[BlueInanna]

How do you get rid of thoughts you don't want anymore? They will just whirl around in my head. Old stuff, like an ex best friend who wronged me badly. I don't want to ever have to think of her again. Or am I supposed to remember so that I don't ever make the mistake of letting her back in my life? Too many thoughts in one head and I don't know how to dispose of them.

[dubblemonkey]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

How do you get rid of thoughts you don't want anymore? They will just whirl around in my head. Old stuff, like an ex best friend who wronged me badly. I don't want to ever have to think of her again. Or am I supposed to remember so that I don't ever make the mistake of letting her back in my life? Too many thoughts in one head and I don't know how to dispose of them.

ok C honey

the simplest things arrive!

I want to help you.....can I?

[BlueInanna]

Please! I have too many thoughts and running out of space. I don't think thoughts can ever leave my head. Can they do they? I'm mindful that they're there, but they're still there.

[BlueInanna]

Now I'm sobbing because I can't tell the difference between thoughts and feelings. And I really needed to sleep last night so I could be on my game at work today. This is it, today, my last chance to save all I've worked for. No one else is going to do it for me. And my family is counting on me. I don't want this day to start but the sun is already rising and now I'm crying too, I don't have time for crying today...

[catsrhelm]

Thoughts come from the head and feelings come from the heart. Have you ever tried journalling your thoughts and feelings? That helps me get rid of mine. As for the friend who wronged you, think of that as a learning experience.

[BlueInanna]

James where'd u go? Oh well. Blasted sun has risen anyway, wake up alarms are sounding. I'd best just not complain, drink coffee and get through this impossible day. Somehow I will get through this.

[LearningMe01]

I have a similar issue. Mine is obsessive thinking...it's like I'll beat an issue to death in my head , but it still won't die lol

I wish you luck, and if you figure out how to get rid of your thoughts , please fill me in

[faerie_moon_x]

I used to have horrible, horrible memory thoughts plague me constantly. They were of the bullying I went through. I would relive it over and over again. I couldn't sleep because of them. I would actually like lash out physically at the thoughts, shaking and batting the air. Years and years after things were over I was still thinking of "what I should have done/said" instead of what really happened.

Then, one day, I felt safe for some reason and I released them. I still have the memories but they are faded and far away. I don't know. I just suddenly felt safe and loved and they went kind of by themselves, but I was able to let them go.

So my advice is you have to feel safe, and then it's easier to let go of the bad thoughts.

Another example of this is that during the bad time, I built up a lot of these thoughts about what was happening. They kept clinging to me and I kept talking to my husband about them. Even arguing with him about it when necessary. These discussions and arguments were necessary in healing, I think. Little by little, they are letting go of me and I am letting go of them. Because I'm re-discovering safe. If that can't be done, it can destroy everything.

[Odee]

Yes. Regrets, failures, self loathing. I can't do this or I'm stuck like this. I can't believe what a terrible person I've been. I'm so afraid of such and such happening. Why can't I feel better and live a life.

Over and over. I know that they are supposed to stop but what am I supposed to do? It's not like being free of these thoughts make me feel any better. I know the anxiety fuels them/is fueled by them, but the depression? Even when the thoughts are not there the depression remains.

These thoughts have been flooding me lately and now my chest is hurting as I'm typing about them.

[Cocosurviving]

Try to replace the thoughts w/ good, happy and pleasant thoughts. Try meditation it will help you be able to sit calmly and focus of what u want. I hope things get better.

[AeonDM]

I stop punishing myself and others. I stop blaming myself and others. I stop caring about what I think others are thinking about me. I start practicing my values I believe in and having a positive outlook on life.

On my case...

[bluemountains]

I'm sorry. Blue! I have some terrible memories that stay in my head a lot of the time. I often wonder if I would really like to have these removed so that I would never have to cry over them again. But what would I replace my thoughts with? There is nothing that is real. I make up better things sometimes. This is what helps me to sleep at night.
Good luck, I hope the funk goes away soon!
Bluemountains

[BlueInanna]

Thanks all. Times like this put me in a reality check, I really do have bp. I so wish I didn't. Racing thoughts, intrusive thoughts, sleeplessness even with some meds. It was a rough day. I rode it out though, glad the day is over. I will take a whole ambien tonight and make sure I sleep. I did my best today worked long hours, but the not sleeping throws me into crazy. I will sleep tonight and tackle work again tomorrow. It will be a new day. I'm still hypo and having weird ideas like to stay up all night again because of this urgency and stress to keep working, but I know I must get regular sleep to manage this thing.

