Bipolar daily check in thread #7

Skitz13 · Aug 29, 2014, 10:20 AM

Yesterday was not so great. Lots of anxiety and a whole lot of agitation. I got up this morning vowing it will be a better day. Meeting up with a friend of 34 years for lunch. She's the only true friend I have left that knows about my illness.

Tucson · Aug 29, 2014, 10:24 AM

I am here...sort of. I have been depressed for several days now. I hope this does not last for months.

Pikku Myy · Aug 29, 2014, 12:12 PM

Had a really difficult evening/night... anxious and scared about things. Almost could not breathe. Doing a lot better this morning. Trying to focus on the weekend.

GALAXYGAL · Aug 29, 2014, 03:00 PM

In and out of depression having trouble seeing my life and myself realistically. Today, I am fantasizing my way out of depression trouble is that I am using it to escape from some very real issues I don’t want to deal with. This is when a therapist would come in handy. I am going to push myself to meditate tonight after a hot shower. I know that will help to keep me in touch with the here and now and will help with depression too.

seekergirl · Aug 29, 2014, 05:57 PM

New here, 3rd day in a row of super boring days of being on call at my job with no work.

cashart10 · 09:18 PM

I had a meeting with the psychologist today who did an assessment on my son. I learned that he has autism.

I am still feeling disturbed and very suicidal. Don't know how much more fight I have in me.

pawn78 · Aug 29, 2014, 08:51 PM

Autism isn't bad. People are all different. Your son is very special just like all of us.

cashart10 · Aug 29, 2014, 09:15 PM

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Originally Posted by pawn78

Autism isn't bad. People are all different. Your son is very special just like all of us.

This is true. Thank you for a refreshing perspective on what feels like sad news!

Blue_Bird · Aug 29, 2014, 10:43 PM

Feeling good, inspired to start new projects, start college. Not manic or hypomanic, just stable and optimistic

Aug 30, 2014, 03:32 AM

Today went ok. TG.

all!

buzz bee · Aug 30, 2014, 04:38 AM

Feeling better. No longer working and Im taking care of myself now.

Love&Toil · Aug 30, 2014, 01:18 PM

Doing ok, irritable today tho, need a break. Tired of being on call and catering to all. Bored. I'll get over it.

catman1975 · Aug 30, 2014, 01:22 PM

I'm functional today. Still overall very depressed and still getting the electric shock feelings through my whole body. Girlfriend called and asked me to come over, so I painted on my happy face and walked over there. We had a nice visit and she apologized for telling me to leave and never come back last night. That was thoughtful. Invited to a BBQ at an uncle's house today but I just don't know if I can keep my happy face on for long enough to survive it. Maybe if my girlfriend wants to go with I will go. Otherwise I think I will stay home and not spread around my depression.

catman1975 · Aug 30, 2014, 01:27 PM

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Originally Posted by cashart10

I had a meeting with the psychologist today who did an assessment on my son. I learned that he has autism.

I am still feeling disturbed and very suicidal. Don't know how much more fight I have in me.

But it is something that can be worked with. It's not a death sentence. You will love your son and he will love you the same as if there was no autism. I'm sure there will be a lot to learn and it will be challenging at times, but I know you will do what is right for your son. He needs you, and you need him. Stay positive and keep coming back here when you need to talk or vent. These are the times you need to seek out help from others in your situation, meaning those with bipolar and those who have children with autism. You don't have to do it alone!

Tucson · Aug 30, 2014, 02:31 PM

I am here. I am having another depressing day. In recent past I went one month stable. What happened? Stressors? I am handling everything that comes my way. But staying at home, I have allot of time to ruminate.

Roblovescats · Aug 30, 2014, 02:51 PM

Ok I'm bad about keeping up on here. I didn't even realize we had a new thread. I feel a little guilty for not being here much lately. I'm doing ok and just haven't had anyone to talk to really. I don't have many people who I talk to, here or irl. I think I'm just trying to not complain anymore. The more I focus on the things that upset me the more they upset me. Probably why I haven't been to Pdoc in over a year and therapist in like 4 years. I'm not happy but not in misery either.

Hopeful Camel · Aug 30, 2014, 03:01 PM

I'm restless. We move to another city tomorrow. Feel in a state of flux. Trying to maintain. That is about it.

Standup2me · Aug 30, 2014, 09:11 PM

I am still coming to terms with going to Overeaters Anon on Monday

I have to get this binge eating under control

pawn78 · Aug 30, 2014, 09:57 PM

Played with my kids all day. Made them about 6 meals and watched them trash my house.

I have a date tomorrow night with a bipolar woman who is absolutely stunning.

Skitz13 · Aug 31, 2014, 06:07 AM

Not much to say. Haven't been doing anything. I'm thinking 'm in a mild form of depression but nothing serious.

lacerta · Aug 31, 2014, 09:41 AM

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Originally Posted by pawn78

Played with my kids all day. Made them about 6 meals and watched them trash my house.

this is absolutely my day as well

Tucson · Aug 31, 2014, 12:35 PM

I have been really depressed today. I do not have the energy to do anything. I am not even paying attention to TV. I just feel tired and want to sleep more.

catman1975 · Aug 31, 2014, 01:30 PM

I'm still very depressed today, and still having the shock feelings throughout my body. I received word today that a 95 year old man in the area who was feeding feral cats for 15 years has died. The cats are in danger of being rounded up and euthanized by the county and it's up to me and our organization to try to stop it. We are going to offer to trap, neuter, and either return or relocate them (depending on new owner's feelings about the cats and availability of food and shelter.) I hope we can get to them before it's too late and that the family will be supportive and cooperative. Those cats shouldn't have to die with him. I want to see his humane legacy carried on in the community.

I have been crying a lot today thinking about what will happen to those cats if we can't help them. I consider their lives more precious than my own. It just hurts me to see happy, healthy cats killed only because they are feral and unadoptable as pets. All of the cruel things people do to animals make me cry. Cruelty, abandonment, killing, unnecessary euthanasia all fuel my depression but also inspire me to do my part to try and stop it.

How to put aside the depression and concentrate on the task at hand? I don't know, but I have to do it. Saving lives needs to take priority right now, those cats are depending on me to advocate for them in the community and make sure they continue to live long, healthy lives like Mr. Hall would have wanted them to. And of course be spayed and neutered to prevent more homeless cats!

tigersassy · Aug 31, 2014, 04:56 PM

So maybe I'm still manic. Let my wife cut my hair. She cut 4 inches or so. It's cool I like it. Was completely on impulse. Have to work tomorrow. Did wind up with a 3 day weekend since I called in Friday. I'm feeling real jittery. Have had no caffeine today at all. Do I know that isn't it. It's a beautiful day. I can't focus to get anything done. I'm everywhere and no where at the same time. Can't wait to get paid on Friday. So many plans. Haven't left the house because of the humidity, but I'm going to do yoga tonight here in 30 mins or so.