[ComfortablyNumb5]

So just like every other time I took Wellbutrin it was just to get me out of a short depression and it would ending up making me mixed after a few weeks. Well that's happening now. I just want this crap out my system! Im dysphoric, violent, screaming, which is making me use my benzo more to calm down. To the point I'm pretty much abusing them just to calm down from the anger. I spent all weekend screaming at my family and in front of children. I feel like a monster. So I called my pdoc and left a msg saying how the AD is making me insane so I'm stopping it. Then she calls back and leaves a msg saying not to discontinue it until we meet. Well that's a month away!! [trigger]... when I get mixed like this I self harm and make an attempt. Then I end up in IP. I can't go a whole month like this. So I'm taking my own dam self off Wellbutrin before I hurt myself, someone else, or drink myself to death.

Pdocs (well unless they're BP too which I have yet to see) have no idea what this feels like. I want to rip my hair out just like every other time I took Wellbutrin.

Please if anyone is going to lecture me on going against orders please save it. I'm going nuts.

[wildflowerchild25]

You know yourself best. If the med is causing you harm and it's not dangerous to stop it I say do it. You can't go a month in a mixed state. I don't think pdocs really understand how desperate a situation can be. You definitely need to just do what's best for you.

[bipolar angel]

Im not going to lecture...I had awful reaction to wellbutrin and effexor together-16yrs ago. Pdoc kept telling me,husband that i just had to get used to it,get better. I was crawling out of my skin,scared,agitated,clockwatching afraid world going to end panic attack-called md like every hour-no help.
I finally calld other family-went to ER, had give me ativan,checked myself into hospital..my choice to try get off wellbutrin while trying get new med on board.
So,no lecture...just maybe a suggestion not to just take yourself off suddenly-sometimes we crash...i know you probably dont want to go to ER or urgent care...but maybe you can-so they will call your pdoc/help to get med changed-because it will be another doc calling pdoc...just a suggestion-hang in there..

[Nammu]

Can you decrease slowly not a sudden stop?

[jacky8807]

Won't get a lecture here. I kept giving wellbutrin "time" to do it's thing...in the meantime becoming crushed with anxiety becoming speedy doing things out of character and becoming EXTREMELY suicidal all at the same time.
Landed inpatient and they ripped me right off it with no issue

[bioChE]

WB gave me hella insomnia, speedy, anxiety, panic attacks, racing heartbeat, and suicidal depression. I went off it. Takes about four days to get out of your system.

[wiretwister]

take care of yourself first .... just be careful redusing too fast ... Love .. Tigger.

[xRavenx]

Wellbutrin was like hellbutrin for me with the mixed mania and anxiety it caused. It's terrible that your pdoc left you hanging like that for a month! Is there any other doctor that can assist you with this who has an earlier opening? Sometime calling a pharmacist can also help, just to ask questions, if you need to taper so things don't get out of control. If you have to call crisis/911 or go to the hospital if nobody will help you.

However, doesn't your pdoc have anyone at all who can help, maybe another pdoc whom he/she shares office space with who can see you just for just one visit, since this is urgent? ...Unless you can call back and forcefully say that you need something earlier and see if she will work with you to squeeze you in. A good pdoc would at least attempt, or come up with another option since you are really suffering.

If all else fails, I would say discontinue it on your own since you know your body best.

Personally though, when I was in a state of mind like this, I was actually able to reach a new pdoc in the area that took me since it was a very time-sensitive matter, and my old pdoc was on vacation, unavailable to answer any calls. She took me off of it and prescribed different meds to get me out of the dangerous state of mind I was in. I was lucky to find her easily by simply calling the number and setting up appointment.

[hopeless2015]

You've had a he'll of time with meds RX, I'm so sorry!! Be careful and I hope they can find something that works better for you. HUGS!

WB made me angry, restless, super anxious, sped up, couldn't sleep, it was horrible. I don't blame you. Hugs.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Thanks everyone. I'm glad this isn't just all in my head! My pdoc office is crazy busy and I can't get in sooner. I also just started lamictal which is doing good so I'm hoping it will bridge the gap of quitting the Wellbutrin. I couldn't take anymore. I would go about my day shaking like mad. I couldn't even hand over money at the store. How embarrassing! I don't know what I'm going to tell my pdoc next visit. To be honest I'm just going to say I'm still taking it but want to stop. My pdoc gets mad when I take things into my own hands but I know myself and I know where this could lead me. No thanks! I have no desire for IP right now.

