[bizi]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

hm. depression has now moved on to mixed... getting significantly worse.

but the worst part is that my pdoc's office refuses to help me. they say they cant help me because my pdoc is on vacation. then i explained the situation and asked if I could see (or at least talk to) a different pdoc for the time being. then they said, "no, we can't do that. we don't do doctor sharing." so now i can't see a different pdoc in person or talk to a different pdoc on the phone. it's not allowed, not even for emergencies.

now i'm screwed because i leave on tuesday for europe and my pdoc won't be back in his office until then! i have suicidal thoughts and they won't help me with my medication! i'm hopeless

]This is unethical that they don't have an on call doctor for emergencies.
Call the after hours answering service and see if they have an on call doctor. I bet they do.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Coconutzo]

Only seconds(perhaps 2) after she takes the **** out of her mouth, she starts crying.

Shrink, can you help with this?

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[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bizi

]This is unethical that they don't have an on call doctor for emergencies.
Call the after hours answering service and see if they have an on call doctor. I bet they do.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Blue, Oh wow, so sorry you are meeting with resistance.
Elsa and Bizi are right: this is unethical, as a doctor must be available to you. If push comes to shove, go to the ER. Your job and your life are worth it.

Your region of the U.S. has outstanding care options.

You need solid medical advice now.
In the future, you may want to find care which better meets your needs, I have read some of your comments in other threads and I strongly encourage you to explore options for future care.

There are very learned ERs in your area, with great inpatient psych departments willing to send a consulting doctor to the ER to meet with you.

If you need to go to the ER and are concerned you cannot pay the co-pays, go to a public hospital and also apply for their patient financial aid program. Many ppl with insurance obtain some additional financial help from public hospital financial aid funds.

When you call your current psychiatrist's office, take notes. Have a call log, with time/date, request, reply, name of person you have talked with, etc.
Other doctors will help you. esp. if they feel strongly you were left without adequate help/support by your current doctor.

It's very important you obtain a consult asap.


WC

Does your insurer require a referral for you to go to the ER?
If so, call them and explain. Keep you notes, incase you need them later on.

i am just sat here listening to emilie autum with my fan on and drinking a glass of summer fruits

i really don't have anything to say about today, just that once again i had no sleep and my important delivery (the 1 i was meant to get on thursday), is still not here

[hopeless2015]

Haven't done squat today, too hot. Meeting friends for dinner in a bit, looking forward to it. Hugs to all!!

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@bizi: The way this place works, your doctor is *always* on call. There is no single on-call doctor. So if you call the "emergency" number, you'll get connected with your specific provider. (At least that's what happened to me when I called at 3am once and also called at 7pm another time.)

I just didn't even bother trying. I gave up.

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@Wild Coyote: Yeah, it is pretty unethical not to let patients have an appointment with a different doctor for ONE time.

I had no idea that public hospitals actually had financial aid programs. Thanks for letting me know. I'll keep that in mind for the future for sure.

I don't know if it's really my pdoc's fault that I can't get help from them. I think it's just their stupid policy, which I had no idea about until now.

[LadyShadow]

Feeling a bit accomplished today. Cleaned up my room in what feels like months. Still have some vacuuming to do though, but I feel like I have made progress. Just a bit bored though, wish I had someone to talk to.

[OctobersBlackRose]

Got out of bed for a little bit today, stillness really hot, ate, and just got off the phone with my Mom. Today wasn't too bad other than some depression...

[bizi]

managed to stick to one beer tonight and ate well. so
better is better
bizi

[raspberrytorte]

Just sad like usual.

[OctobersBlackRose]

It is 5:22am,. still up and eating everything in the damn house. Ugh, I need to sleep some time...

i hate people who just look out for your health- hate it.

so my cans of vanilla coke finally arived (good because i've been waiting for them for ages), and the first thing someone said to me was... send them back, you shouldn't be drinking those- your poor teeth

what right do they have to say that kind of thing?

uggg!. well i'm so sorry you can't be happy for me that they at least arived

[Wander]

Been struggling with low grade depression. Finding it hard to get out of bed and be motivated, or enjoy anything at all. Still, I am keeping up with work, chores and some socialising so that is a bonus. My brain feels like mush but I managed to read Shakespeare's The Tempest for my university course which starts this week. It was hard going but I am amazed I go through it at all. There is hope I will be able to study this semester!

