging. that is why we're all here, after all.

anyhow, just be safe and don't get any men sent to jail for messing around with a minor.... if the law is different over there, than just be safe and have fun. try not to tear up any marriages or anything.

Olive just be careful please. I was sexually assaulted when I was only 4yrs old....I was so confused about my feelings....I started masterbating when I was only 7yrs old....now I'm 19 I'm sexually confused with where I stand....do I like girls...do I like guys....do I only like girls or both guys and girls???! Just be careful with what u do now while ur young because u might attract... And unintentionally attract men who want more then ur hand on their penis....please stay safe for me.

Hamster....the lamb here is amazing! Marinaded in soy sauce and olive oil cooked on the barbie! It's the most perfect thing in the world!! Haha

thanks ii appreciate it
no problem, i never feel attracted to married guys

sorry about that thing that happened to you , thats sooooooo young

for sure i didnt feel ready for intercourse when a boy took my clothes off but maybe i'm ready for more than just touchies now if its the man i have a crush on! but outside of my crush i will be careful

Of course. Anytime

.. and that's good. less guys i have to compete with then . kidding.
Its good cuz tearing up families is not.