....looks like the good habit I got at the moment is comin' on here and sayin' I haven't got a bad one!

sober

...it's all here, everything I would need for drinking,

everything except the going and the getting.

sober

[madisgram]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

...it's all here, everything I would need for drinking,

everything except the going and the getting.

sober

whaz up, DM? did i misinterpret your post?

Originally Posted by madisgram

whaz up, DM? did i misinterpret your post?

probably madisgram...my mind was a bit mixed up yesterday so wasn't making much sense no doubt.
I think I meant that all the usual factors for drinking were in place, like hot day, bad mood, little concern for consequences, need for escape....things like that.
except the actual making it happen.....this was not a factor.
so still sober.

....just keeping it simple today.

sober

[mgran]

Proud of myself today. Towards eight o clock I started really wanting a drink, and thinking of going up to the shops to buy a bottle of wine. So, I took myself upstairs and got into my pjs, made myself a big mug of hot chocolate, then settled in front of the telly as comfortably as possible, telling myself I didn't want to move since I was so snug. The shop is now shut, so I can't get a drink anyway, and I realised that all you have to do is resist temptation for a while, then it goes away.

Fingers crossed for tomorrow.

[notz]

fingers crossed with you...

[mgran]

Thanks Notz.

Sometimes I read on here about people who've managed to be sober for years, and I get quite panic stricken about it, because I can't imagine years. I've gone months in the past without it, and obviously when I was younger, pregnant, nursing, all those things, I didn't drink at all, never thought about it. It just crept up on me while my husband was ill, and since then it's come and gone in cycles. So I suppose it's been a problem since 2008.

[RapidFlyer]

Today, Just for Today, I am sober and abstinent and smoke free. I can handle today.

Today I will not drink, drug, overeat, or smoke. today I have not done any one of those things.

Today I am grateful that I only have to stay sober and abstinent for today. There is no way I could do this forever.

So I am sticking with today.

another one for my gratitude list...

3: I fall to sleep instead of passing out.

this thread here is like my own little AA meeting..(well not just mine )
thanks for this madisgram.

sober today

[beauflow]

These past days have been hard -- last week was hard on thoughts to going back-- BUT I keep TRYING TO remember I WOULD Lose everything if I DID and what would i want to accomplish with going back to that life.. IT Is very hard, but to be strong another day is worth that--

I refere to hard drugs there

In addition- TODAY when I got home from work I WANTED To drink so bad, just get plastered, and I DID NOT-- I stayed up, I WROTE IN my JOURNAL, I went to the store and came home and talked to my boyfriend on a range of things bothering me-- I FEEL so much better...

And to think I wanted to get plastered which would had just made me all over the place and pass out-- what a waste that would had been.... and sadly I can say honestly I KNOW That is true for i have done that--- TRYING BEST My new year to be better... and to stick to my rules on alcohol.

[hopefultoday]

Someone told me today, "You seem healthier." I am, because I am so much happier now. Life is starting to get better. Relationships are healing and things are getting better. One Day At A Time!

[RapidFlyer]

I went to a meeting tonight and the subject was on dealing with stress without picking up. It was really good. People shared about calling people instead of picking up, focusing on the next right thing, working the steps, taking things one item at a time, and calling their sponsor before they picked up. there were lots of other things mentioned but these were the things that stuck with me.

It was a great meeting and a wonderful source of information and resources. I am glad I am sober today and able to go to a meeting.

today I got very close to activating my inner drinker.

...discussions took place with madmen and psycho's in my head, and these guys are still dis-appointed in their uniquely twisted uniquely troubled me kinda way...dis-appointed that all the chatter accomplished nothing.

so I guess gratitude 4: able to reflect on this with a sober mind...instead of just being really pissed and believing I had know choice.

day at a time

[summeryoga]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

so I guess gratitude 4: able to reflect on this with a sober mind...instead of just being really pissed and believing I had know choice.

day at a time

Sober reflection is good, J ... Really good. One breath at a time, my friend. And now go get your Aussie arse into a real AA ...

Originally Posted by summeryoga

Sober reflection is good, J ... Really good. One breath at a time, my friend. And now go get your Aussie arse into a real AA ...

...thats the best approach with me A.
just givin' it to me tough...very cool. I understand the language and I can't ignore it.

sober

2 days smoke free

there are several things I consider to be important at the moment...

I will begin at the end!

6: hmmmm what was that about?
5: it's great I didn't go ridiculous on the forum
4: with my alcoholic brain.
3: something inside me just said yes
2: to alcohol
1: I had a drink.

now working in reverse...

1: bothering me for days I am sick of this discomfort in my head.
2: if I wait long enough like three days it won't seem so desperate.
3: and this control surely will be available after I imbibe
4: well I am already there and the transformation has taken place
5: can I remember why I did this?
6: feeling bad is not possible now and that was deliberate

[madisgram]

it was that old monkey on your back, DB. the power of alcohol is very patient. strikes when it pleases. be viligent. i am even after 22 yrs. my disease could rear it's ugly head at any moment. it's what i do when it does that makes the difference in how i react to it.

Originally Posted by madisgram

it was that old monkey on your back, DB. the power of alcohol is very patient. strikes when it pleases. be viligent. i am even after 22 yrs. my disease could rear it's ugly head at any moment. it's what i do when it does that makes the difference in how i react to it.

yes it was that monkey. the only choice I have madisgram is to cage that boy again!
it is unrealistic to be so thirsty!

I will be back.......at least I am optomistic!

and sayin' sorry is downright stupid!

[Caretaker Leo]

Still here and glad I haven't fallen completely apart!

Thanks again to Madisgram for this thread.

[roads]

I'm going to spend the night at AA meetings. It's the best/safest place for me.
Wish me luck please, because I think I may need that too.

My dad died 19 yrs ago last night. He was an alcoholic, didn't tell me till the first time I visited after I'd been in a 6-wk residential rehab I'd checked myself into. Until then the myth was there were no drunks in our family.

My dad died from Alzheimer's. I was his caregiver. Actually those last years were our best adult years together. But anniversaries of late have been very hard. Tonight at work I realized I'd forgotten the date, and the guilt was a physical blow.

I'm not handling it well. I couldn't get hold of anyone, even my sponsor, fast enough & panicked. Holed up at home & now am at a meeting. I'll just keep going, there are mtgs all night somewhere in the area. Or I'll stay at my sponsor's.

[gma45]

Checking in....I am proud today. I am seeing some progress. I was upset today with my son in law instead of name calling I refrained, I just let him know I thought his actions were rude. I avoided a big argument about how immature I think he is and how he needs to grow up imo.

seeya round Jan...

not sober