After getting 12 hours of sleep across 5 days (i.e., 2.4 hrs a day on average), I was finally able to sleep thanks to my new Seroquel Rx! Yay.

I still feel very "up", but I'm glad I finally got sleep because I was worried about passing out from exhaustion! (My mind didn't feel exhausted, but I'm sure my body did.)

All in all, I'm feeling totally awesome! Best. Feeling. Ever. No hallucinations so far!

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

I now have a grounding crystal (in an attempt to help me when things get out of control)
someone actually suggested i do this ages ago and i took no notice and thought.. hah, crystals, yeah. they are really going to help- but actually when i hold it in my hand, i do feel the energy inside it and hopefully it will help a bit more

A grounding crystal, this is very interesting. Where did you get it? I want to try it.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

After getting 12 hours of sleep across 5 days (i.e., 2.4 hrs a day on average), I was finally able to sleep thanks to my new Seroquel Rx! Yay.

I still feel very "up", but I'm glad I finally got sleep because I was worried about passing out from exhaustion! (My mind didn't feel exhausted, but I'm sure my body did.)

All in all, I'm feeling totally awesome! Best. Feeling. Ever. No hallucinations so far!

awesome post to wake up to from you blue!!!!
awesome.
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

After getting 12 hours of sleep across 5 days (i.e., 2.4 hrs a day on average), I was finally able to sleep thanks to my new Seroquel Rx! Yay.

I still feel very "up", but I'm glad I finally got sleep because I was worried about passing out from exhaustion! (My mind didn't feel exhausted, but I'm sure my body did.)

All in all, I'm feeling totally awesome! Best. Feeling. Ever. No hallucinations so far!

Happy for you!


WC

[bizi]

I already feel productive today. Chopped up the chicken that I bought yesterday on sale, 9 bags of 8-10oz a piece. Cleaned all surface areas of chicken residue including sharpie to write the oz. Put together a beef roast in the crock pot.
bags from the freezer are so much easier to deal with. onions, peppers celery covered with a can of cream of mushroom soup, then a bag of spinach and mushrooms covered with a can of lentil soup. ta da, one pot dinner!
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Well I got my *** out of bed and came to work. I'm very slow today...physically and mentally. I don't want to be here but know I can't stay in bed forever. I'm thinking my meds are worthless, I don't know why I take all of this crap when the depression never leaves me. I have refills to pick up tonight and I'm thinking about just weaning myself off

[Gs550]

Today's plan: start new dose of depakote, knit, make black beans and rice, do yoga.

I need to find a low impact workout that gets me as sweaty as running. My stupid heel spurs are just too much, I can't run anymore. 😔

[gina_re]

Overslept. Because I overslept, I missed the last train to get to work and decided to drive in. I live over 50 miles away and of course got lost once I got into the city. I called my two friends/coworkers cell phones like 20 times. I don't know where to park once I get here! The one day I need them the most is the one day they leave their phones at home. WTF. I was so anxious driving into the city because I always get lost and just refuse to do it. I usually have a water bottle in the car in case of emergency. The one time I don't have one...I needed to take my Vistaril so bad and I wasn't able to. I'm in such a bad mood because of the commute. Two freakin hours to get here. The only reason I came in despite oversleeping is because we have a department meeting. Now I'm stuck paying an excessive amount of money for the parking garage in my building when I know my coworkers park elsewhere for less. I'm so grumpy and can't talk to my friends until this stuff kicks in. I'm annoyed and hungry because I didn't get a chance to get breakfast in the rush to get up here. Needless to say not much work will be getting done today.

[Daonnachd]

ECT today.

[Gs550]

So I doubled my depakote dose this morning as instructed. I feel all tingly, and I have a headache.

[dangerousanimals]

Therapist appointment left me exhausted...talking about my brain often does that. Weird dreams kept waking me up overnight too. Took morning meds all at once, which usually makes me groggy as well. Keep nodding off, so I'll just sleep and then work on my projects afternoon/evening/overnight. I want to light a bonfire for the Equinox, so maybe I'll still do that. (I have a big fire pit... so it would be a controlled fire and not just burning stuff)
Told my therapist about my "cult." He had me sign a release form so he can talk to the med management doctors.

[jpb4815]

Saw awesome music last night, but went to bed so late that I could not take my meds. I fee like a million bucks today, I love good music. Little scared about starting lithium tonight, we will se how it goes. Need to carve out 20 minutes in my day for some mindfullness.

[scatterbrained04]

I feel like doing SH and my anxiety is making me sick to my stomach.

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

I feel like doing SH and my anxiety is making me sick to my stomach.

Do you have a therapist or a pdoc you can talk to?

Or you can vent here. That's what we're here for :-)

[OctobersBlackRose]

Went to my DBT group today, we made self soothing boxes, was a fun group, only 2 of us showed up though. Not much else going on, laying down right now.

[jmariah001]

Been sleeping a lot lately. I think it's the weather. Time to up some of my meds again. Yay.

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Do you have a therapist or a pdoc you can talk to?

Or you can vent here. That's what we're here for :-)

No T. Pdoc costs $162 to see. Already moved visit from December to January because money is tight.

[Unrigged64072835]

Pretty productive day. Saw new sleep doc, and had my CPAP supplies reordered. Did some grocery shopping and made a good dinner. I was kind of tired in the afternoon but not enough for a nap. Will probably have to cook until next week because money is tight, but oh well.

[gina_re]

If I'm not depressed,
If I'm not sad,
If I'm not manic,
If I'm not happy...

Then what am I?

I just know that something is off.

Weird headspace. Anxiety high, unfocused, sense of doom. Not sure what I should do or not bother to do. Got a couple of procrastinated items done, one being procrastinated for 3 months. Should feel good about that, but... not so much.

Have an appt. Friday. Only second time seeing her (T, no meds). That's not helping the anxiety, but at least that one's identifiable.

[hopeless2015]

I'm doing better today, still not 100% I've been tracking my moods for a few months and I think my hormones are throwing me off every month...it seems to be a steady pattern. I was convinced that I should go off my meds and I had a mood tracker reminder I set on my phone pop up...that explains everything now

Got 4.5 hrs of sleep last night despite taking Seroquel... Yikes

I'm feeling alright, albeit a bit irritable because I'm frustrated with my stupid work laptop, which sh#t itself yesterday.

The good news is that I think the mania is finally winding down because I haven't had hallucinations in a while.. Now I'm just waiting for the inevitable crash and hoping it isn't too bad. :-(

Rapid cycling sucks.

[raspberrytorte]

I'm feeling a lot better. I have haldol as a prn and took both of them yesterday and one this morning and it really helped, and I got six hours of sleep last night. Yea!

[p00dlez]

My husband got a phone call from one of our Drs but it only rang once and he couldn't answer it in time. Since most of our Drs go through the same system it just comes up with a generic number and we have no clue who called or why.

Could be his Dr, my kidney Dr, or my soon to be new GP we don't have a clue who called or why. He called them all back and nobody seems to be the one that called.

This really has me rattled because somebody called for some reason and with me just getting out of the hospital a few weeks ago stuff starts running through my head like did they find something else? I wish they would call back so I could quit worrying about this. Its driving me batty.

[Gs550]

Day 2 of double the depakote. I think thus far I've just gotten sort of chills and also decreased appetite. Hope it stays like that, I don't want the nausea again.