[notz]

(((((((gma))))))))))

My bride will be discharged from the hospital today. It will be good to have her home. I feel fortunate to have a "significant other" and to be loved is a real gift from above. I love her, faults and all. ACCEPTENCE

[madisgram]

Re Drug addiction and Alcoholism Recovery

“Before you can break out of prison, you must realize you are locked up.” — Author Unknown

Re Abusing Alcohol and Drugs

“Not feeling is no replacement for reality. Your problems today are still your problems tomorrow”
― Larry Michael Dredla

.......hi

[roads]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

.......hi

hi

glad you're here

[akelaash16]

id like to discuss something and maybe get help, but idk where to post or if anyone will respond...any users who can talk maybe??

[gma45]

Doing a bit better just have no energy. I did go to meeting last night and did hear something that I liked. Your mind is like a dark ally you shouldn't go in alone! Going to meeting again tonight so I can stay out of that dark alley! lol!

I am clean and sober. I try to share the message that life without booze and illegal drugs is livable.

I'm here, and I'm OK and abstinent. The past few days have been a bit different/challenging, because of eating things that aren't generally on my food plan. However, I am slowly learning that abstinent does not need to mean rigid. Exceptions can be made, new foods can be tried, as long as there is no binge eating or eating trigger foods.

Hope everyone is doing well.

[madisgram]

Have a drinking problem? Want to stop drinking?

If you want to quit drinking, you are going to have to quit drinking.

[gma45]

I am here doing better. I just don't understand my ups and downs sometimes. I went to meeting yesterday it was good, I even tried to speak a little bit....deep breath......which went ok I didn't die. lol! Thanks for listening.

[roads]

Originally Posted by gma45

I am here doing better. I just don't understand my ups and downs sometimes. I went to meeting yesterday it was good, I even tried to speak a little bit....deep breath......which went ok I didn't die. lol! Thanks for listening.

I'm so glad you didn't die!!

I'm a bipolar alikie, so I have just had to *accept* those "ups and downs" as something I cannot change and ask for support in riding them out without falling off in the process.

Not easy, but with my incredible sponsor and friends (whom I must remember to call on, not hide from), I make it ... One day at a time. The miracle is that everyone can who has the tenacity to take those baby steps.

I am so proud of you for going to that meeting ... And speaking!

Roadie

[madisgram]

Originally Posted by gma45

I am here doing better. I just don't understand my ups and downs sometimes. I went to meeting yesterday it was good, I even tried to speak a little bit....deep breath......which went ok I didn't die. lol! Thanks for listening.

i'm so glad u're taking action gma. you will never regret it.
as for the ups and downs they tell us especially in the first year of recovery our emotions are all over the place. like a roller coaster ride of emotions. partly because the body and mind are striving for balance. balance we didn't have when we abused drugs/alcohol. we were plain numb. i'm recover"ed" and also bipolar. perhaps it creates more of a challenge, idk. but i have had less bipolar moments, lol, since i stopped drinking altogether. hang with us. we want all good things for you.
OH and so glad you spoke!!!!!

[madisgram]

Looking back, you realize that a very special person passed briefly through your life, and that person was YOU. It is not too late to become that person again. ~Robert Brault

Ugh, been having a lot of rough days lately. Been off the hard drugs for almost 2 years but still doing other things. Lately though I just want them so bad. Thankfully I have no money what so ever and no way to get any money either. Things are rough though and I'm worried of what I might get into when I get some extra cash. *hopefully things will start getting better*

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[roads]

I'm glad you've posted here, imabananin. Saying what your concerns are is good--puts it out there for you are others to see and keep in mind.

All of us on this forum either are where you are or have been there and remember. We are here to support you and each other. Stop in every day to let us know how you're doing and find out how the rest of us are managing our daily work for a sober life.

Welcome to PsychCentral too! . I'm a bipolar alcoholic, so you'll find me most often in one of these forums ... but I wander since many fit my needs from day to day. Make yourself at home.

Almost 4 months now since I quit smoking, Okay I know that I had that blip but I realized how stupid I was thanks to Roadie and my family

[roads]

Hugs, KC! I love you

Love you too Roadie

[madisgram]

"I am powerless but not helpless."

i once felt powerless over alcohol and kept relapsing. i felt i was hopeless. the longer i have stayed sober the less i feel helpless. recognizing that i was powerless while drinking gave me the willingness to change.

i went to my first meeting of AA this morning, no NA in my town... I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.

[justaSeeker]

With much help and patience, alcoholism and crack no longer have their hold over my life, for this I am so very grateful.

Nicotene still has me in it's grip though, it's a 39 year old addiction. At this late date I can't call it a 'habit' as some do. I am definitely feeling the bad heath effects of it, this past year.

I also struggle with another drug dependence, which I don't feel like putting a name to just quite yet. It's hard enough on me knowing that it too, has a grip.

I still have this love/hate relationship with Bipolar. Hate the depression aspect, but dayuum if I don't kinda love the hypo/manic side of the disorder.

Thus the dilemma, I'm dependent (addicted?) to that drug so that I can have the mania. That's just plain screwed up, isn't it?

I know my life will get better, but, sometimes, it just doesn't feel that way. I know someone out there has to know what I'm talking about here. For truly I can't be alone in all of this. Somebody, help???

[gma45]

Just checking in today. I have a bad toothache, face swollen, started on antibiotics last night. I sure hope they work. I am hopeful I will get to meeting tonight, I think I need one it has been three days. Been job hunting again today, I wish the job I have now would just give me more hours. Don't think that is going to happen as it has been 7 months since I started and they still keep saying just hang in there they will try to give me more hours, I am tired of waiting.

[gma45]

Wow Me again! I have to remember to have a open mind. When you think you have your self together that's when you better take a closer look. Principles before Personalities! I went to another meeting tonight. can you tell? There are just some people that make me shake my head. Myself being one of them!

Living. learning. loving. maybe even teaching. praying and cuddling and nurturing and being nurtured. Blessed art thou for thy blessings bestowed unto me, and just because...