Anxiety Daily Check-In Point! #2

Got panicky today when I saw a bank statement where I was charged twice for one order of checks. Something like this can send my mind into a whirl over getting the situation resolved. Bank says it will issue a credit, but I kind of freaked out anyway.

i've been worrying about world war 3. (no particular reason), it's just a thought that really bothers me.. we're going to have to evacuate earth and find a new home

I keep suddenly panicking over little things like a piece of fluff on my arm and I think it's a spider, or a thread hanging from a towel, or my inability to decide what movie to watch. I can feel my heart getting faster. I don't know if I've just hit an anxiety time again or if it's new medications I've started taking.

I'm totally trying to avoid a panic attack right now. I go to the dentist for major work if my bp is in range and that alone has be on edge and anxious. I also just found out that one of our kids is back in the hospital involuntarily and is having severe delusions and paranoia. We'll drive down and see him in a few days once he's settled in if it's allowed and advisable.

Anxiety has surged. I don't feel up to getting ready for the clinic. I'm scared to death.

Went to the hairdresser. She's perky and chatty; vey extroverted. So, I try to keep up with her. Totally wore me out.

Major anxiety today. I feel like everyone is against me; doing things to set me up for failure. They tell me things, and its so veiled! I guess i'm going to just have to speak up and say, "are you asking me to do something about it?"
But I'm too riddled with anxiety to speak up, and it comes out "OH, OOOhhhhkaaaaaaaayyyyyy" (imagine a shaking voice saying that).
It's like i have no control over my own voice.

Been keeping to my routine of exercise and yoga, mindfulness and volunteer work to keep my thoughts away from anxiety. Seems to be working most of the time.

Really like this article on building self esteem. It seems to be a way to build up a higher self image over time and lessen anxiety in the process.
Building Self-Esteem | Psych Central

Anxiety is still very high. Face is tense, back is tense. Can't sleep.

Doing better today than I was yesterday. Slept a bit better, I think. Lack of sleep tends to ramp up my anxiety.

Medium anxiety today. Mostly after I talked to anyone,everyone.
I really hate how everyone sits and listens to every little ****ing thing I say!

Anxiety is bad today and I don't know why.

I'm trying to get the nerve up to go out for the mail but I'm scared.

I went and got the mail and the workmen called me "loca". That's just great. I don't care about assholes like them though. I'll be glad when those fools are gone.

i feel a bt better than yesterday, when i had a migraine headache. it is still there but not as bad.

As I was outside with my dog in the middle of the day today I saw this guy who lives across from our cul-de-sac, sitting in the shade. I see him pretty often. He's an older guy, a vet I think, so he has flexible work hours or something. But I got really anxious wondering what he might be thinking. I wonder constantly what the people in my neighborhood think of me. Do they all know I'm unemployed? Do they think I'm just a useless bum? Or do I stand out like that kid down the street who has an intellectual disability?

So that train of thought ramped up the anxiety for me. Just have to calm down...

Anxiety is about 3/10. So, not too bad. Mostly stayed in my comfort zone.

Not much anxiety today- only when the UPS guy made a joke, and I laughed hysterically. I thought it was funny- but I guess someone else took it as a personal insult. I didn't see it that way- just thought it was funny.
Anxiety peaked a bit-- then the person who the guy made the joke on left work. My anxiety went back to nothing.
Now, I'm feeling good. Because No Work tomorrow! woo hoo

Did my exercise class this morning. Feeling good mostly but sometimes get overtired. Sleep seems to help. I sometimes wish family could hear more of what is happening but they see things from their own perspective.

My medication has increased my anxiety. I am hoping my body adjusts to this.

Anxiety started getting worse yesterday and it still is. I wish I could be free of it!

I feel like I am going to die. My legs feel like they are having acid injected into them. I just want to go out an do something. I need to distract myself. Having this load of worry added to my unless normal load is killing me. I'm having horrible stomach pains.

I guess this is what happens when you have a good streak. I was ok for 2 days now this

I woke up from another nightmare which has made me anxious and jittery. I hope that this doesn't mean a flash back is coming as it's been four days since my last one and I want to keep that streak going.

I took vistaril but I still have anxiety. Maybe I should nap.

I woke up anxious but not severely so just that feeling of uneasiness along with the pulse racing. I'm feeling the need to be near those I care for like my husband and our dog Larry, feeling a little clingy.