All through this I feel so fragile. The last hell mixed episode really took it out of me but I am determined to recover and rebuild my life so I am pushing myself while also being kind to myself. Anxiety has been bad too so I have had to stop trying to taper off CLonazepam. At least for this semester at university.

[OctobersBlackRose]

I feel like I'm going into a mixed episode or agitated depression, idk which, but Inhave a lot of energy, but at the same time too depressed to do anything with my excess energy. Plus the racing thoughts, rapid speech when talking to people, or also substituted with excess posting on here, sometimes incoherently, and the urges, oh the urges to SH... Ugh only Time will tell if it is truely a mixed episode or agitated depression... May make a separate thread on it, idk...

[scatterbrained04]

Struggling to find motivation. My house is a mess, and I have to go grocery shopping. Don't care to either right now.

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[Wild Coyote]

I feel a bit of a setback today. Yesterday, too.
Trying to just let it pass while not investing in it.

I am still grieving lots of losses. It all takes time and patience.

Love to ALL,

WC

[hopeless2015]

Went to visit my mom for a bit today. Enjoyed that. Need to do something around the house, I have laundry started but I need to clean but am not feeling motivated

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[Unrigged64072835]

Rather agitated right now, though it's probably more from anxiety than from BP. I took a walk around a nearby mall and it was a little freaky, especially since I haven't been out of the house much due to the weather. I also need to change a doctor's appointment but of course I can't because it's Sunday and the online system is down. It's also hotter in the house so I can't lie down and take a nap because I'm sweating. Ugh....

[John Primo78]

Pretty good I go back too work but other than that I'm okay

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[OctobersBlackRose]

Went out to the store.with my Grandma, only bought what I needed, yay no impulse.spending, mostly cause she was.with me so I couldn't. Feeling really energetic and restless right now, was really agitated and depressed this morning, still am agitated and depressed. Idk what is going on, agitated depression or mixed episode, I really don't know. Bought some sleep aids to hopefully calm me down and help me sleep a bit, I doubt I'll get much sleep, but it's worth a shot to try them again, *trigger warning* as long as I don't try ODing on them again (did.that twice). But at least my Grandma and I talked, we talked.about my Grandpa and memories about him. I told.her about me getting lectured in therapy and about my paranoia about my one uncle trying to.steal my Grandpa ashes (he threatened to do that) my mind is all over the place with this, I'm afraid it'll turn violent, and he'll.try killing everyone (yeah I may be a bit paranoid). I actually ate for once too a salad.and ice cream... Just laying down right now waiting for my launch to dry and these sleeping pills to.kick in and calm me.down a bit...

still depressed... and i've been depressed for about 3 weeks now. that's cool, i guess... i guess...

i started abilify again without telling anyone because my pdoc's office is stupid. totally desperate for a fix.

[bizi]

In the heat of the day.
We went hiking at a state park an hour away north ofus.
Chicot state park.
we "hiked" for about an hour or 45 minutes. up hill and down hill....
It was full of spiders webs that hubby was freaking out about and mosquitoes and house flies...not fun.
but it was activity. then we drove to the end of the park where there was a pier and we walked that and tried to feed aliigator but he did not like sunflower seeds.
lol
so we drove home then met a family to eat supper.
had a nice time.
bizi
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[raspberrytorte]

I've been agitated, restless, and full of a lot of pent up energy.

I took a couple of laps around the basement this morning. Too hot to take a walk (though I did take one in the early morning). Might have to take one right now.

I'm just so BORED!

[Standup2me]

Blah blah blah
Sunday Sunday
Sucks to be Sunday
Blah

[Standup2me]

I am tired of this life I lead. I don't being alive, I mean the life that I live. I am tired of the stress, pressure, the demands, the people who need me...all of it. Just so darn tired of it.
Why?
Why do I do this day after stinking day?