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Apr 16, 2005, 07:20 AM
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Being programmed to suicide-by-"acciden"t- i had been confounded by the first act of self-destruction which felt against my will. At 17 when I went to the school shrink secretely he had tipped off the mother- she was furious and punitive and I impulsively ran in front of a car - injured head trauma etc) BUT working all these years towards understanding the voice that prompts self-destruction -I have recognized the programming by the perpetrators and can RESIST the commands. I believe there was devine intervention but this is not the place tho air religious concepts. It IS the place to provoke hope for all that you CAN keep putting it all together (like kd just did with her perm). Thank you for listening.
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Apr 17, 2005, 08:41 AM
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Here to elaborate what i learned- been away in a fugue very brief.
I was programed to have a accident if i ever told on THEM as a kid. Didnt have the nerve till highschool but after 1 time with school shrink I ran across traffic waiting for a car as reported by witnesses. Iremember NOTHING of this except coming to after concussion. It was 2 more years before i was back in mental health system in an ER and then admitted . I had never understood why it felt so dangerous to go to a T even as an adult until this week. This is sadistivc abuse /ritual abuse Ansd Im AFRAID as HELL for whats coming up next- but ill live - i have this long. Thanks for letting me go on------and on & on.. . . ? |
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#3
Apr 17, 2005, 09:02 AM
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i need to say here too that knowing people read and theres nothing dsaid is more power for the one that whispers about- theyll never believe you you cant escape- this doesnt happen in real life your crazy and they will lock you up- i am a contaminant and dirty You RUIN everything you touch no one will ever go near you.
feel like a leper |
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#4
Apr 17, 2005, 09:21 AM
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DO NOT believe what is made not born an imaculate conception created to think the thoughts speak the dscipt it has to be disman-tled and put washed and put together again IN ORDER starting with verbal ones
IGNORE - it was her she is here in this |
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#5
Apr 17, 2005, 06:03 PM
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she got your message she is not alive gone you are all right shes not worth saving a she wasnt even real in the world and time dead dead oand o
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#6
Apr 17, 2005, 06:30 PM
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(((((((((((((((((((((( kathyanita )))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i want you to know that i'm listening to you hon. i'm here. you're not alone in thought, and i care. i'm glad you're safe for now. loving thoughts, kd
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#7
Apr 17, 2005, 06:35 PM
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wee are laughhing at SAFE what is the definition it is NOT what we hear
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#8
Apr 17, 2005, 06:40 PM
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<font color="green">Kathy I am so glad you were able to resist the abusers' programing. I just saw this post this afternoon. I am sorry that you are feeling neglected. safe hugs if you want them.
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dalila Worry is like a rocking chair. It gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere. -Erma Bombeck |
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#9
Apr 17, 2005, 07:23 PM
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she does not exist
=she cant resist |
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#10
Apr 17, 2005, 08:23 PM
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Kathyanita,
I believe you, I hope you can resist. There's a lot of people here that care about you. Please keep safe! Stay in touch. Mandy |
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#11
Apr 17, 2005, 08:30 PM
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I don' t have much to add other than I am reading what you write and the connections you are making.
Wishing for positive things for you kathyanita. |
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