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#651
Apr 07, 2017, 07:56 AM
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Had an argument with my 17-yo daughter just hours after she got back from NYC. We are very close but sometimes it gets complicated and I'm sensitive anyway. I don't do complicated well and right now I think I don't do relationships well either. Sad and bewildered.
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#652
Apr 07, 2017, 10:54 AM
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Home sick AGAIN, I'm smoking myself to death, literally. I only have a few left in this pack and I'm done. I can't even inhale but I'm still lighting them and pretending to smoke basically. How stupid is that? I'm not depressed though just obsessing over my health and cigarettes and coughing my head off.
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#653
Apr 07, 2017, 12:55 PM
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Popping in to say hello! All is good in the land of gina_re! I am no longer taking the Restoril to sleep. I initially asked for a reduction in the dosage, but before my pdoc could respond I just stopped taking it. No side effects, well the first night I didn't sleep much, but it's been fine lately. So instead of being knocked out to sleep, I gradually fall asleep and it is somewhat easier to wake up in the morning. I'll fill the lower dosage and keep it for prn. Still tired in the mornings, but not that hungover drugged feeling anymore. I'm sure it will take some time to adjust since I had been on that stuff for almost two years.
Saw my T yesterday and because of the progress we made, he said I could come back in two months instead of two weeks. Or if anything happens in the mean time I can come in sooner. Have a great weekend! 
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#654
Apr 07, 2017, 02:22 PM
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Ugh, crappy day.
Still waiting for the college to update my email so I can take an online course that's required for my class. Help desk said it's supposed to be done today and it hasn't yet. Also I'm running out of Metformin and my doc didn't update the script like she was supposed to in February. So I'm not going to have any by the time I can contact her again. I called and went to the clinic and they couldn't do anything. Anxiety was up so I took a nap and actually slept for a little bit. The way this day is going I should've slept longer. Dinner is in the crock pot and will be done soon. |
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#655
Apr 07, 2017, 02:32 PM
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about 3 days of feeling the "bleak" coming on. Out of the blue. Random SI thoughts.again out of nowhere. So I'm trying to look at what could be going on. The rain is taking up the spring so far so I definitely could use some vitamin sunshine. Maybe I'm cutting back on diet too hard. Maybe I just need to get "some" amirite? Lol
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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#656
Apr 07, 2017, 04:16 PM
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I am okayish.
Sitting here in the car quietly dreading my imminent pdoc appt. hoping for some grand idea that he has not yet presented to me to help wthe th this depressoN. But preparing for disappointment and condescension and feelings of anger and frustration. I have stoppped believing in all of this crap I think. I am like an atheist who keeps going to church- I take communion and sit and stand and speak as commanded, but I am just going through the motions. I take the meds and go to the appts but I don't think I really believe in all this medicating and psychiatry and medicalization of psychic pain anymore... I think I am just tired and depressed and trying to brace myself for the reality that I am out there of medication options to keep these lows away. ****iing soul sucking depression At least I have a little more energy than last week, tho no more motivation. Anyway- wish me luck. I am full of angst and feel nausea in preparation of seeing my mental health care provider which I think says it all... |
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#657
Apr 07, 2017, 04:22 PM
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#658
Apr 07, 2017, 04:24 PM
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Good luck with your appt naynay.
I'm doing ok. Stormy out today. Ugh! I want spring! Still on the depressed side. No motivation. See my psych nurse in a couple of weeks. Tried to get in earlier but it didn't work out. I really need spring and sunshine to come. Then I'll feel better. |
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Apr 07, 2017, 04:24 PM
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#660
Apr 07, 2017, 04:27 PM
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Had a great day today. Only made 1 post so far. I went out with Anna and we went running, and swimming and then shopping and walking, more shopping and then coffee. Did I mention shopping? Spent a fortune but had lots of fun. We just got home and did some other stuff.
