[Love&Toil]

Doing quite well today. Went swimming with my kids, cooked supper, did lots of laundry after unpacking since we returned from our trip. Super tired now. Reflecting a lot on mental health issues, glad to be on meds. Am a bit nervous about reducing my ADs but pdoc thinks my ADs are too high compared to my mood stabilizer. Any higher on the Abilify and I feel too flat and excruciatingly bored.

[catman1975]

Somewhat better today. Woke up late, still the shock feelings but less depressed than I have been. Good news for our cat program today, the daughter of the 95 year old colony caretaker that recently passed will let us continue to feed them there, and have them all spayed, neutered and vaccinated. 18 cats will take some hardcore fundraising to get done, but we think we can get it done before winter.

Originally Posted by Roblovescats

Ok I'm bad about keeping up on here. I didn't even realize we had a new thread. I feel a little guilty for not being here much lately. I'm doing ok and just haven't had anyone to talk to really. I don't have many people who I talk to, here or irl. I think I'm just trying to not complain anymore. The more I focus on the things that upset me the more they upset me. Probably why I haven't been to Pdoc in over a year and therapist in like 4 years. I'm not happy but not in misery either.

I have come to the conclusion that "We do best, what we do most." So I agree with you in trying not to complain. The more we are depressed, the more we are/become depressed.. The more we enjoy life, the better we become able to see the good around us. That's the theory, anyway.

Originally Posted by catman1975

Somewhat better today. Woke up late, still the shock feelings but less depressed than I have been. Good news for our cat program today, the daughter of the 95 year old colony caretaker that recently passed will let us continue to feed them there, and have them all spayed, neutered and vaccinated. 18 cats will take some hardcore fundraising to get done, but we think we can get it done before winter.

That's so wonderful about "your" cats. And glad you're feeling less depressed. I'm up and down....today, more up than down, because I have my band practice this evening. Am watching a 4-part PBS special on John F. Kennedy and his presidency in the US. I lived through those years, and there's a lot on the films that I didn't know at the time...and a lot others didn't know then, either. Really fascinating, and I recommend this if you can get it. I stream it with Netflix. It's called simply JFK, if interested.

[tigersassy]

Doing good. Kinda scared I'm seeing faces in patterns on the curtains hearing songs that aren't playing. I know they aren't real, but I see them. I need ask for a different AP. I don't like the seroquel and obviously it isn't working. Wish I could control my thoughts.

On a high, after a great workout. I guess I could call it hypomania, but I experience it everyday, and it's probably just my mind thanking my body

[Love&Toil]

Doing quite well today, more reflections on mental illness. Over-slept today which in turn makes me more sleepy. Had a crummy nightmare or two last night, must be because of the reduction in Wellbutrin which is now about a week into it. Hopefully the nightmares are a passing thing and won't last too much longer. Bless dh for watching the kids this eve so I could go help my sister.

[Standup2me]

Feeling overwhelmed.
To much noise, people, smells,oh someone please make it all away

[catman1975]

Feeling optimistic today. Woke up early, drank coffee with my dear cat Michelle who spent yesterday attacking me because I triggered her PTSD by putting her in a different room temporarily. Amazing how much animals can really be like people sometimes. You can see when fear takes over and she just loses control same as many of us do when exposed to a trigger.

Today I volunteer for a couple hours at the local shelter, mixed feelings about working with a kill facility but I think by being there I can still help/save cats sometimes and advocate for our program and reducing the shelter's kill rate ... hopefully someday we can make it 0 like it needs to be.

I am considering calling my doctor today about the multitude of problems I have been having. I fear going to the doctor because it seems like something bad usually happens, like finding out I had cancer. Though I guess I should feel lucky they caught it while it was still operable.

Hope everybody else is bouncing back from the holiday weekend and feeling well.

[Skitz13]

Feel like I'm back again. Mixed episodes are so hard to deal with. The last 2 days have been ok, we'll see how long this lasts.

Trying to be optimistic that I'll get a longer stretch of wellness this time around.

