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don't know...could you ask him? bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#677
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For the first time, I have gone to the gym and worked out. I want to make this part of a regular routine.
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Dx: Bipolar I, ADD, GAD. Rx: Fluoxetine, Buproprion, Olanzapine, Lamictal, and Strattera. |
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#678
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I dont know how i am.
I feel like conceding, waving the white flag and telling the depression that it wins. i am done. i want off this ride. But i am forced to keep going, and i am so tired. |
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#679
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Upset and disappointed today.Upset because I was impulsive and spent too much money and disappointed cause there was something I wanted to do and it just didn`t work out.
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#680
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Someone here used the word bleak, that's a good word for where I'm at, low energy no real interest just breathing from day to day cause that's what the body does.
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Nammu …Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …... Desiderata Max Ehrmann |
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#681
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most of this week was the same as any other week (no sleep, very little to no motivation, etc)
I did have my first (and only),telephone mentoring session with a girl who also suffers with bipolar actually, it was refreshing to talk to her, someone who actually understood and got it talked for at least an hour, she's very good as well because she manages it really well and I told her that's great, maybe 1 day i'll be like you. but anyway not much else really happened this week but why would it this is my life we're talking about |
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#682
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Yes he has told me that as well about some of his patients but I am bp2 with mainly depressive episodes. I am also very sensitive to lack of light so I have to use it 9 months of the year.
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#683
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Right there with you. We must keep going ((((hugs))))
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#684
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Sleep got all messed up last night, 3 hrs, 3 very light, mostly awake hours. I think its just the process of getting used to the abilify, but I hate this feeling of sensing the physical exhaustion in joints and muscle, and knowing there is no way in heck the brain will let me rest today...
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#685
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I asked my therapist whether in her opinion my ups and downs were coming from a chemical imbalance or from several severe traumas in my life. She said a lot of my pain comes from the traumas although she in no way denigrated the chemical imbalance. I've always wondered about this. I am willing and eager to work on healing these traumas so I feel hopeful right now.
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#686
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Therapy can do wonders. ((((HUGS)))) bizi
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lamictal 2x a day haldol 2x a day cogentin 2x a day klonipin , 1mg at night, fish oil coq10 multi vit,, vit c, at noon, tumeric, caffeine Remeron at night, zyprexa, requip2-4mg |
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#687
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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
Saw my T and pdoc today. Both ere worried about me so I have been put on closer observations. Had a great, helpful chat with my T who helped me see through the fog of depression. Still, I can't think clearly, have a plan and am close yo going through with it. My T even walked me out to my Dads car, who picked me up, to make sure I didn't do s runner. This is the first time he has ever done this. He also contacted my pdoc to update him. My pdoc was equally as compassionate band explained why I am on so many meds. He promised to cut back once I'm stable. For now he has decreased Lithium (.i was toxic), stopped Ritalin and added an AD, fluoxetine- Prozac. aD have made me hypomanic before so they are going to keel a close eye on me. Right now I am on sodium Valproate 400mg, Lithium 27759mg, Abilify 30mg. Seroquel 400mg Fluoxetine 20mg and benzodiazepines. Easy too u have but I'm having no side effects except hand tremors so that's good. Each is ding a specific job.
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#688
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I'm struggling. I feel very anxious, feeling it physically and emotionally, like I'm just sick. I think im either feeling the bad type of hypo with irritability or possibly mixed. I'm very impulsive. My mind is full of ideas. Things are beginning to spin around. There's certain decisions I feel I might make based on my state of mind because I can't turn off the thoughts. Things are getting worse in a different kind of way. I keep spending money.
I ask am I just treating myself to things? But all the signs are there that I'm not well, barely functioning. Sometimes I feel I've tried everything. I just can't take it with all this. It's like a curse...I think im cycling. There were a few days of true hypo...now it's just getting worse, but it's definitely more on the manic side. |
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#689
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I still feel paranoid that people are out to get me. However, its not a constant thing, so that's good. It comes and goes. I see my pdoc Monday morning for a regular check-in, but I don't want to tell her about the paranoia because I know she will want to up the zyprexa again and I want to go DOWN. I can't stand all this down, up, down, up. I want to be DONE with it already!
In a couple hours, my ex husband and my friend are showing up (separately). My ex is picking up our youngest and my friend is here to go do fun things like eat at Texas Roadhouse and go to a hottub place. I've had a heck of a time with my apartment that last few days because there's a big crack in my bedroom ceiling- water is pooling from the roof! They are going to fix it next week. I hope they do before it breaks open! My mom will be back from Disney World today and Tuesday we are sharing our birthday presents for each other. I got her a neat book on Walt Disney- of course!
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#691
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Yup. And if I told her about the paranoia, she'd up that zyprexa so fast both our heads would spin!
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#692
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Doing Okay...
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#693
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Still sick, went to Dr Monday and she just told me to quit smoking and is sending me to pulmonary specialist, that appointment isn't until may. O haven't had a cig since Thursday and I'm still coughing my head off. Thinking about you g to convenient care, but will they just blame everything on the smoking to? I just want to feel better.
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Current Meds Lamictal 200 mg x2 Seroquel 100 mg |
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Not sure what to do with myself. Felt good this morning, so I cleaned my kitchen pretty good. Then I started to feel kind of crappy. I should probably clean more. I don't want to. But I feel like otherwise I'd lay in bed. But I have too much energy for that. Can't concentrate too well, so reading is out. Still feeling self-destructive. Lots of inner tension.
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#695
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg Vraylar 3 mg Gabapentin 300 mg Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily Mania Sept/Oct 2024 Mania (July/August 2024) Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) |
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#697
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That, that is a nice pedicure. Pardon me, I don't do introduction.
![]() I'm good by the way. This'll be for a former friend of mine, I hope she'll be around. https://forums.psychcentral.com/coff...om-quotes.html Your life vs real doctor, think about what you said to me, and a word of advice? Don't be afraid of being afraid. Bye. ETA: Back for a bit. A wise man told me that holdin' a grudge. Is like lettin' somebody just live inside of your head rent free, this is a 5'9's line, but I feel like 6'8, I let **** go quick. ![]() Me takes no instructions, I remember a former dear someone on schizo forum, a very wise young man, he,,,he's gone through a lot, a super smart guy, I'd walk into a construction site barefooted for him, if that means anything. I wonder what would C, Be. Last edited by Takeshi; Apr 08, 2017 at 05:40 PM. |
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#699
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Amanda, I'm glad you just said that. I was just looking at that post and shaking my head wandering what was wrong with ME because I just don't get it.
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#700
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It mystified me too. I even went to the link and still it made no sense... |
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