Im so happy, content and relaxed Still on holidays but the family has left now and I have the place to myself. Spent the day relaxing by the pool, reading, meditating and doing a lot of self nurture. Just about to make a nice healthy stir fry for dinner then I will spend the night doing my nails.

The holosync is definitely making a difference to my thoughts, my mind is heaps quieter. I am able to concentrate pretty well and I feel like I have enough energy to get through my days. I feel very calm and at peace after doing it. But I still have a lingering headache which is a bit annoying.

[saulylee]

angry and irritable and sand in the afternoon. No reason to be any of these things so it makes me more angry thinking about it

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feeling frustrated that I can't find a job. I have the feeling it would help my depression a lot. It's very cold here today in the Midwest. Even though I'm bored and lonely, I don't feel like leaving the house. I just want this pain to go away.

[gayleggg]

I'm glad I finally heard from a friend that has been in the mental hospital for 8 weeks. It's the first I've heard from her, I have been terribly worried about her. Doesnt' sound like she has improved much, which makes me really say and the are wanting to go to a residential program out of state. I'm very worried about, as she wants to come and they don't think she has enough support. I was so hoping they could help her and it seems they have not really helped. She is at great risk on her own and I am scared and worried about. I want to see her so bad but she is so far away right now. I miss her terribly. We have gone through depression together but she kept getting worse and I couldn't help her. I feel I have let her down.

i've decided that santa's payed me an early visit. (see my thread in general chat)

apart from that, another boring day like usual... nothing to report

[Moreta]

I got laid off today, because they ran out of work for us to do.

[steelfang]

I'm feeling wonderfully stable today and have been for the last few days. I think my first mood stabilizer is finally working and I am so stoked.

[Alokin]

I always keep an eye on the news, generally it angers me. Over the last few days I have been hearing about a lot of good news for my current occupation. A little stability goes a long way on my psyche.

i'm okay, i suppose.

no sleep and stuck in my room as usual, but nothing to be concerned about

[Phoenix_1]

Sleeping too much again. I feel like I'm going backwards, back into depression.

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[gayleggg]

I'm feeling lost and a little irritated today. Sad.

[Blue_Bird]

I want this depression and paranoia to go away. Will this ever end? This time it feels like it won't.

[kimical]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

I want this depression and paranoia to go away. Will this ever end? This time it feels like it won't.

I'm feeling similar.

[Phoenix_1]

I saw my pdoc Tuesday. He says that my current dose of lamictal is too low to be therapeutic. He's increasing it week by week until I'm taking 150 mg. I saw on the forum that some people take 200 mg or more. Is 150 mg high enough to be a therapeutic dose?

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still here in my little corner of the world.... nothing to say really.

no sleep again, and struggling to get through- so a typical day

[Alokin]

Originally Posted by Phoenix_1

I saw my pdoc Tuesday. He says that my current dose of lamictal is too low to be therapeutic. He's increasing it week by week until I'm taking 150 mg. I saw on the forum that some people take 200 mg or more. Is 150 mg high enough to be a therapeutic dose?

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Everyone is different, personally I use 300mg.

[gayleggg]

Still depressed today, maybe a little worse. More hopeless. It really sucks.

[Blue_Bird]

Trying to cope and avoid hospitalization.

[rapidcycledancer]

Had a tough week, but am reflecting on it and trying to learn some lessons. Feeling positive though.

My sister visits tomorrow with her two dogs: Blue and Poppy. Can't wait to take 'em for a walk with her.

[happywoman]

I have been feeling a bit low, my job has been really busy in the last 2 weeks and I have not been managing my home life or self care too well. I know I have to be grateful I have a stable job. I find the lead up to Christmas stressful. I have to patient. I know that things at work will change and my feelings will pass. I haven't been doing any exercise so plan to go for a walk this afternoon and try to make a positive change to my day and weekend.

[steelfang]

My pdoc told me I'm finally in remission today! I was so happy I almost cried.

[Rrancher]

today I feel beaten. like my life is run by this. I am not in control.

Looking like my life may soon be turned upside down. Again. This thing is not for sure, but in discussion (read: essentially, being told) last night…. it's enough to have me very concerned. It is virtually the same set of factors that sent me into a tailspin and long horrid mixed episode the last time they converged. DO.NOT.WANT.

It's not like it contains no positives. It does. Potentially substantial, but that is talking long term payoff. I'm not good in holding out for the long term, especially when "short" term is a potent stability-assaulting "perfect storm".

(And because I cannot help but use humor to decompress… The whole thing actually could be avoided altogether by a sudden large influx of money. I am SO getting one of those lottery tickets…)

[Moreta]

I had a good day. Went and got my hair cut and a blow out. My hair is getting sooo long and it's driving me crazy. lol. Me and my husband went to a school function tonight, it was ok, but we left early b/c my husband wanted too. Had to dress up. It's always nice to see my husband in a suit. He usually just wears sweat pants and a tshirt, since he doesn't need to dress up for work. I tell him that when he gets a business job, he's going to have to learn how to dress up. HAHA.

Tomorrow, I'm going to the UU church for their service and then I have a sleep study tomorrow night. I don't want to know what they find at the sleep study. I'll probably have to get a CPAP machine...grrrrr... My husband says I snore really bad and stop breathing somtimes.

[Travelinglady]

Hi! No one has used the expression "in remission" with me, but I think I am. I am pretty stable and am glad that I have passed the three-year mark since my last hospitalization.

I have felt less depressed and more energetic without being manic. I even have been doing some projects around the house that I have put off for a long time--such as cleaning out a walk-in closet. It can actually be walked in now!