[Daonnachd]

Hey, all. I want to say I'm doing better, but I'm not. I am lucky in that my friend said he would take the day off work to drive me to the hospital for ECT. That's a relief. He's a great friend.

[lola0987]

First day of new job where they let me go off on my own. I liked it a lot. Excited for BP group tomorrow. Ready to meet people like us.

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Hey, all. I want to say I'm doing better, but I'm not. I am lucky in that my friend said he would take the day off work to drive me to the hospital for ECT. That's a relief. He's a great friend.

Great friends are extra special, I'm glad you have him

[VerMOZZica]

I didn`t get much done today.First of all I woke up really late.Then I ate something and went back to bed.Got up for lunch and then watched tv for a little while.In the afternoon I did a little laundry.Right now I feel tired and drained even though I didn`t do much today.I guess it`s just one of those days.

[Wander]

Sorry again for hardly posting on peoples threads. I do read, and I do care.

I am 10 days away from my final exam for the semester and should say I am studying furiously but I am not. Since my last episode I have been really tired and easily distracted. Some study has been accomplished but I need to knuckle down now. Staying at my parents place while I am away. It is like a mini holiday as they have a great house and awesome stereo system. For the last 10 days I have been stable and it is wonderful. Well, off to study I go. Once I have finished my exam I will post more.

Sending hugs to all who need them.

i'm so excited to see all the rain outside my window.

the noise is makes as it falls is lovely- such a relaxing sound

and that's exactly what i'm doing now.

posting on PC, and listening to the rain- no music, no other sounds, just the rain and me typing

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wander

Sorry again for hardly posting on peoples threads. I do read, and I do care.

I am 10 days away from my final exam for the semester and should say I am studying furiously but I am not. Since my last episode I have been really tired and easily distracted. Some study has been accomplished but I need to knuckle down now. Staying at my parents place while I am away. It is like a mini holiday as they have a great house and awesome stereo system. For the last 10 days I have been stable and it is wonderful. Well, off to study I go. Once I have finished my exam I will post more.

Sending hugs to all who need them.

Good luck with your finals.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by vertigo

Hey, all. I want to say I'm doing better, but I'm not. I am lucky in that my friend said he would take the day off work to drive me to the hospital for ECT. That's a relief. He's a great friend.

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I'm really glad you're going to be able to get your ECT treatment. A good friend is priceless. I hope you start feeling better soon. Best wishes.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by gina_re

Well I wasted my day. But since I don't really have anything else to do with my days now, I guess not really since I can make up for lost time tomorrow. I wanted to at least get some laundry done. However, I did clean up around the kitchen so I did at least get something done. I've pretty much been laying on the couch all day. I was expecting my mom and nephews to stop by but communication between my mom, my sister, and myself got crossed and nobody came (well I told my mom nevermind after it was all said and done).
Not sure if I can accurately notice if my med change is working, but I did up it to 1mg as advised. I want to say yes because I dug up some motivation to clean today. But so overly cautious that I'm leaning on the side of pessimism. Luckily I have an appointment with my T this week and I can hopefully figure this all out.

I read this post repeatedly before submitting, and it still sounds awkward. Hopefully it makes some sense because my communication skills seem to be lacking these days.

The post doesn't sound awkward. Your tone sounds better from previous posts. That's a good sign. I hope the med change does work. Best wishes.

[bizi]

hips not bothering me as badly today, maybe the pillow between my legs last night helped.
My mood is steady this morning.
bizi

[hopeless2015]

Doing ok today. It was a struggle to get up when alarm went off but I just did it today and I'm fine. I really struggle with mornings and I didn't want to stay in bed all day. I'm missing too much work and I don't want to blow through my fmla time. I had a good weekend, spent time outside in the sunshine which always makes me feel good. I even cleaned the bathroom and did up all the dishes. Now I need to get back to work and stay productive today lol.

[Nammu]

Went to the doc today( here my GP is an internist and he's my pdoc as well) all blood work came back super, I'm doing fine, lost 5 lbs....still wants me to join the y for the pool because of my arthritis and get more excercising done but in the water. He mentioned in kind of a relieved way that he hasn't seen me unstable! . I told him the laudta was a miracle drug with for me the unfortunate side effect of weight gain. He looked it up and agreed. Don't see him for six months. I really like this doc and trust him. The down side is that before I see him I need to get a colonoscopy, a Mamogram and a hearing test. I told him I'm fine without but he quoted studies of statistics for people my age and I acquiescenced.

[liveforsummer]

Left work early, couldn't get down to it and focus.

In a reasonable stable mood today, though its when I'm in an even state I wonder if the doc got the diagnosis wrong. I question everything about the last 6 months. Was it real, did it happen, did I make it all up...hence the confusion.