 So now I need help with 200 more posts in the next 8 hours. Just teasing... Maybe... |
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#661
Apr 07, 2017, 04:27 PM
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Had a great day today. Only made 1 post so far. I went out with Anna and we went running, and swimming and then shopping and walking, more shopping and then coffee. Did I mention shopping? Spent a fortune but had lots of fun. We just got home and did some other stuff.
So now I need help with 200 more posts in the next 8 hours. Just teasing... Maybe... |
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#662
Apr 07, 2017, 04:29 PM
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Okay somebody in the relationship forum who is around teenagers basically 24/7 gave me some wonderful advice and it really helped. I'm really struggling today. I don't understand why I can't be stable for more then a few days at a time. Thinking of contacting a crisis hot-line if I'm allowed to say that.
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#663
Apr 07, 2017, 04:32 PM
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Apr 07, 2017, 04:41 PM
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Apr 07, 2017, 04:42 PM
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Apr 07, 2017, 06:32 PM
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Apr 07, 2017, 06:40 PM
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I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
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#669
Apr 07, 2017, 07:17 PM
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Agitated depression has been eating me alive last few days. This morning however I have woken in a good mood. Hoping this mean the worst is over. Last night I was very ill with bad SI, agitation and low mood, even got tot the planning stage. But today, 8.15am is great so far. I am not even hung over from all the meds. Seeng pdoc soon then T, then hanging at my parents house for a few hours. going to be a good day. Only problem is Lithium tremors that make typing difficult.
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#670
Apr 07, 2017, 07:29 PM
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These past few days, my energy level is so low. I was actually feeling pretty high energy a few days before that, so I guess there's some cycling going on here. I'm trying not to spend too much money, but I am like a kid in a candy store lately, buying anything. I'll probably go on a trip soon, but haven't gotten that far yet. Part of the reason might be because I'm trying to make up from all the time where I've felt still empty (and probably still do, but it's masked). I hope this weekend goes okay. A little lonely lately.
I reached out to someone who is hard to get in touch with to see if maybe we can spend some time together, but he might be working night shift...I guess I'll just have to see. I'm leaning towards thinking it will be a lonely weekend, and if that's the case, maybe I'll do more shopping again to pass the time and buy some things. I am absolutely dreading work. I am not confident in my ability to focus on work, and it's only getting worse. I hope I'm not gonna crash, but this is sometimes the way it all plays out. |
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Apr 07, 2017, 07:41 PM
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#672
Apr 07, 2017, 09:22 PM
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Had a crying meltdown at work today. Fortunately I have a private office. Went home and have been sobbing on and off all day and all evening. Hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep.
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Apr 07, 2017, 09:25 PM
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Apr 07, 2017, 09:33 PM
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Despite Winter hanging on here in Ontario i've been having a beautiful period of high mood that started in February. I'm modulating it better than i ever have before -- taking sensory deprivation breaks, not making too many commitments and abandoning relationships and activities that do not provide a good return for my investment of personal resources.
I'm moving really fast right now and i can't tolerate people who can't keep up with me. There's no need to -- there are others who can meet or exceed my pace and it's *those* people i want to invest in. Having a great time on Facebook -- even have a Facebook friendship with an editor of a national alternative magazine who cracks me up! Literally, he had me laughing with tears streaming down my face the first time i discovered his posts! He's a friend-of-a-friend-of-a-friend. I had no idea who he was when i friended him and never would have if i'd know he was such an elite Canadian. But he's 'liked' several of *my* posts so i guess he enjoys me too. Facebook is magic! |
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#675
Apr 07, 2017, 10:05 PM
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Hey,
Had a decent night at work. Just found out my therapist is leaving the company he works for. Guess I'm back to the drawing board. My current therapist said that he has info to give me of another guy he knows. I don't understand why I can't just talk to one of the other counselors where he is. The physical therapy is working pretty well for me though. I only have two more sessions to go through before I'm done. I have to say I didn't want it to be over so soon. I was sort nervous about doing it since I'm just going for walking, but now that I'm doing it. It really helps. Well, until next time. |
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