[pirilin]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I wish I could destroy something without the entire ****ing neighborhood hearing and waking up my daughter and entire ****ing apartment complex. I guess I'll have to settle with smoking and pacing and randomly screaming ****.

I can only imagine what you are going thru. And no matter what I say, you will come out of it when you do.
But it will go away. Same as it came. It will go away.
I want you to know that I love you.

[raspberrytorte]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I can only imagine what you are going thru. And no matter what I say, you will come out of it when you do.
But it will go away. Same as it came. It will go away.
I want you to know that I love you.

Awe, thanks p.

I love you too.

[raspberrytorte]

I just threw some things and screamed and kicked my own *** and started writing in my journal to do my racing thoughts test and I'm definitely have racing thoughts right now and everything I wrote down didn't make any sense at all! So now I'm going to go pace again. And smoke some more.

[pirilin]

Originally Posted by raspberrytorte

I just threw some things and screamed and kicked my own *** and started writing in my journal to do my racing thoughts test and I'm definitely have racing thoughts right now and everything I wrote down didn't make any sense at all! So now I'm going to go pace again. And smoke some more.

Do things you won't regret tomorrow. And don't wake my grandaughter up.
Gonna sleep now. I'm tired for the both of us. We'll chat tomorrow. Gnite.

[Wander]

'Sun is shining, the weather is sweet yeh' Bob Marley

I have a bad cold but I'm fine otherwise.

[gina_re]

Night number one of taking Lamictal earlier in the evening so that I can sleep at an appropriate hour was a success

[Icare dixit]

Depressed.

[pirilin]

I knew. On the ground and the other in the air. Seesaw jammed. Rest and drink a lot of water. You have been to this rodeo before. Hang tight. Any minute now, things will turn around and you will be on top. Good luck.

[Daonnachd]

Headache from the ECT yesterday.

[hopeless2015]

I wish I could get past my morning struggle every day I wake up and go into my head...don't feel like I can face the world, I'm fine once I get going. Tomorrow i. Going good to jump up as soon as the alarm goes off and see if I can get to the shower before the ****** thought kick in

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[OctobersBlackRose]

Slept in today, didn't sleep.well again last night. Right now listening to some music, trying to break out an anxiety, it's starting to simmer down a bit, so that's good. Going to see some fireworks tomorrow at a county park, with family, should be fun, as long as no one fights. But looking forward to it.

[Gabyunbound]

I have to get up at the crack of dawn to get to work and despite being very tired I've had a really hard time getting to sleep, so brutal getting up in the morning and working. I have the day off today, so slept in ridiculously too much, now feel sluggish and blah and my pain is bad.

My usual rant about Seroquel: I managed to make it through work yesterday despite lack of sleep, but nearly fell asleep at the wheel multiple times during my very long commute home, which sans this evil drug I never did. This stuff can be dangerous

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Gabyunbound

I have to get up at the crack of dawn to get to work and despite being very tired I've had a really hard time getting to sleep, so brutal getting up in the morning and working. I have the day off today, so slept in ridiculously too much, now feel sluggish and blah and my pain is bad.

My usual rant about Seroquel: I managed to make it through work yesterday despite lack of sleep, but nearly fell asleep at the wheel multiple times during my very long commute home, which sans this evil drug I never did. This stuff can be dangerous

what about taking the seroquel at night?
bizi

[Gabyunbound]

Originally Posted by bizi

what about taking the seroquel at night?
bizi

I do, but it keeps me really sleepy the next day anyway (the "Seroquel hangover"). I'm also taking a higher dose than I'd like which I already lowered a bit on my own. My pdoc said I need to keep taking it at that dose for 8 weeks after my depression to keep it at bay (according to recent studies he's read re Bipolar depression). I see my pdoc soon and will discuss nixing it.

[LadyShadow]

Was feeling good, until I saw an upsetting post. I let it run through my system. But my emotions are in check. Glad to be here on PC in all of your company tonight. Could really use a friend right now ........

[Coconutzo]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Was feeling good, until I saw an upsetting post. I let it run through my system. But my emotions are in check. Glad to be here on PC in all of your company tonight. Could really use a friend right now ........

What's up lady?
Friend are abundant in our wacky little corner!
You are so loved! What's on your mind?

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[Wander]

What I have been through this year has finally hit me. Feeling sad, exhausted and traumatised - but still well thankfully. I was so close to death and suffering so much it has really impacted me. Hospitalisations were stressful too. Become suddenly well last Saturday and have been fine but today I couldn't get out of bed and felt really down. I don't think I am depressed as such, just recovering from a very difficult time.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wander

What I have been through this year has finally hit me. Feeling sad, exhausted and traumatised - but still well thankfully. I was so close to death and suffering so much it has really impacted me. Hospitalisations were stressful too. Become suddenly well last Saturday and have been fine but today I couldn't get out of bed and felt really down. I don't think I am depressed as such, just recovering from a very difficult time.

Being hospitalized is a trauma of its own I believe.
Be kind to yourself. do something for self care, love yourself.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Mildly depressed, but trying to stay upbeat

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Mildly depressed, but trying to stay upbeat

In this case, I'm assuming staying upbeat is very intentional?
Not accidental.


I would really like to know more about the "blue bicycle," 'cause I love bikes. Maybe if I share first? Lemmee see.... Well, since we are talking "blue bicycles," my first mountain bike was a Giant Blue Iguana.
I still have it. I no longer sell my bikes, I like keeping a stable of them. I only hope to ride (at least one) one again. Have been laid up with medical stuff.

Do you ride a bicycle? It's so much fun! I like to ride my road bike and I like to mountain bike and... I like to ride hybrids, too. I've loved fast bikes ever since I was a young child.

Intentional... Hehe.

i managed to get blood out of my fingers today (without meaning too)

trying to open this little tiny box of candy and my finger kept scraping against the back of it.. then- in sted of doing the sensible thing of washing it off and forgetting it about it, it triggered my self harm urges- and decided to start somewhere else and smear it everywhere.

apart from that i'm not doing too bad

got back in to journalling and i'm glad i did (i was reading some of my earlier journal entries this week, oh my god!)

entries from years ago and i'm like.. i actually wrote that?. really?

i also had a poster come for me from amazon.

replacing the one on my wall with 1 of benidorm- will probably hang it up tonight

[Wild Coyote]

Still not sleeping...mixed episode.

Thankful for the impermanent nature of some parts of life!

WC