Good luck to everyone in exams, happy studying and most definitely hugs to all in need

[Daonnachd]

I have appointments with both my T and my pdoc today. It'll be difficult to tell the whole truth about what's going on. ... I guess my T already has a good idea. She wouldn't have insisted on meeting otherwise. I hate to show myself this messed up to her. (My communication with her on Friday was brief and vague.) Is this too disjointed? I hope not.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by vertigo

I have appointments with both my T and my pdoc today. It'll be difficult to tell the whole truth about what's going on. ... I guess my T already has a good idea. She wouldn't have insisted on meeting otherwise. I hate to show myself this messed up to her. (My communication with her on Friday was brief and vague.) Is this too disjointed? I hope not.

Its not disjointed at all. I hope your appointments go well.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by vertigo

I have appointments with both my T and my pdoc today. It'll be difficult to tell the whole truth about what's going on. ... I guess my T already has a good idea. She wouldn't have insisted on meeting otherwise. I hate to show myself this messed up to her. (My communication with her on Friday was brief and vague.) Is this too disjointed? I hope not.

Your post is fine!
I hope your appts are helpful.

WC

[bioChE]

I'm not sure where I'm at today. I feel caught between depression and normalcy. Work has me stressed beyond belief; I've got so much to do and not enough time to do it.

The weekend was relaxing, I spent most of it at home with the family. Now I find myself feeling guilty that I didn't do enough with the kids and like I'm not being a very good father.

The clock is ticking and 5 can't come soon enough. I hope this isn't headed toward another depressed episode like I had last week.

In all, I just feel caught between a rock and a hard place. I'm trying to be motivated to get work done, but I'm doing it so slowly that it seems it's all piling up. If any of you pray, I'd appreciate your thoughts and prayers as I go through whatever this is.

I'm starting to think I need to start seeing a therapist.

[liveforsummer]

Originally Posted by bioChE

I'm not sure where I'm at today. I feel caught between depression and normalcy. Work has me stressed beyond belief; I've got so much to do and not enough time to do it.

The weekend was relaxing, I spent most of it at home with the family. Now I find myself feeling guilty that I didn't do enough with the kids and like I'm not being a very good father.

The clock is ticking and 5 can't come soon enough. I hope this isn't headed toward another depressed episode like I had last week.

In all, I just feel caught between a rock and a hard place. I'm trying to be motivated to get work done, but I'm doing it so slowly that it seems it's all piling up. If any of you pray, I'd appreciate your thoughts and prayers as I go through whatever this is.

I'm starting to think I need to start seeing a therapist.

I'm going to T for first time ever in a couple week and looking forward to it and getting answers. Saying a prayer for you and hope you get through the week ok.

[Sunflower123]

I apologize if my previous post offended or scared anybody. Sincerely sorry. I should have put a trigger warning on it. I'm just so used to surfing the SI waves and being honest in talking about it that I forget it might shock people. It only just dawned on me. Again, I sincerely apologize. I've deleted that post now.

[Victoria'smom]

Well everything doesn't feel fake today! I'm questioning whether I have a mood disorder or a psychotic disorder. I don't like my temp pdoc. I have 5 days of meds left before I'm out of meds. Hopefully it gets straightened out. I took a shower and didn't get paranoid.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

Well everything doesn't feel fake today! I'm questioning whether I have a mood disorder or a psychotic disorder. I don't like my temp pdoc. I have 5 days of meds left before I'm out of meds. Hopefully it gets straightened out. I took a shower and didn't get paranoid.

My pdoc leaves me with no meds until right before I see her, too, and sometimes that means she has to call more in before my appointment.

[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I apologize if my previous post offended or scared anybody. Sincerely sorry. I should have put a trigger warning on it. I'm just so used to surfing the SI waves and being honest in talking about it that I forget it might shock people. It only just dawned on me. Again, I sincerely apologize. I've deleted that post now.

I did not see the post you are talking about, but I hope all is well. Totally understand about always surfing the SI waves. Speaking of waves, I hope you are enjoying Florida!

[Unrigged64072835]

Cut my T session short when I noticed my anniversary ring was missing. We spent most of the day backtracking to find it, but nada. I should be really upset but I'm more numb instead because of the meds. It's weird. I have a feeling somebody picked it up. My husband insisted on replacing it right away, so now we're going to be short for the month financially. This really sucks.

Making dinner now. Kids are having salmon so we're having steak. Tomorrow I'll probably cook the chicken since husband will be in school. I still have to do my homework. I wrote a poem to turn in.

At least I got my labs done so my regular doc can go over them next week.

[Moose72]

Kids home- cooking dinner for themselves: french fries and fried chicken. (FWB wants me to come over but I don't see that happening. Maybe if the kids weren't here.) I'm in my pajamas already. Gotta do my pills tomorrow. Oh joy!

[scatterbrained04]

I survived today. Like a boss. The morning was rough at work (I survived by bathroom trips every hour or so). Afternoon was much better. No side effects from last night's increased dose of Latuda. Yay! Hope it continues.