Bipolar Check in thread #14

Wild Coyote · Dec 03, 2016, 01:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Plenty worried, the new doc didn't renew my scrip for Ambien which I've been on for almost three years. I take two 10mg pills a night....down to zero. My meds work as they are and for me sleep is the foundation of my stability....not now, not at Christmas time when I have to mingle. Last night I had one, tonight one then zero. I take Ambien, Benadryl and melatonin to get me to sleep. For as long as I can remember I have trouble sleeping. This med cocktail is the first one I've had without major side effects and is still effective. Already the noise in my head. Augh.

Did the new doctor realize you have been using ambien nightly?
I hope you won't go through a "withdrawal" and will sleep despite the changes.
It can be tough to deal with new doctors and their different viewpoints.

WC

Theresa1991 · Dec 03, 2016, 01:25 PM

Hanging in here, crying a lot but also feeling relieved. Staying away from all kinds of substances makes me feel like I can finally perceive my own feelings again. Feeling less depersonalized. Finally have some hope again that things will get better and that I have the strength to face what's coming. Feeling utterly lonely anyway.

Wild Coyote · Dec 03, 2016, 01:36 PM

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Originally Posted by Theresa1991

Hanging in here, crying a lot but also feeling relieved. Staying away from all kinds of substances makes me feel like I can finally perceive my own feelings again. Feeling less depersonalized. Finally have some hope again that things will get better and that I have the strength to face what's coming. Feeling utterly lonely anyway.

(((((( Theresa1991 ))))))

Peace, Love, Comfort, Joy

WC

Coconutzo · Dec 03, 2016, 02:05 PM

Noisy head. Emotions everywhere. Boyfriend keeps suggesting that I'm depressed but I've had some good days. I thought I was coming out of my horrible depression. Maybe it's just a rocky road up? Maybe I've lost insight?

scatterbrained04 · Dec 03, 2016, 02:26 PM

Feeling off today. And unmotivated. But not bad. Just off. Probably because I got up late.

xRavenx · Dec 03, 2016, 03:41 PM

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Originally Posted by Coconutzo

Noisy head. Emotions everywhere. Boyfriend keeps suggesting that I'm depressed but I've had some good days. I thought I was coming out of my horrible depression. Maybe it's just a rocky road up? Maybe I've lost insight?

I'm sorry you're struggling. With the "noisy head" do you have a PRN/as needed medication plan that helps you manage the racing thoughts? It is a good sign that you are having some good days though, so that is hopeful and something positive to focus on. If there is something going on in your life that is making you feel more emotional, maybe once that passes or is taken care of, things will naturally fall in place (if in fact, that's part of the issue). Just some things to consider. I hope you feel better soon!

Wild Coyote · Dec 03, 2016, 03:47 PM

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Originally Posted by buggzzbunny

It has been ages since I have come here to the forum. But I really need support. I am totally floundering in dark emotions. Typical this time of year. Often been in hospital hereabouts or in deep trouble of mixed episode. Have lost old supports. Most of them. In a bad place. Can't do my art. Can't even write. Reading is tricky. Exercise hard to do. Need to shower. House a mess. Very alone though husband tries to be kind and is a great help. But my head is just a sad business. Don't know what to do with it. Took all medicine e I can. Why does the time of year crack my stability, my JOY?

Welcome back!

I hope you find support here.
Great you are reaching out.

WC

Unrigged64072835 · Dec 03, 2016, 04:09 PM

Been trying to learn new software that I got for Christmas. It's pretty complicated. I'm trying to figure out what I want to major in starting in summer. I keep trying to train my brain but it feels like mush. Oh well, at least I have something to stay occupied. Don't know what disability money I'll still be on once this new government comes onboard.

Moose72 · Dec 03, 2016, 04:18 PM

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Originally Posted by Fharraige

Been trying to learn new software that I got for Christmas. It's pretty complicated. I'm trying to figure out what I want to major in starting in summer. I keep trying to train my brain but it feels like mush. Oh well, at least I have something to stay occupied. Don't know what disability money I'll still be on once this new government comes onboard.

Me either. Sigh. Bow I feel depressed. I'm all alone and bored too. Already slept the day away too.

jtassar93 · Dec 03, 2016, 04:58 PM

I came out yesterday! (Both as bipolar(constantly changing) and being gay) I don't have many friends on facebook but I'm still so relieved. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel like I can post on there about my episodes and everything and be able to have some support.

Nammu · Dec 03, 2016, 05:49 PM

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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Did the new doctor realize you have been using ambien nightly?
I hope you won't go through a "withdrawal" and will sleep despite the changes.
It can be tough to deal with new doctors and their different viewpoints.

