The pdoc changed my 5mg Zyprexa (because apparently that low a dosage is pointless, but I don't want to go higher) with Abilify 10mg, titrating up to 20mg I think. I'm happy about that, but I feel really nauseous. He also said I didn't need to titrate on the Lamictal and sent me straight from 75mg to 200mg. I hope this passes. I would be really happy if someone had some personal experiences to share about meds and nausea.

[A Red Panda]

Why would he say you don't need to titrate up on the lamictal? That's like... THE drug that everyone titrates up on.

Agree on the titration concern! That sounds like a huge jump. Please be careful.

[Margolomania]

Holy fuzzballs, everyone!

Ok, I see the slew of peeps forgetting their meds or not being able to take them.. I hope you guys' days get better or stay well (which I'm hoping they are of course)!

Then, I see a few posts that I'm sorta relieved coincides with how I feel- which is DEPRESSED! to meh, just nothing to "Wait... waaiiiit... I think I'm feeling better?" to DEPRESSED again! I met with my therapist today and I was a wreck -_-' The coping skills she's teaching me are really helping, I just have a really hard time grasping them sometimes. I get so confused, so forgetful, so agitated that it takes so much energy just to utter a positive thought to myself. I haven't cried in there since we've met as much as I have today. I'm trying to take a real proactive stance on my medical stuff though and meeting up with a psychiatrist. With the help of therapy and learning coping skills (whoa! my arms... they feel like they're not mine )... anyway, coping skills... then hopefully I can get away with taking a very mild type of medication.

I just want my good days back.

So...trying to catch up. In the morning(!) (Big rule: no computer in morning before work. Lalaladidah, it's WHAT time?!) BUT reading here ... "Oh! Right! Meds!". Had woken up before BF's alarm (quite unusual) and couldn't stop thinking about hosing out compost and garbage barrels(!) (They hadn't actually been collected yet, so that didn't happen, lol. But I did go out and squash giant pieces of cardboard by jumping on them in a half-baked assortment of jammies and real clothes. And sweeping where the bins usually sit. Instead of, you know, getting ready to go to work. Not at ALL a morning person. These things tend to give one pause.
(It's ok though.)

Noticed last week that the med increase stemming from the incidents of a couple of weeks ago seems to be working (evened out what seemed to be heading for a bad mixed). Since, it's been pretty good overall. Couple of nights ago, devastated (situational). ("This IS holding it together!" It WAS!), but things came back around. Pretty sure it'll be alright. So far, so good. Bit of improvement, actually.

[otaku1992]

"Yeah, this job is 100,000 cards. They all have numbers on them and they have to all stay in order. Every single one. The assistant supervisor and I are going to argue confusedly for the next 20 minutes on how this job goes because we have no clue and by the end of it you're going to be really confused and stressed out. But don't worry about it, it'll be fine!"

That was pretty much how my work day started. Pretty sure the assistant supervisor and the quality guy both got tired of me calling their names. "Help! I can't find this card! It's missing! Miiiissssssiiiinnnggggg!!"

Other than that, the day was alright. Pretty tired, but alright.

[wildflowerchild25]

It's 4:45 am and I woke up at 4. Hoping tiger back to sleep soon. I have a headache. I took too much klonopin today (5 .5mg). Think that's where my headache is coming from. I don't care though. I don't care about anything.

Titrated up to 100 mg lamictal last night and took only 1/2 saphris - - didn't sleep worth a damn. I would rather stick with a full saphris than try taking lamictal during the day. At least I don't feel that horrible, plaguing depression. 2 days in a row now of no depression - - yay!

Obviously, will be calling pdoc today re sleep.

[wildflowerchild25]

i fell back asleep around 5.50 which is cool because i have to get up at six. but unfortunately i missed my alarm and didn't wake up until 6.35. oh well. now i'm hyper as hell.

Originally Posted by A Red Panda

Why would he say you don't need to titrate up on the lamictal? That's like... THE drug that everyone titrates up on.

He said since I used to take 200mg Lamictal I didn't need to titrate now. I don't know if that's true but I sure hope this nausea passes! I took some pills for the nausea and it's a little better, but it says online I should only use those pills for 5 days.

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

i fell back asleep around 5.50 which is cool because i have to get up at six. but unfortunately i missed my alarm and didn't wake up until 6.35. oh well. now i'm hyper as hell.

Take care of yourself and your body! Hope you're alright.

[deelooted]

YES! the depression has fully lifted, no need for my Ativan today. Hoping the bupropion is kicking in more, as I have begun to track my mood at www.moodtracker.com. Their chart is easy to create and read. My aunt is a pdoc and recommended it, as well as keeping a journal,which that site also allows you to do. Everything on it is free for the basic stuff.

