any ideas?

I'm not sure if this fits into anxiety ...as i don't really know what my problem is?
Iv had this problem since i was 12, (I'm now 18)and since then whenever i feel happy in life about an event such as going on holiday, or knowing I'm going to do something good my mind like, hits a "wall" if u will and stops me enjoying myself. the best way to explain it is to picture someone telling u not to think of elephants, then u do cos they've sed it- but in my case i can't forget about it i just keep thinking about it. When I'm doing ordinary things such as school or something i forget about the problem..but when it comes to a holiday for example it comes back instead of "getting on with it" sub conciously. is this just a negative block in my mind i need to forget or something serous? help anyone please thanks

Hi Kirk and welcome to PC!!!!

I think I need just a little more information from you. What thoughts are you thinking about? To the same thoughts reoccur? Do these thoughts cause you serious distress? Please let me know more so I can help you. I hope all is going well and hope to hear from you real soon.

Take care,

Jen

it depresses me and causes stress when its bothering me, not to a serious level though. its something hard to explain. picture a type 1 and type 2 personality. type is when u do stuff subconcoiusly, and type 2 is thinking ur thinking about stuff. type 2 is basically getting in the way of my usual train of thought when im about to do something fun or important. personally i think i shud see a therapist, but im not sure if its something they hav come across before? thanks

Hello and welcome to PC .

When you talk about "holiday" and feeling happy about it, but then your mind hits a wall and you do not enjoy yourself........could you explain that more ? For example, if you know that in 2 weeks you are going to go on holiday, do you start to think things like "oh, I bet I do not have fun", or do you start feeling physically ill, or have you EVER been on a holiday that was very unpleasant - or you got sick while on holiday, or something traumatic happened while you were away? Also - do you actually GO on Holiday even though your mind has hit a wall or do you not go because you know you will not have a good time?

I am SURE a therapist will have dealt with this issue. IF you think you need to see one, that is a pretty good indicator that you should.

Glad you posted, and hopefully you will post more about how this is impacting your life, and we can understand a bit better, and perhaps offer some help and support.

thanks for replying
i dont feel physical sickness rather mental unpleasantness, it does get depressing thinking about it. im off on holiday to australia in a few hours and this is why i choose to discuss it as it has been on my mind for the last few days. i have taken it on holiday before and it does taint things- i do enjoy miself but since this problem i have never been able to be really excited or positive about going to do someting as i fear it will be on my mind and it usually does.
it began when i was 12 when my mum bought me a game for my PC,i was chuffed to have it and found it unusual my mum buying meone. and for a joke in my mind, i told myself it wud remind me of somone i didnt like at school, one of those "wudnt it be funny if" moments i guess. and instead of forgetting about it it stayed in my mind. it wsnt him tht was in my mind, it was jst well, this problem now. i just like- didnt let myself forget it. I dont know why, i was always a worryer when i was a kid and thts why i placed this in anxiety. since then wen something good happens like holiday for example i get this negative block. Im not necessarily an unhappy person, im always smiling and laughing, its just when it comes to these situations! hope this gives people a better understanding, i havent told many people how it started , but it needs to be said. thank u