Feel guilty, even if I know I shouldn't

Recently my sisters dad was put in a psychiatric hospital. I saw them about a month ago and then they were fine. They're kids were happy then. Soon after that they broke up, and well now everything is wrong. It just all went so fast.
I can't help blaming myself though I know I can't have had anything to do with it. My brothers mom is also in the psychiatric hospital, my own mom is not well either and my dad drinks too much. I can't understand why it always has to happen. Why is my whole family mad?
I keep thinking it's my fault, that somehow I cause them all to go mad, because I did something wrong. I know I shouldn't but I can't make the thought go away.
I hate this feeling, feeling guilty and small.

I don't think this is something you should be blaming yourself...

In order to be admited to a mental health facility you would have to have some mental health issues.

It sounds like your family has a lot of stressors right now...

Yeah the problem is that the only thing that links them all together is me. My brother and my sister are only "half" and they're are not realted to each other.
My sister lived with us for a while but she lives with her dad now.. well she lived with her dad, and my brother never lived here. He lived with his stepdad. So it's not like we're close family but it's the only family I got. I just can't make any sense of why they all get mentally ill.
Sometimes I wonder if maybe the whole world is mad.. it would make everything much easier to understand.
Makes me feel so selfish and guilty to see them all going through that. I don't know why.
But I feel guilty about a lot of things. Like when the lights turn green for pedestrians and I'm the only pedestrian, I feel bad for making the cars wait. It's stupid cause I know I shouldn't.

I'm guessing there is more than just you linking them all together. I know it probably doesn't feel that way right now.

Hey Issy,

It seems like you have some excess guilt that is perhaps transferred from another (abusive?) situation that you have experienced (?). Try not to get caught up in it. (Easier said than done). Guilt is like a slow cancer.....

Thinking of you, kiddo.

Desy

p.s.: I hear ya re: solo pedestrian on Xwalk.

I am so sorry that you are going through this.

(((((((((((((( Issy ))))))))))))))

Des made a good post, I agree........

Take care of you,
Fuzzy

Thanks.. all of you
I know I should just stop, but like you said Dessy it's easier said than done.. guess it just builds up, I don't know how not to get caught up in it.
Changing the way you think is much harder than you believe at first. I guess nothing comes easy.

(((((IZZY)))))

((((((((((Isthistherightplace)))))))))
No, it's not you that's making them mad-it's the rest of the world.