[PrincessxKitty]

i'm so depressed and i don't even know why. there was nothing that could've caused me to be so down, but i've been very sad for the past 2-3 days. i actually had an awesome date from wed-thurs (morning), had a blast with someone i really like yet i've been really depressed.
the fact that i've been slacking off on exercise could be part of it, but i doubt it would cause me to be this sad.
i feel like i'm a total screw up in everything and to everyone. i haven't been able to stay sober for a whole week for at least a couple of months. i've even been getting drunk and getting angry, sad and actually cried to my friend after having him pick my drunk *** up....

i don't know what to do........

[hamster-bamster]

I swear there was a post with that exact title not long ago.

first off, Do you have a Pdoc and are you on meds? If you are on meds then drinking while on them can lead to depression.

I used to drink like a fish, and drinking can and will amplify depressive feelings. Stopping, or limiting that will help.

Even light exercise is better than none cuz it gets your 'feel good' endorphins going. Maybe just a very light routine for now?

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way, I can totally relate.

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

I swear there was a post with that exact title not long ago.

It's a common feeling

It's the drinking of alcohol, PrincessxKitty. As long as you continue to drink, you're going to have bouts of depression from it. If you have reached the point that you find the depressions worse than the drinking, I would hope that you will get help for it.

Touch base with a couple of the people on the Addiction Forum if you would like. They can give you some hellpful hints, too, on what you need to do to get your
system free of alcohol once and for all.

Take care of yourself.

Genetic

[plumapplepear]

I do not drink and I do believe it helps. I used to drink wine at night but it was covering up alot of problems. I has been about 9 months no drinking and it seems I have alot more issues than I thought. Exercise helps and gentle self talk. Everyone feels like they dont do things right we all have self doubt.
Please take care of yourself.

[rosesarered]

Drinking is just about the worst thing you could do. I have more depression with my bipolar and so I can tell you from firsthand experience it just makes things worse. Its a depressant by itself but if you're prone to bouts of depression, it just makes it happen
faster. And if you're on meds, it screws them up too....you have to try and quit drinking completely if you ever want to feel better.

.....yeah you can you can do heaps right...!

....drop the booze for a bit let it go for a bit at least just to check it out you can do that yeah?

I'm thinkin" and expectin' you already know this and it will take maybe a day and a half or two tops mate...to sober up get some fruit juice into you sounds nuts but the body wants the vitamins ...eat whatever you want during this phase of no drinks yep eat yummy food sleep whenever get all relaxed nice and comfy in your world and detox in style let it be special hire movies lock the doors whatever take hot bubbly baths get back to the basics you can do it....shut out the world the parts that make you so thirsty you can you are allowed to they will leave you alone

stabilise.....drink later not now...put it aside get better and by that time it may not be such a demand but face it...

you can do heaps right...

your drinkin' did everythin' right....twist it dirty back on itself be good the best at the opposite for today just give it a try

veteran monkey drunk boy from hell and back x

[PrincessxKitty]

Originally Posted by landskaperdan

first off, Do you have a Pdoc and are you on meds? If you are on meds then drinking while on them can lead to depression.

I used to drink like a fish, and drinking can and will amplify depressive feelings. Stopping, or limiting that will help.

Even light exercise is better than none cuz it gets your 'feel good' endorphins going. Maybe just a very light routine for now?

I'm sorry that you are feeling this way, I can totally relate.

my dr. knows that i drink. i told her that i drink every weekend. she doesn't like it, but she said it to keep it to 1-2 drinks. my drinking did go up though.

i usually exercise at least 5-6 days a week, but have been slacking off for the past couple of weeks. i'm hoping i'll feel better once i get back into it, even if it's only a little

[PrincessxKitty]

i know drinking is bad and is one of the worst drugs/substances, especially being bipolar and being on meds.

i've been able to keep my drinking to a minimum until recently where i can't even go a whole week being sober. i can't think of anything that caused this, but days when i'm sober just seem miserable.

[BlackPup]

Do you have a T? They might be able to help you work out why your drinking has changed. Sorry that you are feeling down, that might be part of the problem but drinking will make things worse not better. Try to get back into the exercise thing as that will improve your mood. If all else fails talk with your pdoc as you may need your meds adjusted. Best wishes...

[PrincessxKitty]

Originally Posted by BlackPup

Do you have a T? They might be able to help you work out why your drinking has changed. Sorry that you are feeling down, that might be part of the problem but drinking will make things worse not better. Try to get back into the exercise thing as that will improve your mood. If all else fails talk with your pdoc as you may need your meds adjusted. Best wishes...

i don't have a therapist and not really a dr. anymore either since my mom lost her health coverage (and i was under her's). my doc isn't even supposed to be rxing me any more meds but i keep forgetting to get a new dr.
i did go back to the gym again after slacking off for 2 weeks. hopefully it'll help elevate my mood.

[Bipolar1Disorder]

"can't do anything right"
Then try doing things to the left...
Don't listen to these people, you can drink all you want. It's your life and your not going to let a bunch of psychos tell you what to do are you? unless of course you come here for advice that you don't take serious. My personal opinion is that you stop drinking for a while and start to feel your emotions and what's inside your head. Then you will start doing things right even though you may start them left. But don't listen to me either cause I'm a real psycho. Hope you feel better soon. hugs to you girl.

[plumapplepear]

I would seriously address the issue of looking for a doctor or maybe a county clinic where you can get meds. The drinking is a struggle.

[PrincessxKitty]

Originally Posted by plumapplepear

I would seriously address the issue of looking for a doctor or maybe a county clinic where you can get meds. The drinking is a struggle.

finally got around to calling the county services today, kept forgetting before. hopefully they can help while i'm in the process of getting my insurance back

[plumapplepear]

Kudos to you for calling see you are doing things right it is so much easier to be hard on ourselves but you are starting to care about yourself. There are many days when I do not care at all these days I just try and fake it and find something to do to ease the demons in my mind. Do not know if that helps but I find when I drank I gave up.

Originally Posted by plumapplepear

. There are many days when I do not care at all these days I just try and fake it and find something to do to ease the demons in my mind. .

..these are the worst and weirdest days of all...this is when it becomes clear, I find, it becomes so clear I'm seriously off track off my path not for happiness but just for some peace!

it's unbelievable just how harsh and quick the self loathing hits and it's real important like you say here, to find something to especially... even pretend to be interested in.

oh yeah it's full on!

but reality ...(the real one)...it creeps back in just allow it to gently bring us back.

those dark days are so real though...intense full on!

(won't go on about that ...not here right now)

[PrincessxKitty]

Originally Posted by plumapplepear

Kudos to you for calling see you are doing things right it is so much easier to be hard on ourselves but you are starting to care about yourself. There are many days when I do not care at all these days I just try and fake it and find something to do to ease the demons in my mind. Do not know if that helps but I find when I drank I gave up.

thank you. i've also decided to cut down on the drinking. i had a couple of eye opening situations and i think it's time

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by PrincessxKitty

thank you. i've also decided to cut down on the drinking. i had a couple of eye opening situations and i think it's time

Good for you Kitty! What a courageous thing to do!