Do you guys ever feel like the craziest one in this room? That's how I was feeling.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

How do you get rid of thoughts you don't want anymore? They will just whirl around in my head. Old stuff, like an ex best friend who wronged me badly. I don't want to ever have to think of her again. Or am I supposed to remember so that I don't ever make the mistake of letting her back in my life? Too many thoughts in one head and I don't know how to dispose of them.

I do not think you can ever remove anything. Every thought, in my opinion, stays with us forever. But you can try to "archive" it - remove it from your short-term memory.

I think that if you try to will the thoughts away, they will stay with you even worse.

Another idea is to write an email to yourself, with all the thoughts, and archive or file it away upon receipt. So it is with you still, but not right in front of your nose.

[BlueInanna]

Honestly I think I just have to ride it out when I get like that. I don't think I can healthily process or even sort out the thoughts like an electrical storm in my brain. Maybe best to just take cover until it slows down. No way I was able to journal or email in that state, I could barely explain myself, I am calmer now and can somewhat reflect on it. But it's like an insanity storm that that there's no way out of, i cant even piece together now all the thoughts images random piecings that were going on upstairs. maybe next time I can remind myself it will pass, because it felt like an eternal mayhem of hell I would never escape. I'm grateful to have you my friends here to talk to about it, otherwise I'd be trying to hide it and suffering even worse and alone, and suspect it would last even longer if I didn't have anyone to talk to about it.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

suspect it would last even longer if I didn't have anyone to talk to about it.

I am sure you are right.

[BlueInanna]

I'm a little worried that an ambien and a klonopin do not have me sleepy yet. This sucks.

[BlueInanna]

Pdoc told me I may not take 2 ambiens when 1 hasn't worked. Damn her I need the help sleeping tonight, would it really be so bad to take another ambien? I don't take them every night, but I would like some relief. She says managing my sleep will be key to managing the bp...

[Confusedinomicon]

;_; I lost my post.

Here are some suggestions:

Burn sage/lavender. I am *pretty* sure I read that you burn sage, so doing it before you sleep may help create a positive space for you during these stressful times. Also burning lavender is supposed to have a calming effect. (I got this off google)

Progressive muscle exercises before you go bed. Just lay in bed and play one of the guided ones on youtube. You'll get so good at this that you won't need a video. Plus this is a form of meditation.

Smoking. Go outside before you sleep. Try to find a quite, safe spot and smoke. The breathing in smoking helps anxiety. (I saw this somewhere on the forum)

Right now I think you need to focus on creating a positive space where you feel safe. My safe spot is the bath tub. I sit in water far too long and turn into a prune but it helps me calm down. If you want to sit in mud and squish your toes in it to feel earth, gooood! If you want to count stars...good! Do something that puts you in a positive space and clock out of the chaos of life. I promise it's worthwhile.

[BlueInanna]

I am trying to stay warm in my cozy bed, I don't want to get out too cold. But I do have some lovely organic lavendar lotion, I bet that aromatherapy will help! I can run across the cold room fast to grab it. And this reminds me I have my Bach Rescue Sleep Remedy somewhere yummy fairy drops. I will try those things.

[Confusedinomicon]

Something that may help! (Simple, too)

Put your hand over your heart and feel it beat. Then start breathing and pay attention to the speed of your heartbeat. Change your breathing accordingly and try to make it slow down.

[BlueInanna]

I like that idea, will give it a go. But what's so wrong with 2 ambiens? I think my pdoc is ultra cautious, my sons pdoc gave him 4 klonopin a day and then changed to Xanax. I have asked her for Xanax and she says no. I'm sure it's for the best, less meds but giving a 15 yr old a med that 40 yr old mom is not allowed. Lame. I don't have drug abuse history, and my son does wth... Ok more Bach spray now for me.

[Confusedinomicon]

Maybe the universe is challenging you to create different thought-paths.

You're capable, I know it.

Or ask for something like propranolol (sp?) which lowers heart rate and isn't addictive.

[BlueInanna]

Universe just hold me tonight I'm not up for a challenge.

[bluemountains]

By now, you should probably have slept at least a bit, Blue. I hope so! I am not far behind you with the sleeplessness. My trick I am using lately is adding benadryl to the mix. It takes me forever to get to sleep, but at least I am not awake 3-4 times during the night. I try self-hypnosis, etc., but with racing thoughts (my current problem) it is very tough.
I hope your day goes well, and tonight is full of dreams! A rainy, cold field trip day for me, yech!
Bluemountains