Anxiety Daily Check-In Point! #2

Its odd.....I have had anxiety so long, it almost seems normal. Yes, odd.

Some fleeting anxiety over the last couple of days but so far have kept it under control.

I've been called for Jury Duty! I was so happy at first as I've wanted to be a juror as long as I can remember. Then I started thinking about what it will entail and now I'm extremely anxious about the whole thing.
Maybe I'll get screened out by honestly answering about my mental health issues? Maybe my T will get me out of it because of my mental health issues? Maybe I should just suck it up and do it...

I have a huge fear of that



It's midterm time, wow. That was fast, so I got good grades in my classes thus far. I'm halfway there to having my very first college credits.

I have never been called and I am middle age. I cannot serve on a jury since I have a very short attention span.

I've been called for juty duty before but got out of it because of my diagnosis of schitzophrenia.

I have never served because at first it was my lower back and disc injuries and now it's my schizoaffective and PTSD.

My anxiety has been creeping around & popping up-hate that. I'm so tired & irritable-bleh. Related to the jury duty thing I've been called many times but have never actually served-all the cases were dismissed or settled & I think a lot of times they don't want people with medical knowledge serving (I'm an RN). My Mom though has served many times & been on 2 grand juries-my Dad has never even been called-weird.

Y'all are talking my language. I've been called many times and actually served once. It has always been one of my HUGE triggers for panic attack.....in the spot light, not up to it, terrified of standing up and speaking in public, etc,etc etc. The time I actually got chosen, after I got through the process during which I was hyperventilating the whole time, I settled down and it was ok (except I didn't like the case....different story different time).
Last time I got called though, about a year ago, I was able to face it and did great. The few days before I was so worked up that I made myself stop. In my minds' eye suddenly they didn't look so scary. It's just a building. They are just people. I have never ever been able to do that before. It worked!
It also helped when I got in there that I not only recognized the plaintiff but the attorney too. I was easily let off.

If you just tell yourself that most people in the room are nervous too and it's just a room, maybe it won't be so daunting for you. I never had the nerve to speak up about my anxiety to try and get off.
Good luck with it!

I am feeling pretty calm these days. It's time to garden and I am doing it and that always makes me serene at least temporarily.
Plus my husband got through some recent surgery and is healing well. It's nice to feel this way.

My anxiety about getting my finances in order has had me staying up into the wee hours of the morning working on a plan. That means I've been underslept for a couple of days and it really caught up to me today. I am feeling depressed and anxious about finances but I have made some good changes that will help.

My anxiety is building by the moment. I had an encounter with my neighbor who is complaining that I am feeding the stray cats. He wants me to stop feeding them and get rid of them or he will call animal control. I am stressing because I am trying to relocate them and find them homes. But it's not going well. I don't know what to do and where I should feed them. I agreed I will move where I am feeding them but I am worried that they may not find where I put out the food and they will go hungry. I am really stressing by the minute about this

Do you have Humane Society in your community or feral cat people you can call? I had a stray cat I fed and then had spayed through the Humane Society but then finding a home and all that got complicated too. The feral cats folks were the ones to come to my rescue. If you can get some hands on help maybe you can reason with your neighbor to give you just a little bit more time.
I understand your angst!

ps cats are pretty smart about finding new feeding places but get some help. There should be some out there.

At seemingly random times, I start shaking and I start feeling really uneasy and almost a little bit dizzy. I think it's my anxiety. It happened today in science class.. I was just writing some notes and I noticed my hand started shaking, and then I realized my whole body was shaking. Not intense shaking but kinda noticeable if that makes sense? it's weird it just happens randomly. The last time I can remember it happening, I was watching TV and knitting a couple of weeks ago...

Does this happen to anyone else?

After that in class, I felt pretty anxious and upset for the rest of the day. I'm just studying now trying to keep myself busy.. Trying to avoid sleeping..

somatic stuff comes and goes for a whole day today, plus intrusive thoughts.. tired of it, trying to be tough but at moments it gets overwhelming..

I think I'm just going to fill out the juror questionnaire and let the chips fall where they may. I completely forgot to bring it up at my pdoc appointment yesterday but I think she would've encouraged me to participate anyway, so there is that.

I isolate in my house a lot because doing pretty much anything makes me anxious except maybe the grocery store. The weirdest thing though is I act and do theater, and I'm fine with that.

Well today I'm singing/reading poetry in a coffee house fundraiser for my current play, and my anxiety is through the roof - but not performance anxiety. I'm not afraid of screwing up. I'm afraid of the minute details - like, I'm supposed to arrive at 12:30 but that's also when doors open to the public. And also I'm bringing some art to donate/sell and donate the money and I'm worried no one will buy it. And then there's the social aspect, will I say something stupid.

I once almost skipped a dinner at a friends house on my own birthday because she didn't specify whether I should come to the front door or the back door (I'd used both in the past) and without knowing which door was appropriate, I was practically paralyzed.

I get that. I hate the way anxiety can be set off by things that seem so minor to others...

Doing well anxiety wise today-feel pretty good. Hugs to all here

Anxiety worse since the darkness fell.

I am so anxious everyday, i am home bound because of it.

Same here

I have a test on Monday in science class and I'm so anxious for it. I'm always anxious at school I hate being in a room full of people.. There is a girl in my class and she's wanted me to sit in the cafeteria to study with her.. It's been too overwhelming lately though.. There's too much people and i have so much paranoia that they are judging me and laughing at me.. I've had several group projects to do this week and I hate talking to other people.. I don't want them to get to know me.. Especially at school because they'll realise I'm not as smart as them and then make fun if me English class is the worst for me because it's hard for me to analyze things.. I don't cstch on as easily as others... I'm so terrified of going back. It's going to be hard.

I'm having high anxiety with one of my neighbors who does not want me to feed the outside cats anymore. I've been feeding them for over 4 years. He's new in the area. I moved the station where I feed them to across the carport and that's all that I'm going to change but he threatened me with calling animal control on them. So I'm stressing that they are going to be taken away from me. I'm working on getting them a home and have made Flyers with their pictures and put them up at my land preserve . We've gotten good people in the past for our rescue bunnies and cats. But now I'm worried about one of them who is a little more wild than the other who has never lived in a home before- will he be able to be in a home? And can we trap the second one in time for the date to be neutered? It's all overwhelming and I'm stressing out. These are my kids.

Slept pretty well last night-only 1 stress dream that I remember & no anxiety today.