Checking things out.

I don't even know where to start, however I will say I am glad I found this site. Nice to know I am not the only one suffering the way I do, which my brain has told me this but somehow when you get in it, its really hard to imagine that anyone else is this bad off.

Not really sure why I am writing all of this. I've just been really down today. I stopped seeing my phychiatrist about 3 yrs ago. Stopped my meds thought maybe by moving and starting anew somewhere else maybe I could conquer it, ha seems it hasn't exactly worked. Not even sure what they had diagnosed me with back then. Was supposed to start taking mood stablilizers but I didn't. My life is just so fu**ed up!

Think I just really need to talk to someone, someone who doesn't know me. Made an appt with new doc in this new town I call home now, but the first availabe appt they had isn't til the first week of March, so now I'm like great, just great whenever I need help the most it's always unavailable!

I saw this woman on Nancy Grace Swift Justice yesterday and everything she told Nancy was exactly how I feel the majority of time, which is I am ready to go(meaning to die), tired of fighting the fight. Anyone got any words of encouragement?

Sorry, wish I could help to encourage others but real hard when you can't even encourage yourself. Maybe tomorrow will be better!

Welcome to the Community, Disenchanted. I am glad you have made an appointment. Perhaps you might inform your doctor you would like to notified if there is a cancellation. Who knows, you might be able to get in sooner?

Yes they already have me on the cancellation list and will call me if there is a cancellation. Thanks.

Welcome to PC! Glad to have you here. I am also glad you made an appointment because it sounds like you are having a really hard time right now. We are here for support and to lend an ear whenever you need it.
I remember what it was like when I was not on meds, so I can sympathize with what you are feeling and I am so sorry you are having to wait so long to see the doctor.
Just remember we are here for you even if just over the internet. You can pm me anytime if you need to.

Welcome! It's good you made an appointment although it is frustrating how long these places book in advance, it seems to be like that most places though. If things get really bad, does the office have a crisis line or is there one you can call in your area? That has helped me in the past.

I can identify with what you shared. I drifted around the country in my 20's moving from region to region hoping to find something, any sort of change, that would make me feel better. I always felt empty and frequently wanted to stop existing.

Finding stability helped me to get ready to start getting better. It was hard for me to accept help, even as I was seeking it out. I would run from it a lot. Nothing gets better overnight, but little by little I know I'm learning more about myself, understanding myself, and coping with life better.

Just know your not alone.

give yourself a big pat on the back for taking the first step by calling to make an appointment! Things can only get better if we take some steps towards fixing the issues so it's a really good step. In the mean time i have a really great site if your in the US you can click on your state and get the numbers for helplines in your area http://www.suicidehotlines.com/ dont get scared off by the "suicide help line" there are ALOT of other things they have numbers for like getting help with making appointments, doctors in your area, other services. Anyways in combination with that remember were here too! Feel free to vent anytime we have all been there at some point where we just needed to get it out. Oh and welcome to the site!

Hello! I can totally sympathise with the wait. I'm off meds right now, as an experiment, and to see the 'pure' pattern of my swings, but it means a lot more struggle until my next appointment...Which is on the 7th of March!

It is a long way off, but try to focus on each day...And maybe keep a diary, this will help the psychiatrist - that's what I'm doing, hoping that then the right mood stabiliser will be found quicker (although there is already sth the doc has in mind..)

Never give up! See what adjustments you can do to make it easier for the next few weeks, get any support you can, people, reading, this forum, and things will be better soon - it is worth the wait, and don't stop believing that the healthy you is worth the wait :-)

Take care

We have a shortage of pdocs here. The hospital and the clinic I go to both have empty slots they are trying to fill. My pdoc isn't taking any new patients as her load is too high. She has me make 2 or three appointments at one time so I can be sure to get in. She is booked four months out right now. But, I can get in if I need it on an urgent care appointment... with her nurse and one minute of her time and I am glad to get it.

I know you want to get in to see your new pdoc now but, considering the overall shortage of psychiatrists, you are lucky.

Welcome!

Hi Disenchanted and welcome to PC. There are a whole lot of people here who understand what you're going through right now. Don't be sorry that you can't offer encouragement right now; for each of us, there are times when we can give support and times when we must accept support.

Everyone here has good advice; give yourself a chance to take it in, think about it and make a plan to help you get through the next couple of weeks.

I know it seems as if your life is f****d up, and maybe it is a little bit; and all the good advice in the world isn't going to fix it today. But if you dig deep, you will find the strength that has taken you through the ups and downs of your life, and that will get you through again.

Listen to the wisdom on these pages, remember that you are not defined by an illness, forgive yourself for your pain and remind yourself over and over that it will get better. And it will; there are a whole lot of people here who are living proof.
Hugs

Oh Disenchanted, the others have already said such good things... Just wanted to let you know how much I relate to your post. Heck, I was still on meds when searching for psych help here (latest locale) and the desperation was palpable (putting it lightly). Lot of moving around? Oh yeah. We are here to listen and support each other. There are so many wonderful and empathetic people here...

I am glad you found this site too! Welcome!