I Feel So Guilty!

I feel so guilty. I am up at 5.30am because I'm feeling too guilty to let myself sleep. I keep thinking these thoughts over and over.....
I can't sleep because I should be doing other things.
I'm wasting my life away.
Time is running out.
I'm getting old.
Bla Bla bla
Stinking guilt!!! It's such a slave driver

I feel bad. I'm scared. Last night before I went to bed I was having lots of obsessions. More and more things in my house are becoming weapons that smeone could kill me with. I have to make sure I put belts away, certain power cords, pillows, knives, and coat hangers. I'm wondering how many more things will become weapons. It's only getting worse. It only used to be knives. I'm scared of fire and having obsessions about being stabbed.

Estee,

I'm sorry you suffer from compulsions. I've heard that prescribed medications can help some people.

I had a really awful day yesterday, and got enough sleep for you and me this morning. I was OUT until almost noon.

I hope you're feeling better soon.

Keep us posted.

Jane

I'm new here Estee1, and I feel for you. I wish I could take your guilt and obessions and bundle them up with mine and throw them so far away that they'd never find us again.
I'll say a prayer for you, okay.

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i wish i could come over and bring some sour cream cookies and tea. we'd talk about all of this and perhaps it would help breathe some warmth back into your soul. xoxoxo pat

Guilt's a bummer. Can you shove some affirmations into your brain? Like: I am worthwhile, I am worth love, I am worth compassion, I am worth help. Sounds to me like a therapist might be helpful for you to get through this growing intensity. Do you have access? Please be gentle with yourself.