Anxiety Daily Check-In Point #3

Son is doing better today which makes me less anxious. We might see both boys later in the week which I have mixed thoughts over but I'll handle whatever might come my way.

I was fine, today I did everything I should do and while I got a terrible shock with my Time saver, everything else came fine. Found new information about my posgrade, have my teeth filled and even got an interview tomorrow. My first.

But then I told my mom 10 minutes ago that the dentist needed to do another work and those are 400 more and she forgot to pay the phone bill and sounded...exasperated? annoyed? that blew up my anxiety. Through the roof. I cost so, so, so much and I can't stop. I need to finish this dental and then comes my therapist and then the TOEFL and then the translation of my papers and Oh my god, I feel trapped. I want to stop costing, costing, costing and costing and my back is killing me and I want to curl and be in my home and just be under my covers and close myself

It's one of the son's birthday today which has me reflecting on a lot of things but so far my anxiety level has been manageable. My talk with my PCP about anxiety yesterday went really well so I far less anxious about that now. Thus far today has started off fairly well other than a pain flare from SLE but I'm used to managing those by now.

My anxiety is bad this afternoon. Maybe because I'm off my usual schedule. But a friend needed help and I couldn't say no. I really wish I had though from the klonopin doesn't seem to be helpings. I just want to go back home and curl up on the sofa. Does that make me a bad friend?

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My anxiety has gotten pretty bad this afternoon. I'm full of undirected fear. And I'm dizzy.

It's been a ride. Yesterday I woke up with a lot of anxiety and got terrible fear that my mom was going to die because she was going to another city for an exam. Accident or sickness. I cried in the kitchen then I put to work. Stressful day but nice night. I called my therapist (the second one, not the psychiatrist) for a las goodbye and he congratulated me and told me how proud he was of me and I was flying.

Today I woke up more anxious but I did my prayer and excercise and I was better. Then my mother and brother started to complain about muscular pain and I had full blow attack that they got Chikungunya and who is going to take care of us if we all fall sick and can't move and my mother is already in her golden years and and

Better now but still anxious. Ashamed of stil feeling anxious and guilty because I feel guilty and don't enjoy the gifts of life. I want a hugh and somebody to talk to.

My anxiety is pretty high today. I keep hoping one day it will just be gone. I can remember a time where it didn't effect me every day. I want that back again.

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I love the night. All my fears have dissipated and I feel so, so, SO TIRED. Exhausted. I have done all I can do today and now I'm relaxing. Everything is fine. We has passed this hurdle. I cried today. I entered in panic. I'm afraid of tomorrow morning. But I'm fine. I have been fine. I will be fine.

Bless you all and thank you for this space to be myself.

People make me anxious. I dislike them more and more

Really high, I feel awful and am just chewing my nails and crying........hating life

Very anxious day as it has been for months. Dr prescribed me beta blockers but then as I get allergies and wheezing in spring said I shouldn't take them as I couldn't take them long term anyway. So he reluctantly prescribed me a week of diazepam and I have to see him next week. They are so scared I am going to become a benzo addict
I fecking hate anxiety, got in a semi argument with mother in law and hubby cos I get double checking things and over worrying. I know it can be irritating but I don't mean it!

After having a few days of dreams and flashbacks my brain seems to be a chilling in a relaxed state right now.

Today I finally see my psydoc. It resulted that he believed I had stopped my medicine and that's why I was anxious. He treated me well, if very blunt. I feel fine know and didn't have an anxiety attack. He receted me ativan 1mg in the nights. I hope they work. Two days free and I feel a little drowsy, but good. Managed to calm down a lot in the bus. Love you all ant thank you for your support.

Is night and I feel fine. I realized that my planing problems are not only for my duties and things I dislike. Even my hobbies rarely go as put in paper and in my day off I do way less than I wanted.

But I feel fine. Today I woke up without anxiety and it was calm, yet I feel as if I should feel anxiety and like it was beneath the skin, but dissapeared in a couple of hours. Very sleepy. Had a fight with my brother and I must accept that this is a person whom probably I will not have a deep or supportive relationship, but he is going in a month, so that's that. Mother is fine and I say a movie. Love this medicine and the new Sylva method I donwloaded. Down for the night before I even finish the tape. Thank you all. I hope your weekend was not a nightmare and you had a couple of laughs. See ya.

Anxiety isn't too bad after taking my meds

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Feel terrible. Chest is aching and mind racing. Wish I could stop hating myself.

I am on my third day of meds, and I am feeling a little dizzy (not fun) I am also anxious today as I am waiting on Mammogram results from Friday. Im trying to be okay.

My anxiety is starting to get worse again . I slept until noon more or less when I should be getting up by 4 am to make an early appointment on Thursday. I have to go to a new pdoc I've never seen before and I'm very worried about med changes and what he'll think my diagnosis is. I'm very scared.

I'm in a pain flare with my joints which has me anxious but otherwise I am pretty calm thus far today.

I worked my backside off all weekend helping my parents. I was so tired and anxious today, I just took a 3 hour nap. It really helped me.

New medicine is helping me. Today all my planning when to hell but I only felt a little anxious. Have a interview, came out terrible but it was a valuable experience. Tomorrow so much to do. I want to finish the story for my mother to this 15 but today I also didn't write. Very tired. Go to excersice and then to sleep. Good day all.

It's so hard to stop hating oneself. To stop the guilt, shame or disgust of our action and our thoughts. What has helped me is speaking to myself in loud voice or in front of a mirrow telling me that, no matter what, I love you. Over and over again. That if you think something bad, tell yourself out loud something nice. It had helped this attacks against my person. I hope it can help you.

I had some anxiety today when my husband wasn't home when he usually is and he didn't answer his phone, I started to panic and worry about what may have happened to him!

I had a five-day weekend, and even that wasn't free of anxiety. Now back to my same old anxiety-ridden schedule.

Despite my morning being quite good I am wracked with nagging anxiety and I can't figure out why. None of my usual triggers have happened and yet I'm weighed down my the racing pulse, racing mind, attention span of a gnat, and this awful feeling in the pit of my stomach. I am lacking motivation today as well. I wanted to write this morning and so far all i've done is drink coffee and be on here. Very disappointing.