[tigersassy]

Pdoc increased my seroquel xr to 400mg at night and if I need it 50mg of reg two times a day. She also talked about stepping up my lamictal after I land. And lowering/ dropping the seroquel. But who knows how long that'll be. She said the seroquel it's just too get me down. She said she could tell I was doing better. I wasn't as all over the place in her office. Have an appt with her in just over a month. And I lost weight. Not sure how that happened with me being hungry all the time but hey 4 pounds is 4 pounds. It's been 2 1/2 weeks. I go back in roughly a month. I'll call if I need to.

[Love&Toil]

Tigersassy hopefully your hallucinations will respond to the med change quickly.

Doing quite well I suppose, but dizzy and nauseous today. Could be med withdrawal, could be because I'm at ovulation time (sorry TMI but my cycle affects me in many ways incl. PMDD and sometimes dizziness associated with different parts of cycle). Got lots of work done but I'm bored. I am overwhelmed by the work and messiness in my house but there are 5 people living in a little space so what do I expect?

[lacerta]

I'm happy. I got free speech therapy sessions for my eldest. That will save quite a lot of money.
Sons blood tests came back with good results, he is now cured from what he had.
Applied for after school activities, will be able to manage with both of kids being in same lessons same time, that was not allowed last year.
Though spending too much time at computer, I'm afraid I'm kind of addict. Had trouble falling asleep for last couple of days, though finally did fall asleep without sleeping pill last night.

[pommybt]

Saw Pdoc on fri (new one) can't stand her. Dropped my cymbalta by 60mg, plus started 500mg sodium valproate. Well last week felt half normal this week crash I'm so depressed and can't function :-(

[tigersassy]

Wondering if I might have cracked something when I fell a week ago.

[Standup2me]

Today I am people tired

And the nice thing about being here is that we all understand what that means

[Love&Toil]

Doing okay today. My mind is not really in my work as I am thinking of the kids and back to school and am in vacay brain which I thoroughly enjoyed. Feeling a bit more bored than usual. Wonder if its due to the drop in Wellbutrin. Or maybe the downer after the high of vacation.

[catman1975]

Feeling soso today. Went to doctor in the morning to talk about some of the strange problems that have been going on, she ran some bloodwork to rule out thyroid etc. Watched The Young and The Restless, got a tetanus shot at the health department, and went and ate pickled beets at the farmer's market. Arranging transfer of 6 kittens to another rescue in Duluth, where they will be brought to a Petco adoption event.

[Hopeful Camel]

Feeling pretty happy, but it could be that I am up late, drinking black tea, and starting to feel a buzz. Survived my move to a new town, with only one major melt down. Got all dramatic and everything. I was quite the Joan Crawford. But we got through that with marriage intact. All in all, I'm good.

[Curiosity77]

I just got back from Burning Man and I had am amazing time. What a crazy week full of adventures and pushing my boundaries. It was so good. I stopped all my meds except lamotrigine, and i'm feeling so much better. I'm going to spend some time reading posts and catching up. Nice to be back

[Love&Toil]

Curiosity that sounds so cool!

[Love&Toil]

Doing ho hum fine. Visited with my siblings last night, my bro was talking smack which always is interesting. Twitchy eyebrow today and yesterday--fatigue or withdrawal?

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by Curiosity77

I just got back from Burning Man and I had am amazing time. What a crazy week full of adventures and pushing my boundaries. It was so good. I stopped all my meds except lamotrigine, and i'm feeling so much better. I'm going to spend some time reading posts and catching up. Nice to be back

So glad you're back and really happy to hear you had a great time and are feeling good.

[Skitz13]

Don't know what's up with me. I've lost all motivation. As a lot of you know I'm very much into my alternative treatments.

Lost all interest. Not taking my supplements, missing acupuncture appts, not exercising, barely eating, not meditating and what bothers me the most is that I'm not practicing my Native Spirituality.

I don't know what's wrong. I feel a little teary but not really depressed. I just have no interest in anything.

I'm not cleaning like I usually do, I'm not showering as much, not going out and not performing all my daily tasks.

Please God, don't let this be depression setting in!!!

[Standup2me]

Ahhhhhhh, I bit all of my nails.

I've been trying so hard to grow them