[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am just starting to come out of a chemo fog. I inject with low-dose chemo every Friday night. It is for treating autoimmune illness. Saturdays are spent in a fog and sleeping.

It seems many of us on this board deal with chronic illnesses, in addition to bipolar diagnoses.

Hoping for a breakthrough in the depression. Depression makes it so much more difficult to manage other health conditions. The other chronic health issues contribute to depression.

I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend.

WC

Sorry to hear about your struggles. Hang in there as best you can.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am just starting to come out of a chemo fog. I inject with low-dose chemo every Friday night. It is for treating autoimmune illness. Saturdays are spent in a fog and sleeping.

It seems many of us on this board deal with chronic illnesses, in addition to bipolar diagnoses.

Hoping for a breakthrough in the depression. Depression makes it so much more difficult to manage other health conditions. The other chronic health issues contribute to depression.

I hope everyone is enjoying the weekend.

WC

I'm sorry you have to go through that. It sounds so very difficult and makes me admire you more.

I know this sounds strange but there was one day I was going through a med change; coming off one and going on another simultaneously. I had one full day of a totally clear (old me) mind as if the illness didn't exist. It was so clear from this vantage point that we're not playing on a level playing field and that handling life's other challenges would be so much easier to deal with. Life isn't fair I know but this just seems cruel.

I wrote a letter from the "well" me to the future "sick" me and enjoyed having myself back for that one day. I don't think we can see on a daily basis how deep and pervasive that cloud really is. I hope one day something comes out to combat it. Kind of like polio long ago.

Hope you're having a good weekend.

[vjdragonfly]

Feeling better today. I actually tackled the room I wanted to rearrange for some time now. I hope this is a start to things looking up. I'm tired of this depression.

[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Not having a very good day. Can't seem to get off the couch and make myself do anything. Feeling pretty exhausted and just want to give up.

(((Scatterbrained)))
I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Take it easy and be gentle with yourself. I know it is hard to get through but keep on going.

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok, still haven't done much around the house but I get tomorrow off for the holiday so I have an extra day. Otherwise it's been an uneventful weekend, enjoying the time off work.

[Sunflower123]

Feeling really low right now. There are some things in my life that I try to stay upbeat and positive about but they sometimes bring my spirits down. No SI...just really down and feel hopeless.

[gina_re]

Anxiety. It is back. Again.

[Nammu]

Daughter came over today, she's enjoying her eighth month of pregnancy. Her hubby and son went on a Memorial Day camp out and she's home enjoying long baths and take out.

[Unrigged64072835]

Kept busy today with church, working on pictures, and some shopping. Mood was okay, although anxiety tried to creep in when I was home. I wonder if part of it is this house?

[Moose72]

My daughter (who had the party last weekend) just went on a movie date with a boy her age. I don't know him so now I'm worrying about all sorts of bad things that could happen!!!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by gina_re

Anxiety. It is back. Again.

Ditto. Ugh.

[Wander]

After an increase in fluoxetine (Prozac) I am starting to feel better, more motivated and talkative. Stable. This is such a relief.

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by gina_re

Anxiety. It is back. Again.

Sorry to hear that. Hope you get some relief soon.

Good to see you, JustJace2u!

Today is… weird. I'm feeling anxious and off. Debating if it is a med thing or randomness.

This morning I did a med change thing. I wasn't paying attention and ran out of my Wellbutrin XL. I have a bunch of the SR ones left over from before. Sooo, I thought I'd just sub them in to tide me over the holiday weekend. Yup, remembered to take just 1. And that was hours ago. But I tried eating (if I delay too much, low blood sugar can make me panicky), but no relief.

Then tried 1/4 xanax. Nada. Another 1/4. Still waiting… Which is why I wonder if it might be going back to the ol' SRs(??) Which of course has me wondering if maybe I shouldn't take that second one with my pm meds. But then that is from 300 mg to none for a couple of days.

