Stuff for ladies! I feel repulsed and disgusting when I remember.

My mum used to say such horrible things when she was at 'that time of the month.' If I did something wrong she would say that I was a rotten mongrel and she hoped that when I got my (things that girls get) that she hoped I would suffer. she would say that she hopes that i would get as sick as a dog. When I finally got to that age I couldn't tell her because I was so ashamed. When I finally did she made me show her. (won't go into details) I felt so awful. Even now it must be 10 years ago. I think about those days and it brings tears to my eyes. What she did was sick. I was never allowed any privacy. No doors were allowed to be shut. Even while going to the toilet and shower or getting dressed. I used to have to cover myself up because she would come in whenever she wanted. If she even mentions anything about girls stuff I just feel like ripping my skin off. It completely repulses me. I feel so disgusting when i think about her and how she would walk around with her body showing. Parts that I never want to see again. But I'll never forget.
Oh and by the way....I never really have much troubles with those girls things either. She didn't get what she wished for.
Hope this isn't too grose to write about, but it's something that I think about. Wanted to get it off my chest.

I'm so sorry estee! That is so harmful and abusive. Please be kind to yourself now. You deserve it.

So sorry Estee! My gosh... such monstrous behaviour. A mother is supposed to nurture her child. That is not nurturing!! You are a wonderful person. You deserve the best. You can only go UP..from here.

Take good care of yourself!!

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I'm so sorry. What terrible memories!

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time0

((((((((estee))))))))))) I'm so sorry you suffered that. No young woman deserves it...not one.

Be safe,

KD

Estee, I'm right there with ya. My mom didn't give me any trouble about "that time of the month," because I had to learn about it from a book and a film strip in school, and I still didn't understand it, but she wouldn't talk to me about it.

The walking around unclothed thing my mom STILL does, and she's 76. I find it nauseating as well. No little kid needs to be looking at an unclothed adult, least of all a parent. Bleah. I'm getting sick remembering it too. It plays a fair part in my trauma, but I'll spare you why.

You are NOT gross and repulsive and disgusting, SHE is. Hang on to that.

Hugs,
Candy

I don't remember how I learned about that stuff but I do remember standing by the washing machine and my mother making a big deal about showing me my dirty pants and making me "show" myself off to her. You're not alone and this kind of thing should never have happened to you me or anyone.

My mom would yell her head off at me, usually in front of my brother and dad, about bleeding during the night onto my sheets, like I was horrible and stupid and I did it on purpose. I remember one time too she called me home from the neighbors' house to yell at me about getting white shorts messy.

God bless the mom of my best friend next door. Beth and I lived a block from our elementary school, so we used to go to her house for lunch, since my mom worked. Mrs. Polson never made a fuss about it, she would come and get me at school if she saw I was having a "heavy" day and bring me home and wash out my pants and stuff in cold water for me. And she never, EVER told me I was dumb or stupid or dirty. but it still didn't counteract enough what my mom said.

I'm really sorry, everyone. I wish none of us had had to suffer this.

Candy

One more thing -- I didn't remember my mom did any of that till just now! Make sme wonder what else is hiding!

Sorry your mum treated you like that.

I have similar memories --- I felt dirty and shameful. I learned what little I knew from a wonderful loving neighbor mom who had two daughters - she had them look at the natural process in a beautiful way-- which I tried to adopt-- but it was difficult when I was at my own home. Going through the first few times alone was scary for me- my mom saw the whole thing as an inconvience as she had just gone through menopause and didn't want to be bothered ever again in any way with such "dirtiness".

Hooray for you, that you didn't have much trouble with those girl things! Glad you got this off your chest- and me too!

mandy

Oh man. Those stories are really sad. Some parents are unaware of how their words can cause such anguish.

Me too, sorry to say I am part of that club.

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I am so glad you were able to post this. I can really understand your feelings on this one. That should of never happened. It is wonderful to know that she didnt not get what she was wishing for. You are a strong women and she wasn't going to win on this one. I love talking to you in chat. I have only known you for a short while but you sure are easy to talk to and a very kind person.

Leslie

Thanks Leslie. You too. I haven't been to chat for a while. It's usually empty when i go there lately. sending you heaps of hugs

Gosh Estee. . .I'm so sorry you suffered through this. My mother couldn't be bothered to let me know about this stuff before hand. I came home from school one day with a note from my teacher and my poor poor grandfather was left to deal with me. He did the only thing he could do. . .hug me, and head to the store. He bought one of EVERYTHING that was on the shelves there. I learned "on the fly" you might say. My mother was horribly abusive to me; she too used my monthly "guest" as just another way to humilate me. I was a dancer in middle school, and made me "prove" that I was too heavy to continue using traditional methods for my cycles. I had to "earn" tampons each month for dance class. She gloried in my misery.

Wouldn't it be awesome if we could all find an island somewhere. . .and put the mothers on it.