Psychiarty app Wed

I have my final diagnoisis on Wednesday.....

Is it Bipolar or is it not Bipolar??

I am freaking out on the inside, the outside is mellow!!

I have issues with the WHAT IF'S

WHAT IF

I have Bipolar
I don't
It's something more than this

a lot more which I wont write

I have had the issue with what if's for a long time. I can't seem to get my head around it.

My friend was meant to be coming with me- kinda like moral support... but she has cancelled as she has a family thing she has to attend. Which is fair enough but now I am freaking out more.

To add to all of this I have no money and my bank sent me a text saying I am on or over the limit and I need to get money... I get paid this week can they not wait till Friday? I am freaking out.

I have cancelled all my nights out planned for this week and am stressing.

My other friend said this is something I have to do for myself. I have to go to my appointment and I have to tell him EVERYTHING. I am worried about telling him everything. Also she says I need to know what is wrong with me so I can get myself better ie meds, counselling etc.

I am just venting sorry!!

Try to relax a little. Do things at home to take your mind off the coming appointment (funny movies, scrubbing your kitchen floor until it shines LOL). If you feel stressed about what and how much to tell your pdoc, take the time to write out your symptoms and experiences that you think could be related to mental health problems. You don't need to worry about remembering everything as your new pdoc will ask pertinent questions. Do answer as completely as possible as it will help him/her determine both your diagnosis and treatment. It can be a real relief to find out a diagnosis so that you know what you are dealing with.

Your friend is right! Think if you were putting together a jigsaw puzzle and a whole bunch of the pieces were missing. They need to see an accurate and thorough picture of what is going on to decide how best to proceed. There can be enough trial and error as it is -- you wouldn't want to increase the chances of that by withholding info, would you?(!)
Remember too... They've heard it all, as they say. Don't worry about shocking them. Really. Think about it.
Good luck. You'll do fine!

Thanks guys,

Just really hard to think straight at the moment... I am surprised at how well I have done without medication though. 3 weeks without any. I think I am gonna find it hard to go back on them since I know I have had the opportunity to try living a normal as normal as possible life as much as I have. Going back on medication will mean I will be more "controlled" "restricted" in a sense. But I guess it's for the best

You'll be fine - a final dx will give you a lot more peace of mind. And your docs will be able to rx you meds much better if they know what they're dealing with.
You need to be 100% open and honest - is there any other friend you can bring with you? It'll be alright - you've suspected BP all along, so it wont come as a surprise to you.
And you know you have us as support!

Thanks guys,

I defo need a diagnosis though don't I.

I have no one else to take with me. They are all busy. I will just have to go on my own and deal it. As much as I don't want to

I know... I just don't want it to be right and for everything to become real now

GOOD LUCK!! (((((((((Laura))))))))))))

Thank You Sundog!!

Just remember that when a stressor comes along you might really need the meds then. That is what happened to me when my Dad died and I didn't have the meds and I became Manic and delusional. Not that that would happen, but you need to think about that type of thing before you chose the no med route.

A correct diagnosis can be a very helpful thing, Miss Laura. (I was misdiagnosed and mismedicated by a GP resulting in 3 years of hell-- so can assure you what a good thing a correct diagnosis can be! )

It is ok to go on your own. You can do it. Is it far? Are you going to be driving or public transportation (or walking? ooooh, how lucky it would be to be so close as that!) That said, I'd sure go with you if I could! Seeing how I'd have to be in..... hmmm, let's see.. Scotland? Oh yeah. (Been to Ireland twice for a total of 6 weeks, but never Scotland... sigh)

You know... if you are diagnosed BP, it is not an altogether terrible thing, so don't worry overmuch about it. It already is what it is whether it is named and treated or not. And better to know what you're dealing with, right? And most importantly, it'd just mean you're one of us! Mwahahahaha! BPers may have a wild ride and suffer much -- BUT! are also some of the most interesting and creative people on the planet! So there!

(Should send this off right away, with the time difference you might be about on your way and wanted to catch you with some encouragement!)

Lots of and !!!!!

Let us know what the result was Please!!

Thanks LaraLynn,

I don't think I would cope without meds especially in my job.. I work in Social Care so its demanding, stress etc!!

Thank you stressing a wee bit more now that its only 2 and a half hours away

Hey Innerzone,

I know lots of things have happened to me while not being on meds etc... so I guess I have to have meds to help me out. Especially recent issues that have arised which happened when I was manic

I am gonna have to go on my own and its actually fairly close to me about 30 min walk or 20 mins on the bus. I was gonna walk it but torrential rain and strong winds are making me think bus it haha!! Haha!!! Ye I live in Scotland

Ye I need to know what is wrong with me but I am a worrier so I will be stressing all day now. Haha!! one of you guys I like it

I have to leave about 1-120pm and my app is 2pm its only 1130am here

Thank You!!

Thank You Sugahorse

I have Bipolar Type 2

Well done for making it to the appointment, and glad you have a diagnosis ((((((Laura))))) Are you starting on some new meds?

Thank You Sundog...

I have to go back and see him in 3 weeks... I have info on the medication I can get. He says I can say a preference so got that to look forward to (sarcasim btw)

Cried so much... feeling really angry and upset

Hugs to you!! (((((((Laura))))))) Do you have to wait 3 weeks before you can start any medication?? That seems like a really long time. I'm really sorry you're upset. Did he make any other recommendations?? Were you able to tell him how bad you feel?

More hugs!!

I don't know about the medications. I will speak to my GP tomorrow morning.

He looked at my diary I have been kepeing and we spoke about it. He asked me about my manic days and my sever depressed days. That's when he made his diagnosis. He says I need to have blood tests done??

Will you be able to start the medication before your next appt? It takes a while for them to build up in your system.

I'm also BP II, have a lot more depression than hypomania. But the right meds can make a huge difference; I think you will be glad you took that step.

Hey PT52

I meant to write Type 1 sorry. Heads up my *** at the moment.

I am gonna see GP tomorrow regarding meds. Who knows though

Feel numb at the moment... kinda unsure what to think and feel

I hope your GP knows his stuff and can get you on the right meds. Keeping my fingers crossed for you

you are BP type 1? and the GP is going to discuss the meds with you? Either way yeah for the diagnosis and welcome to the club... that is my diagnosis too. Big hug congrats for all the hard work you did today. I know you must feel like a wreck. UGH! So sorry sweetie, but you are getting a diagnosis 10 years before I did so awesome for you !!!

Hey LaraLynn,

Ye BP type 1.

My GP and Psych both said Lithium has proven very successful and that people on it say it works for them.

I have to go for blood tests in a few weeks and then a week or so after that I am seeing Psychiatrist again.

I have been suffering in silence for at least 10 years. Now I finally have the diagnoisis I don't want it.

Its insane