To take or not to take. Sheesh, I just don't know. Not sure how long it would be till possible withdrawal symptoms. Which would be worse? Sigh. I need to pay better attention...

[bizi]

sometimes the pharmacy can put you on an auto fill.
bizi

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Ditto. Ugh.

[Standup2me]

Hubby was being a little baby today getting all p'offed about home shopping. He changes his mind from one minute to the other and then gets all ticked off at me...no I want a new home, but not too new...close to transit, but in a quiet area, a big yard, but not too big, a deck, but not a big one....ARGH Just MAKE UP YOUR MIND

[jacky8807]

feeling mother's guilt. I worked last night and although I tried to go without sleep to do something with my 10 year old I just couldn't manage it
Friday and Saturday he had big sleepovers with a bunch of boys but he is a kid who likes and needs to stay busy
this is when I hate being a single mom. he basically spent the day on video games.
I hate guilt. help me get rid of it!

[Moose72]

Jacky don't feel guilty. I'm a single mom too. We do our best!

[Lifeischallenging]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Three hours?!! That's just crazy! How are your moods? Could he be wanting you to keep coming back and to see that counsellor because he thinks you are not well?

My moods are fine for the most part. Its mainly the lithium that keeps them in check. I do need to call on one of these therapist as well. I told him everything is fine. Its the fact that I have to sit there waiting is insanely boring. My sleep is great. He even ask me about my mood every time I go in and its always the same answer. Fine. He even told me I am doing fine on my current dose of lithium. I just don't understand why I can't get refills and have to go back in 6 months.

[Moose72]

My Pdoc only gives out limited refills too.

Originally Posted by jacky8807

feeling mother's guilt. I worked last night and although I tried to go without sleep to do something with my 10 year old I just couldn't manage it
Friday and Saturday he had big sleepovers with a bunch of boys but he is a kid who likes and needs to stay busy
this is when I hate being a single mom. he basically spent the day on video games.
I hate guilt. help me get rid of it!

Sorry that happened.

I loved when my parents were too tired to do anything. It meant I could play Pokémon until 1am while they'd be passed out on the couch. It was great because it gave me the chance to level up my Pokémons so that I could beat all of my friends the next day. I was queen of 1st Grade.

But my point is, sometimes it doesn't hurt the kid as much as you might think. If it happens once in a while (i.e., not everyday), the kid might not mind it. I know my parents felt guilty for not doing anything, but there were some things I "had" to do (e.g., play my pokemons, watch Pokémon tv episodes, etc..). You know, "priorities"!

When I was a kid we entertained ourselves until the street lights came on. Now parents must schedule every minutes or suffer in guilt and agony. Be kind to yourself Jacky, kids are resilient.

I'm still battling my monthly. It's horrible. Sleeping non stop, sweating, feverish and in pain. And the good news is, I get to do this all over again next month. Uggg. My doctors are working to get me some relief on this so hopefully next month that will be in place. I'm better than I was on birth control though....I was actively suicidal on that and at least now it's just ruminating thoughts of euthanasia. Hopefully it won't come to that and they can fix this.

Sending positive thoughts to everyone. I'm not religious but I watched a movie called The Shack and was very moved by it. It's a Christian movie but I think most people, Christian or not could get something from it. Very sad, beautiful, uplifting and moving.

[jacky8807]

THANK YOU GUYS!

seriously made me feel better. Kids use to entertain themselves a lot more so true!! and you guys are right I'm sure this isn't going to bring him to therapy lol Parenting gives me so much anxiety! Thank you again for your thoughts on it everyone

[Sunflower123]

Feeling pretty good. Looking forward to two weeks in Florida which isn't usually the case. Sun, sand, surf and pina coladas might just be what I need. Slept 3 hours last night. Might be going too high but not as high as hypomania. Just a pleasant normal. Not telling pdoc Wednesday (although many will disagree).

Hope everyone is doing ok and has a good day.