[TippPatt]

Originally Posted by Moreta

I'm a failure. Started smoking again.

You are not a failure. It's a ***** to quit smoking. I know, but I did it.

Try the chantex pill. It absolutely works. I asked my doc what if it doesn't he said then you do it a second time. Do it. Honest.

[TippPatt]

Originally Posted by Skitz13

Today, I'm hoping will be a positive one. I see my T this morning and tonight I have a date for the first time in 5 years.

Iv'e been very uneasy around others and have isolated pretty bad but I was convinced by a friend it's time to get back out there so...I'm getting back out there. Scared as heck!!!

Wow - a date? I'm so happy for you. Gives me hope, ya know?

[TippPatt]

Originally Posted by pawn78

*Trigger warning for animal lovers.

A raccoon has been tormenting my cat, getting into my garbage and eating my cats food. Last night I waited for him, and when he came onto my porch, I jumped out my front door and stabbed him with a home-made spear, but he got away... Probably mortally wounded.

It wouldn't be the first raccoon I killed, a few years ago one was getting into my house and I blew his head off one night.

Yeah, I know, I am a maniac.

Well, that puts planting mint around your yard out of the question, doesn't it? Raccoons don't like mint and will stay away. Perhaps you might try that instead of the 'killing the wolly mamouth' route?

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by TippPatt

Wow - a date? I'm so happy for you. Gives me hope, ya know?

Lol I'll let you know how it goes.

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by pawn78

*Trigger warning for animal lovers.

A raccoon has been tormenting my cat, getting into my garbage and eating my cats food. Last night I waited for him, and when he came onto my porch, I jumped out my front door and stabbed him with a home-made spear, but he got away... Probably mortally wounded.

It wouldn't be the first raccoon I killed, a few years ago one was getting into my house and I blew his head off one night.

Yeah, I know, I am a maniac.

OMG PAWN!!!!!

[bumble2u]

This is the third week of husband's grandma visitation. She turns 90 in August. I have tried to be very kind and patient. It is hard, she delights in making people uncomfortable. I have greeted every bit of venom with positivity and changed the subject when i know she is winding herself up. I feel bruised. I know i shouldn't complain especially with a lady of her age but she will say;" oh I like this and this", so I go out and buy xyz then she will announce "well I don't like that at least not the way you have made it. Trying not to be hurt by comments as: You didn't bring up your kids properly, they can't speak German etc. The only thing that stops me being nasty back is respect for elders and booze. So tired right now . My sleep is starting to suffer. Can't remember the last time i was sober.

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by bumble2u

This is the third week of husband's grandma visitation. She turns 90 in August. I have tried to be very kind and patient. It is hard, she delights in making people uncomfortable. I have greeted every bit of venom with positivity and changed the subject when i know she is winding herself up. I feel bruised. I know i shouldn't complain especially with a lady of her age but she will say;" oh I like this and this", so I go out and buy xyz then she will announce "well I don't like that at least not the way you have made it. Trying not to be hurt by comments as: You didn't bring up your kids properly, they can't speak German etc. The only thing that stops me being nasty back is respect for elders and booze. So tired right now . My sleep is starting to suffer. Can't remember the last time i was sober.

I wish that I had words to comfort you, but I don't.
I am not nagging, but the booze gives her one more thing to
***** about.
If you have power words, use them for inner strength
example
I am brave
I am strong
etc

[charo224488]

Originally Posted by bumble2u

This is the third week of husband's grandma visitation. She turns 90 in August. I have tried to be very kind and patient. It is hard, she delights in making people uncomfortable. I have greeted every bit of venom with positivity and changed the subject when i know she is winding herself up. I feel bruised. I know i shouldn't complain especially with a lady of her age but she will say;" oh I like this and this", so I go out and buy xyz then she will announce "well I don't like that at least not the way you have made it. Trying not to be hurt by comments as: You didn't bring up your kids properly, they can't speak German etc. The only thing that stops me being nasty back is respect for elders and booze. So tired right now . My sleep is starting to suffer. Can't remember the last time i was sober.

I have a 93 yr. old grandmother that is just like that! The fact that you have lasted 3 weeks with the woman is a testament to your strength and self-control. I have trouble lasting 3 hours. Don't be so hard on yourself, and if I were you I'd quit trying to please her. I found that with my grandmother, it is impossible! Good luck to you!

[lilypup]

Husbands grandma just like that, called ppl and told them we were too tight to buy her a steak. She never told us she liked steak. honestly am hoping i dont act like that when (if) I am that age. I would never have company for three weeks...that is way too much for me.

excuse typos hands shaking

[pawn78]

Originally Posted by TippPatt

Well, that puts planting mint around your yard out of the question, doesn't it? Raccoons don't like mint and will stay away. Perhaps you might try that instead of the 'killing the wolly mamouth' route?

I don't think a little mint is going to keep this varmint away. I stabbed him in the side with a spear, and he came back to my porch 24 hours later!!! Tough little SOB!

If getting stabbed with a spear won't keep him away, a little mint isn't going to for sure!