WC

He's not a Pdocs, none available here-a-bouts. He's a PCP so he doesn't want to prescribe it on a regular basis.

bizi · Dec 03, 2016, 05:54 PM

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Originally Posted by Nammu

Plenty worried, the new doc didn't renew my scrip for Ambien which I've been on for almost three years. I take two 10mg pills a night....down to zero. My meds work as they are and for me sleep is the foundation of my stability....not now, not at Christmas time when I have to mingle. Last night I had one, tonight one then zero. I take Ambien, Benadryl and melatonin to get me to sleep. For as long as I can remember I have trouble sleeping. This med cocktail is the first one I've had without major side effects and is still effective. Already the noise in my head. Augh.

That is cruel to just cut you off like that.
I am sorry.
bizi

JustJace2u · Dec 03, 2016, 06:40 PM

Just got released today from a 5 day forced IP stay. I feel better, but still not completely 100%.

Wander · Dec 03, 2016, 06:57 PM

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Originally Posted by jtassar93

I came out yesterday! (Both as bipolar(constantly changing) and being gay) I don't have many friends on facebook but I'm still so relieved. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel like I can post on there about my episodes and everything and be able to have some support.

I am so glad it is going well. Being able to post on FB will definitely be helpful. I tend to post song lyrics that explain how I feel. I only get a few likes but I know others understand I am not doing well. When I have posted that I am IP I have got a lot of support. Really helps the loneliness.

What sort of posts have you got in response?

Dec 03, 2016, 06:58 PM

I really am stupid sometimes. I was sitting on my porch staring out my screen thinking "my vision is bad, everything looks weird and distorted, I wonder if it's a side effect of my medication"? Then I look to my left where there is no screen and my vision is crisp. I was looking through a dirty screen, of course my vision isn't going to be sharp! Ugggggg. That took longer to figure out than I care to admit.

Moose72 · Dec 03, 2016, 07:02 PM

Elsa that's like when I had my pupils dilated at the eye dr and went to vote and couldn't read! I took my glasses off and could see then but it was the weirdest thing. It took hours for those dilating drops to wear off.

Dec 03, 2016, 07:02 PM

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Originally Posted by jtassar93

I came out yesterday! (Both as bipolar(constantly changing) and being gay) I don't have many friends on facebook but I'm still so relieved. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my chest. I feel like I can post on there about my episodes and everything and be able to have some support.

Congrats on coming out and for receiving support. I came out in a Facebook group and they all attacked me so it didn't work out. I'm glad yours was a positive experience. (((Hugs)))

Dec 03, 2016, 07:06 PM

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Originally Posted by Moose72

Elsa that's like when I had my pupils dilated at the eye dr and went to vote and couldn't read! I took my glasses off and could see then but it was the weirdest thing. It took hours for those dilating drops to wear off.

I hope you were able to vote how you wanted. I'm sorry that happened to you. I was sitting there thinking "my vision is really bad" for a long time. ....... my vision is bad. I need to work up courage and get some glasses. But not as bad as it seemed looking through that dirty screen. What a doofus I am.

Wander · Dec 03, 2016, 07:07 PM

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Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I really am stupid sometimes. I was sitting on my porch staring out my screen thinking "my vision is bad, everything looks weird and distorted, I wonder if it's a side effect of my medication"? Then I look to my left where there is no screen and my vision is crisp. I was looking through a dirty screen, of course my vision isn't going to be sharp! Ugggggg. That took longer to figure out than I care to admit.

Sorry, but that made me laugh. It reminds me when I am looking everywhere for my glasses, turning up and down my flat, only to find I have them on my face!

We all do silly things sometimes. Have a laugh at yourself, smile, life is hilarious sometimes.

Dec 03, 2016, 07:12 PM

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Originally Posted by Wander

Sorry, but that made me laugh. It reminds me when I am looking everywhere for my glasses, turning up and down my flat, only to find I have them on my face!

We all do silly things sometimes. Have a laugh at yourself, smile, life is hilarious sometimes.

It made me laugh too and I was hoping it would bring a smile to someone's face so I'm glad to hear you had a giggle about it

. I always lose my hair scrunchy......I look for it everywhere and it's always in the same place, on my wrist. My hair is always in a crunchy.

scatterbrained04 · Dec 03, 2016, 07:27 PM

What started out as an "off" day has turned into darkness and SI. Guess that escalated quickly.

Moose72 · Dec 03, 2016, 07:35 PM

I'm always looking for my cell phone when I'm talking on it!

Moose72 · Dec 03, 2016, 07:37 PM

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Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

What started out as an "off" day has turned into darkness and SI. Guess that escalated quickly.

(((((Scatterbrained)))))))

Do you have anything to distract you? Music has been my friend lately. It sort of consumes your brain for a while you know?