Feeling good today, and I hope some others out there are, too

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by deelooted

YES! the depression has fully lifted, no need for my Ativan today. Hoping the bupropion is kicking in more, as I have begun to track my mood at www.moodtracker.com. Their chart is easy to create and read. My aunt is a pdoc and recommended it, as well as keeping a journal,which that site also allows you to do. Everything on it is free for the basic stuff.

Feeling good today, and I hope some others out there are, too

Yay! Happy for you.

[deelooted]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Yay! Happy for you.

How have you been doing, wild child? Hope things with your husband have cooled down

[Mollywisk]

Originally Posted by deelooted

YES! the depression has fully lifted, no need for my Ativan today. Hoping the bupropion is kicking in more, as I have begun to track my mood at www.moodtracker.com. Their chart is easy to create and read. My aunt is a pdoc and recommended it, as well as keeping a journal,which that site also allows you to do. Everything on it is free for the basic stuff.

Feeling good today, and I hope some others out there are, too

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Thank you for the suggestion ! Headed to that website right now!

[wildflowerchild25]

Originally Posted by deelooted

How have you been doing, wild child? Hope things with your husband have cooled down

He's not mad anymore but now he's threatening to call the cops to take me to the hospital. I don't know if he will or won't. I don't think he will but I don't know. So fun times.

[A Red Panda]

Maybe the hospital might be a good thing. I know that you don't want to, but you've been struggling for a while now and it seems to keep getting worse - to the point that you're hurting yourself!

[Skittles56]

Baseline today. Feels really good. Haven't been there for quite a while.

[johnthorne1539]

Mixed day. Was hypo the last two days, then down last night, felt okay today, going back down the last hour or two. Feeling bizarrely insecure. I often draw as a way of relieving my moods (both manic and depressed), but never show them to anyone. Then last night at the encouragement of a friend, I posted them on facebook for everyone to see... and even though I had a lot of positive feedback, I'm nevertheless feeling vulnerable, I guess.

So even though I've been feeling kinda jittery today, and have managed to be fairly productive, I've still got that sinking feeling in my stomach and that "my ribs are going to burst through my back" sensation. Also feeling pretty lonely.

Bleh.

[Skittles56]

Originally Posted by johnthorne1539

Mixed day. Was hypo the last two days, then down last night, felt okay today, going back down the last hour or two. Feeling bizarrely insecure. I often draw as a way of relieving my moods (both manic and depressed), but never show them to anyone. Then last night at the encouragement of a friend, I posted them on facebook for everyone to see... and even though I had a lot of positive feedback, I'm nevertheless feeling vulnerable, I guess.

So even though I've been feeling kinda jittery today, and have managed to be fairly productive, I've still got that sinking feeling in my stomach and that "my ribs are going to burst through my back" sensation. Also feeling pretty lonely.

Bleh.

Good for you. I admire your courage. I write to help my moods. I haven't worked up the courage to show them to anyone, let alone the world.

[Margolomania]

Sooooooooo.

I felt really good yesterday by the end of the night, and it seems that my depression has lifted as well! I managed to go to sleep early, wake up early, have an ok day at work, and finished some things at home. Had to stop in the middle of doing chores though because my hyperactivity also started causing some anxiety.

-_- Bad thoughts, why do you have to infiltrate my good moods as well? Don't you get enough attention during my depressive modes which lasts like twice as long? Sheesh.

Well, hopefully everyone gets to have a great day and a great night! I'm gonna keep cleaning The responsible me is back!

Had a pretty OK day yesterday. The nausea is much better. Not sure if you could call my mood baseline, but maybe. A little up and a little down. I remember normal though, it is slightly different.

I'm going to have an OK day today too! That is non-negotiable. I'll save my good days for when it rains. A bad day is out of the question!

[wildflowerchild25]

not well today i think maybe it's a demon putting these thoughts in my head. i dont' know what to do about it. self harming. can't go to the hospital not an option. pdoc doesn't seem to think it's an issue anyway.

[anneo59]

I really believe we need to work with such coping skills. Am not surprised to see, for various reasons, all part of agendas, that they are being included more in psychiatry, in addition to meds! These days, I always wonder what will be new when I go to p-doc and therapist??? I think I've gotten to the point where I just naturally expect some type of change, and try to be neutral about it, tho that doesn't always work! However, glad the coping skills processes are helping you!!!!! Awesome!

[anneo59]

have been feeling lately like shoe will drop, tho wasn't manic before, maybe a little hypomanic. Not sure, but felt pretty normal. Didn't want to seesaw back into depression, fear, and paranoia, a state I've frequently fought off and on for many years, and received many kinds of therapy for, pharmacological and other. However, have to say, this morning I got some neat news about one of my sons, and in last day or two had good news about other two, so I am feeling very happy for them, and of course, delighted myself! Counting blessings at this moment, and thankful!