Plus, planting a huge wall of mint all the way around my house isn't very practical. He'll come back tonight, and I'll be ready.

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by pawn78

I don't think a little mint is going to keep this varmint away. I stabbed him in the side with a spear, and he came back to my porch 24 hours later!!! Tough little SOB!

If getting stabbed with a spear won't keep him away, a little mint isn't going to for sure!

Plus, planting a huge wall of mint all the way around my house isn't very practical. He'll come back tonight, and I'll be ready.

lol lol lol lol

[pawn78]

I just fried up some home-made hash-browns and some ground turkey burgers with horseradish mustard. Also a side of portabella mushrooms, radishes and spinach.... mmmmm.
also, I am flying high.

[Moreta]

Originally Posted by TippPatt

You are not a failure. It's a ***** to quit smoking. I know, but I did it.

Try the chantex pill. It absolutely works. I asked my doc what if it doesn't he said then you do it a second time. Do it. Honest.

I tried Chantix and almost killed myself b/c I got so suicidal. Ended up in the ER requiring stitches and a weeks hospital stay. Not doing that again.

[Skitz13]

Well totally sabotaged my night!!!

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by pawn78

I just fried up some home-made hash-browns and some ground turkey burgers with horseradish mustard. Also a side of portabella mushrooms, radishes and spinach.... mmmmm.
also, I am flying high.

Man...I wish I had your mania!

[pawn78]

Originally Posted by Skitz13

Man...I wish I had your mania!

Well, yeah, it is pretty awesome. I am still sleeping and behaving 'normally', so it is a very good, very fun mania. Thanks to my meds. Without Lamictal, I would probably be a very mean, irritable, outright miserable SOB right now.

[Standup2me]

I am alive
I am a child of the Earth Mother
I can see light in the darkness

I am me

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by pawn78

Well, yeah, it is pretty awesome. I am still sleeping and behaving 'normally', so it is a very good, very fun mania. Thanks to my meds. Without Lamictal, I would probably be a very mean, irritable, outright miserable SOB right now.

Oh ya. I should ask those poor little raccoons lol Lamictal is an amazing drug

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by Skitz13

Well totally sabotaged my night!!!

Nope apparently it's all good. This whole dating thing is pretty tough.

[Blitter2014]

Feeling much better for cold turkey stopping my so called heartburn meds. Now I'm sure they were interacting with my saphris! Clearer head, paranoia back under control.....am I glad I trusted my own judgement after four weeks of living hell! A note to everyone...Just because a drug is not on a interactions list doesn't mean they dont interact!

Doc said they would double the strength of valium if I took any....well that's what im sure they were doing to my saphris. Oh how its good to be feeling a bit more sane and a lit safer!

[pawn78]

Originally Posted by Skitz13

Oh ya. I should ask those poor little raccoons lol Lamictal is an amazing drug

Well, I must have not injured the raccoon nearly as much as I thought, as he is still coming back, and he is still VERY AGILE! I can't get him. Every time I go out to confront him, he scrambles off my porch like a rocket!
I give up. I am going to have to just live with this little rascal. I'll just have to lock up my garbage cans, and avoid feeding my cat during darkness hours. I live in a small city, so shooting him is out of the question, and I can't set out any traps either.

Raccoon wins.

[Standup2me]

I feel great today
Full of energy and hope for the future

It is a great feeling

[tigersassy]

Really feeling odd. Not bad or negative. I just feel like I'm buzzing against my skin on the inside. My brains even more all over the place now (after yoga) than it was before too. Not sure if this is normal, but then again what is normal about me. I made it thru my 30 min beginners DVD, felt like I couldn't be that's still and deliberate to the point I felt my body trembling with the effort. Time for dinner/meds and then bath and write and bed if I can.

Glad I am inpatient at the moment. Had a bad few days, especially last night. But doubled my clonazepam so the anxiety is much better, just the depression and pain to deal with now. Got a huge day today, group in the morning, psychotherapy straight after then going out for a ride on my horse this afternoon with a friend. I hope the ride lifts my mood and loosens up my body a bit, I need some exercise as I have been cooped up with depression the last few days. Got triggered by a few things last night so that was a pretty terrible night, in hindsight I should have gone to bed earlier but the lady in the room next door was being transferred to the locked ward and making a kuffuffle so I couldnt have slept even with the earplugs. Might see if I can get my meds early tonight and have a good sleep as Im waking between 4 and 5.30 am at the moment. I dont mind getting up at 5.30 but 4 is way too early especially being winter here.

Sorry for not catching up on all your stories, cant deal with much of it right now. (hug) to you all who are doing it tough and well done to those of you who are coping well, keep up the good work.

[johnnyhobo]

Mania caused me to drive several towns over instead of driving home because I had an impulse to get away.

The further I drove out, the greater my mania and euphoria became...Now I've crashed. I'm home and feeling awfully depressed. My vision is blurred with a severe migraine. I cancelled all my plans I made with friends.

Tomorrow I start a new medication called ViiBryd. Feeling uneasy. Hoping to actually sleep tonight...