[Alokin]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Thanks everyone. I'm glad this isn't just all in my head! My pdoc office is crazy busy and I can't get in sooner. I also just started lamictal which is doing good so I'm hoping it will bridge the gap of quitting the Wellbutrin. I couldn't take anymore. I would go about my day shaking like mad. I couldn't even hand over money at the store. How embarrassing! I don't know what I'm going to tell my pdoc next visit. To be honest I'm just going to say I'm still taking it but want to stop. My pdoc gets mad when I take things into my own hands but I know myself and I know where this could lead me. No thanks! I have no desire for IP right now.

With what you described I am super surprised your doc did not instruct you how to get off it. I had a similar reaction to abilify, it took me months to recover, your symptoms are pretty seriously affecting your life negatively.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

Thanks everyone. I'm glad this isn't just all in my head! My pdoc office is crazy busy and I can't get in sooner. I also just started lamictal which is doing good so I'm hoping it will bridge the gap of quitting the Wellbutrin. I couldn't take anymore. I would go about my day shaking like mad. I couldn't even hand over money at the store. How embarrassing! I don't know what I'm going to tell my pdoc next visit. To be honest I'm just going to say I'm still taking it but want to stop. My pdoc gets mad when I take things into my own hands but I know myself and I know where this could lead me. No thanks! I have no desire for IP right now.

May I say I was very indignant (I'm being nice here) at your pdoc? Leave you on it until you see him/her in a month's time when you were suffering so badly?!? Utterly ridiculous. I'm glad you're taking care of you. Good luck and best wishes.

[BipolaRNurse]

"Hellbutrin" as another poster called it, made me manic to the point of psychosis. I was full of rage and had angry outbursts that made no sense, as well as severe paranoia. It was a miserable experience and I took myself off of it, which turned me into a weepy hot mess but that was better than feeling like I could kill somebody. I wasn't seeing a pdoc at the time, but I got a referral to one because my primary care provider believed I had something more serious than he could handle. He was right.

[Misssy2]

rx..I have read some of your posts in the past and you sound so much like me.
They can not stabilize me with medication either and they get frustrated with me because I complain about every medication I am given except the Ativan.

Of course Ativan works on the same brain receptors as alcohol and that is why it works for me...and that is WHY they want to take me off of it and give me all this other crap that never works instead.

I feel your pain is all I can say...its very frustrating..debilitating...and I believe that is where MY anger comes from.

[bioChE]

Assuming you're going off the WB, I wouldn't lie to your psychiatrist about it. If you go off and your symptoms resolve, tell them that. If they can't help you over the phone, they're not doing their job. If it keeps you out of IP, then you made the right decision.

Also, I wouldn't play with fire by restarting WB at some point in the future. My recent experience with the stuff makes me not want to touch it with a ten-foot pole.

[Leia78]

I went from 150mg of Wellbutrin XL to ZERO and no withdrawal symptoms except a little fatigue. I don't know what formulation you're taking. However, if you do experience any symptoms, it does take about 4 days for Wellbutrin to clear your body. So, it may take 4 days for your annoying symptoms caused by Wellbutrin to get back to normal, or you may not experience any withdrawal until after 4 days have passed. I hope you feel better!!!

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Years ago I was on 150 XL for awhile. And now that I look back... I was drinking and partying pretty heavily. Pretty much blacking out on a nightly basis. I engaged on some skanky and dangerous behaviors too. Like racing my convertible at 6am wasted on a busy road how I'm still alive I don't know. But I'm wondering if the Wellbutrin made me hypo/manic and I was self medicating the whole time. I'm still upset with pdoc. I told her I'm in a dangerous mind frame and she tells me to stay on it?! Wtf. What if I did something life threatening? Hope she'd feel bad. K now I'm just rambling. Thanks everyone for the support and if anyone else has had experiences with this then please continue to share.

[CherryGlazer]

Hey, I'm on you're side. Anti-depressants more often than not spark hellfire in those with BP. There's quite a bit of research on it being really risky to go on one if you have BP, so its pretty questionable if your pdoc hasn't really been monitoring it closely.

I've had a pdoc like yours and I'm not sorry for switching to a new one, i just wish I had done it sooner. So cuz of that I'd really recommend switching docs. Sounds like they don't take you seriously and that's not okay.

Also, I totally support you and it's not your fault for being in the position you're in, antidepressants, like I've said before, in bipolar should be monitored VERY closely.

[bizi]

I think that you are correct in discontinueing this. Maybe let them know thsat you stopped.so it is in your record. let them know the exact date.
bizi

[Sad Mermaid]

Wellbutrin is notorious for causing mania. You are on the right track stopping it.

[bioChE]

RX, did you stop it?