[r010159]

I have stopped my Levothyroxine several days ago per doctors orders. I think I am feeling the effects now. I think it did not help when I also cut down on the Buspirone in a significant way. I am feeling a little depressed and anxious. I need to wait and see what happens next. I can always resume the medication.

[tigersassy]

Back to work after a busy fun weekend. I don't really want to go, but I've got to. I'm wanting to flaunt my new hair. Which isn't necessarily a good thing. My wife its afraid I'm going to "ditch" her. I can understand, but I won't. I love her too much. She doesn't understand what its going on with me. I wish I could explain it better to her. I'm in control of most things and am not going to react to most thoughts..... Gotta stay positive and get ready for work.

Tig

[gypsy pink]

feeling better today. saturday i stayed in bed, my friend jw came over to see if i wanted to get out, nope. i just pulled the blankets closer,didn't talk much to him, if any then went back to sleep. he left.

up at 5 am which is to early for me, lately i have been sleeping about 8 hrs, force myself to go to bed at 10, then wake up at 8.

counting my blessing that i am at least up and did get some sleep.

[Jennibella]

Back to work this morning, my 10th straight day. I had a manic episode three weeks ago that I am still trying to recover from. I hate feeling like I need to choose between my career and my sanity.

Depression persists but somewhat hopeful about a possible med change (new antidepressant I hope) and outpatient day program. Maybe there is light at the end of the tunnel after all . . .

[r010159]

Well it looks like my irritability has helped my invalidate a few people on this forum. I think I will just read posts for awhile.

[tigersassy]

Think I opened a can of worms arty work because I couldn't keep my mouth shut. Hopefully I'm not getting in trouble for speaking my mind and the talk tomorrow turns out to be a voicing of concerns and mutual decisions. Doubtful but that is my hope.

Tig

[FaithlessCat]

Originally Posted by Roblovescats

Sometimes I write my thoughts here and just delete them because I feel like its best if I just shut up. Not anything about anyone else just me. I suppose it's a cathartic way of venting without inflicting others with my mindless ranting about myself.

Make no mistake I appreciate reading about others...

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Omg this is exactly what i do too ! And for the same reasons. I find writing the replies works but then i think ... meh no one wants to listen to me talking bout me again

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[FaithlessCat]

Think today i feel better. Managed to go walking and came home and painted my son's new room.

I even went to scouts Tonite and enjoyed it.

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[Roblovescats]

I almost thought I wanted to paint the other day. At the moment I feel like collecting all of my paintings, setting them into a pile, pouring gasoline on them, and striking a match to them. Environmentally unfriendly so I won't. Probably illegal too.

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haven't been here for awhile. just got out of the hospital (psych) - bad experience, they didn't even change my meds. nothing. trying to keep it together here at home.

[Notnrml85]

So tired but can't fall asleep yet. Have to make it another few hours...

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[shortandcute]

I started taking some free classes at the community college yesterday. They're specifically designed for people with mental illness and basically to help us just cope with life in general. The one I went to yesterday was called Ready, Set, Go. It was broken up into three parts:
10:30-11:20 support group
11:30-12:20 anxiety relief
12:30-1:20 self-esteem

The other class I signed up is "individual support," and it's basically just me and the instructor touching base--whenever. We haven't done that part yet.

My daughter also had a dance recital last night. Doesn't sound like a whole lot but it made for a long day for me.

[tigersassy]

I'm so over all this crap. Less than 2 weeks til psychiatrist. And I want to tell my manager whats wrong, but I know thats just asking for trouble.

Tig

severe depression lingers. Can't get into the outpatient day program until May 8th. Not sure what in the hell to do in the meantime. This sucks.

[Hbomb0903]

Gathering my life back around me after shutting it out for a month is truly humbling. I appreciate how many people truly care for me. I feel that I want to make it an important part of my life to appreciate them back, the best that I can.

I want to send a message of hope to everyone who is depressed that may read this. If you can count on the certainty of ANYTHING it is that this feeling (or lack of) WILL change. Nothing is certain but that things change. Do your very best to force that positivity into your recalcitrant brain. You are amazing and you can and will do whatever you put your mind to. Maybe not today, but just maybe...

[jack123]

Originally Posted by Jennibella

Back to work this morning, my 10th straight day. I had a manic episode three weeks ago that I am still trying to recover from. I hate feeling like I need to choose between my career and my sanity.

I understand. I am still trying to decide on which road to take.

[Standup2me]

Jack, maybe it is time to look for a new job.
You can do it!

[littlemiss44]

Yesterday I got alot done but today I've crashed. I can't seem to get out of my pjs. I miss the feelings of passion for life. I used to be so full of life before meds. Now I feel numb and dull. It makes me wonder why my bf sticks around. He loves all of me and I am so thankful. I get really scared thinking something bad might happen to him. I don't know what I'd do without his love. He makes me smile and that takes alot. I miss being hypo manic.

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[x_BabyG_x]

Starting to crash... Tired mopey and been isolating myself lately...

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[Roblovescats]

Pillow? Pillow? Oh there you are... <<<poof>>> laying down. Tired. Mildly upset. Mildly depressed. Seriously ready for summer.

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[Marshellette]

sexy and tired.

[r010159]

I awoke very depressed and high anxiety. I could not get my daughter to school, so I had her brother do this. I have been feeling better since then. So I was able to pick my daughter up from school.

I do not know what caused this. It could be the lack of sleep. It could be both the Buspirone and Levothyroxine that I have been stopping at the same time. So I went back on the original doses of each med and I will get to bed early today.

[Jimpolar]

I've been craving attention for a couple weeks now. I'm not acting on it, I just want someone to notice me.

My signature says it tonight…

and the way the rain comes down hard
that's the way I feel inside…

Couldn't put my finger on describing it. Then my BF just happened to put this song on, and I choked up when I got to singing those lines. Yeah. That's it exactly.
Son called for serious conversation, questioning stuff he's been going through. I've watched for years, taking great care to avoid over-interpretation of things, hoping he'd escape it. But the signs are troubling.
And he's just one year older than the age my BP hit in earnest.