Here comes another one :-((

On my way to pick my kids up from school. Start to panic. Breathing slowly, trying to concentrate on that while driving. Start getting dizzy. Had to pull over once I picked up the 2 eldest. Then on my way again to get my youngest. Finally made it to my youngest daughters school. Had to pull over again. Now I am parked on the side of the road. Sitting on my ph. Typing on here. Just want get home, but to scared to drive

Gees, What a horrible day.... The Anxiety has not settled at all. Have done breathing, tablets, Read a book, hopped on the internet, writing... I'm scared I am gana have a full bown panic attack....

((((((((((((Ambrosa))))))))))))))))) My heart really goes out to you. I know EXACTLY what it feels like to spend hours, days even, having mini panic attacks and not being able to calm down in between. I would not wish this on my worst enemy. I'm so sorry

Do you have another appointment to see your doctor? I think you said you've recently re-started medication?? Can you check in with your doc and tell him that you're still doing really badly? I think you also said you're about to re-start therapy, which is really good.

I'm thinking of you and sending comforting hugs and peaceful thoughts (((((((((((Ambrosa))))))))))))))))

I have the appointment today to start to work on other techniques. And a appointment next week with my doctor, she wanted to wait 2 weeks to let the meds take place.
I have been doing so well in the last couple of days... Now My nerves are just shot. I am to scared to drive anywhere, especially by myself now. i was supposed to go to a meeting last night and couldn't make that. The thought of Driving was setting me off again. Then i couldn't settle at all last night rang one of the 24 hour help lines and they just told me to have another tablet. I didn't want to have another tablet I just wanted someone to talk to me. He wasn't much help at all i think i spoke to him for about 5 mins. I got off the ph feeling soooo angry. There a help line, not just a " I'm here cause i wana get paid" Man I used to work with case managers like that. They didn't give a **** about the clients and would whinge about them and make fun of them.. Makes me so angry.
Thanks Sundog

((((Ambrosa))))

(((((Ambrosa)))))) I really know what you mean about your nerves being shot. That happens to me too and then doing pretty much anything becomes very difficult. I'm really sorry you're going through that. And I'm so sorry the crisis line people sucked too .

I really hope your appointment today is helpful. Let us know!

i hear you!!! hugs!!!! thats what i just got through saying about 3 hours ago. here it comes! jumped in the shower, took 3x my medication, prayed on my knees for help, confided in a very helpful relative on the phone. i thought i was going to go nuts again. but through all this thank God here it came again and then there it left again. just thinking i would love to get to the point when they come i can truly say, well, what in the heck, go ahead come on panic attack, I DON'T CARE!!!!. i bet that would help to have that mindset and lack of fear. idk, God bless you and God always protect you and heal you soon of this affliction.

I went to my appointment this afternoon. I was in there for over 45 mins. He was so helpful. Mind u he is not a Therapist as i can't afford one atm. He's is just a normal GP. But he told me he will see me weekly and help me out in any way. He spoke to me about allot of things especially CBT, showed me some relaxation techniques. Some things to read. I see him again next week. Been doing what he has been telling me to do all arvo. Now it's coming into night time starting to get a little anxious/scared.
Thanks so much for your support sundog. Thanks everyone for your support

Sorry to hear that Josh It's such a horrible feeling!!! I hate having to drive anywhere by myself now. I get my partner to come with me when ever i can. He doesn't understand panic attacks as he has never had one. The lucky bugger. But he asked this afternoon if he could read the book I am reading so he has some insight on it and can do more to help me. Just hearing that from him was so awesome.
Thanks for your kind words Josh.

Thanks to everyone for there support, really nead it atm

Yay! I'm so glad you have such a nice GP who really takes his time with you and wants to help. That's great!!! Well done for practicing the techniques he showed you today. I really hope you start noticing a positive difference

Ambrosa, I just want to say how impressed I am by how strong you've been. This is such a hard thing to deal with and you're staying strong and getting help. A lot of people don't do what you've done for yourself.

Keep the faith!

Cyran0

[quote=Cyran0;1801852]Ambrosa, I just want to say how impressed I am by how strong you've been. This is such a hard thing to deal with and you're staying strong and getting help. A lot of people don't do what you've done for yourself.

Keep the faith!

Thanks Cyran0 for your kind words. But I don't feel to strong atm... It sometimes feels like it is over powering me. It is such a battle I have been fighting it so much the last couple of days. It's so hard to hold on, u feel like u are gana go insane! I just want 1 day where i don't feel anxious or have a panic attack and one day where i don't have a twinge of pain shoot through my chest (because of my stupid shoulder) and me think heart attack!! I am starting to forget what normality feels like... I wouldn't wish this stuff for anyone. I am just glad i found this site where other people understand.

(((((((((((Ambrosa))))))))))))))))

Ambrosa, I KNOW you are strong.

My first therapist, on hearing my story, said, 'Anyone else would be dead.'
Since then, people keep telling me that I'm brave. And I think, 'How can they say that when my daily life is such a mess?'

Aside from this website, I have never met anyone who has a clue just how messed up I am. But I am still here.

I don't know what else to say. Life is a marathon. Stress and anxiety is a marathon. It is really tough. But you are still in it. Congrats to you and I'm glad you are here and posting. thanks for sharing

roses

Thank you so much for your kind word Rose4me. I know I'm strong but don't always feel it.

This illness is hell Ambrosa but we have to keep fighting. Thankfully, none of us have to fight alone. Take it day by day.

I hope you start to feel better soon.

Cyran0

Well one good thing! I had to go to my friends house tonight. And drove there by myself. It's a 20 min drive each way. But I didn't get anxious or have a panic attack! First time in weeks for me with driving. Usually i have to have my partner in the car with me or someone with me. But yay!!!!

Yay!!!!!!!!!!!! That's AWESOME!!!!!!

Ambrosa great news! That must have felt great.

Thanks guys! It did feel really good. Like I finally got a little bit of independence back. Wonder how long for tho??? That part scares me.....

My mind always wants to go there too!!!! But try and just savor your achievement. It's an awesome achievement and I think the more we revel in the good feelings, the more likely they are to become a solid foundation.

Wow, exactly what sundog said. No way I could put it better.

Cyran0