Anxiety Daily Check-In Point! #2

my agoraphobia's really been acting up today.

not that i've had to leave the house, but it's a nice day- and people are out their enjoying themselves and it's triggered lots of anxiety about leaving the house, when i don't have plans to leave today

much more anxiety than usual, and i'm not even doing anything that makes me anxious- you can't win sometimes with anxiety

Anxiety is lower because I'm at my appointment (almost, I'm in the building but haven't gone up yet). So the preparations in my hot apartment are done.

Anxious about going to the gym for the first time in a million years.

I have been having a lot of anxiety and agitation lately but when it gets too bad I take 50mg and hydroxyzine and it seems to work great which is weird because usually it doesn't feel like it helps much. Maybe because I'm rarely using it it's more effective when I do?

Thank you it took two doctor's visits and three rounds of treatment but no hospital. Anxiety is lower today about it all.

I'm stepping out of my comfort zone for the next few days, it should be worth it though

I'm recognizing I've become less anxious these past few days. But I've also done a lot of avoidance. I'm enjoying solitude in my home.

A visit to the chiropractor today helped me relax. A good day.

Anxiety is about a 2 this morning with the hubby out of town. I always get nervous when he's traveling.

Prior to Buspar, I'd be physically ill right now.

Anxiety is getting worse and I only just got up (so late). The noise is going on and sort of burst in on me while I was lying down.

anxiety is pretty bad today.

been feeling borderline switchy (if that's even a thing?. it is now!), and i'm quite positive i saw things and felt things this afternoon that shouldn't be their

i've just discovered that the spicy crisps i usually have are not in stock, and i've just been given something diffrent (something i don't know)

while i'm saving them for another time, it does make me feel uneasy- and i'm now going to proceed to look for information about them online

I'm trying to keep the anxiety down. The neighbors came back from getting lunch and now the noise is on louder than before. I might call the police.

Some people are coming to my house tomorrow night to play cards. I'm getting ridiculously anxious thinking about it.

My anxiety is kicking in earlier in the morning than it had been. I don't know of any reason that it should be. Fortunately, it seems to subside in the early evening but until then it is really high and makes my mornings miserable.

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Anxiety is indeed miserable

Felt a little awkward today while at work- when the computers went down. Everyone sitting in silence. I'm okay with silence- but they sit and focus on me and everything i'm doing. That's what gets me.

the desire to do something nice for my girls and take them to the park this morning overcame my usually stronger desire to stay in the house with curtains drawn. stayed focused enough to get us ready and out of the house early. even managed to talk to other families in the park a little bit. only because they initiated conversation with me so it would have been more awkward to avoid it, but still, i will consider that a success.
as always grateful to be back home and in for the day. even got them cleaned up and in their pjs though it was only noon.

well done

souhnds like you had a good day
my anxiety has been fairly low today

I don't know if it's adrenaline or anxiety, but I don't feel very well right now. I just realized that lumped above my exhusband's head are two female bosses. Naturally, of course, my ex can be abrasive. And with a history with me and all that happened, I get how he'd be hard to manage. Prejudices run deep, of course, of course. However, his personal life is just that, his personal life. I reserve every right to hold resentment, if I so choose, that is a result of marital discourse through many years. Yet, at some point, I must have cared enough to have wanted to marry him and start a family. We all have our shortcomings. Does he work? Yep, he's been a workhorse as long as I can remember. Does he have a likeable quality that when out and about many stop and say hi and chat a while? Yes. Did he truly make work errors? No, no work errors are at the surface of any of this. Two Sunday nights ago, he fell asleep well before 9, as is typical. He missed a call out for that Monday . Refused to sign a write up because this one boss said he's on call 24/7. Then he just didn't feel right traveling to Maine for a 'mandatory' clambake. One, Maine does drudge up sadness thanks to me. Two, he does become uncomfortable traveling long distances with strangers. So this morning they called, said there'd be a meeting Monday and they were going to offer a demotion four communities away, not even in adequate public commuting distance or he could quit, but they wouldn't offer severance as they had everyone else that they canned since the take over. He called choking back tears.
I still haven't seen my name change for insurance to match my license. Soooo, took myself and my three sons to the corporate office to see what forms I needed to fill out took a copy of my license and phone number. I was as sweet and calm as I could be. The boys were reserved as they typically are in an office.
My ex called said the boss came by. He can keep his job if apologizes about the clambake. That he brought it on himself, not showing that he's a team player. I told him, sorry you didn't mean to offend them. Hangups, yadda yadda...he said i need my job. My kids, my kids...calling Monday to express his apology.

Yes, there would go child support at $800 month plus health insurance for all of us. State insurance bites the big one, imo.

Yes my anxiety is sky rocketing

I worry for no good reason. I know that, yet do it anyway. Wish I could deprogram my brain.

feel less anxious right now. also feel more exhausted & depressed. so i think i traded one for the other. not sure if that is something to feel good about or not but i'll take it. going to try to go out with the family later and stop wondering whether or not i should and just do it.

i hope if you manage to go you enjoy yourself

My anxiety has been high and out of control this morning. My hands are shaking and it's making me cranky. I took my klonopin but it doesn't seem to be helping this morning. Ugh!! I hate days like this.

tired, irritable and unfocused. nice busy day yesterday out with the fam. came home to loud partying down by the river which makes me anxious. sometimes feel like the hydroxyzine makes me feel hungover the next day, hence how i feel now. for some reason lately i find that wearing a hat or bandana makes me less anxious, like it is something more to hide behind and keeps me from obsessing over cutting my hair. it's like i put it on my head and feel like ahh, like it is somehow holding my brain together. weird. but good too.