[Moose72]

Originally Posted by vertigo

The thing is, I've got too much going in my head; I can't collect my thoughts to write.

I don't want to monopolize the thread anymore. You can ignore me. Don't worry, nothing will happen quickly.

I find that once I start typing, the ideas flow. You can edit, too. Its the best time to write when a lot is in your head!

You're not monopolizing the thread, either.

[Wild Coyote]

We all care about you and this is a support forum, so use as much of this thread as you need.


WC

[Sunflower123]

Vertigo.....I just wanted to check in and let you know I'm thinking of you. I hope you start feeling better soon. I apologize for typos....sat on my reading glasses. Thinking of you....

[bizi]

vertigo, am hoping you get some much needed sleep soon. Yes type up a note to your therapist.It will help or maybe just free association write/journal just for your sake.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Sunflower123]

I've noticed as I've gotten older that I've turned into Mr.Magoo. I'm about as blind as a myopic bat. If I don't have glasses on I can't tell my mom from my niece from my brother. The night driving is getting so much fun to. One morning I was driving M to her bus stop a few years back and what I swore was a road was really a rather large ditch. Was I embarrassed!! Just thinking about it because I sat on my reading glasses and at my age....that's a loss.

I hope everyone is ok and has a peaceful day.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I've noticed as I've gotten older that I've turned into Mr.Magoo. I'm about as blind as a myopic bat. If I don't have glasses on I can't tell my mom from my niece from my brother. The night driving is getting so much fun to. One morning I was driving M to her bus stop a few years back and what I swore was a road was really a rather large ditch. Was I embarrassed!! Just thinking about it because I sat on my reading glasses and at my age....that's a loss.

I hope everyone is ok and has a peaceful day.

Jennifer, Are you starting your trip today as planned?
If so, I wish you safe traveling! Also, I hope you enjoy your time in Florida!
If you don't check in here sometime, I'll totally understand; yet, I'll miss ya!

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Jennifer, Are you starting your trip today as planned?
If so, I wish you safe traveling! Also, I hope you enjoy your time in Florida!
If you don't check in here sometime, I'll totally understand; yet, I'll miss ya!

WC

I am. I just overslept so I'm getting a late start. I wanted to check in on one of the posters because I was worried. Thank you...I'm excited. I'll probably not be able to stop from checking in because I really care. I hope you're doing ok today. Best wishes.

[Moose72]

At the grage sale. Haven't found anything yet- except old friends! Going back out when N3 gets here.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

At the grage sale. Haven't found anything yet- except old friends! Going back out when N3 gets here.

Old friends are good finds!

WC

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Old friends are good finds!

WC

Yeah that's all I found though. I didn't buy anything. N3, however, found a soldering iron! He'd bought one from Radio Shack that blew up when he plugged it in, a few months ago. So this new one is more solid and actually works! I wish I'd found something to buy though. A good friend of mine texted me that he made it to the garage sale and he found a grandfather clock and it was what he's always wanted! Woohoo! We did get the brats and hotdogs and a coke from our usual guy up the street this year again for lunch. That's always fun. The pop was in coolers filled with melted ice which was, well... ice cold! The drinks were, too!

[fishin fool]

I'm still alive and well
I'm still alive and well
Every now and then I know it's kinda hard to tell
but I'm still alive and well.

[Moose72]

Hey fishin fool!

[lola0987]

Counting the days till first group meeting. Can't wait to be able to talk to people face to face who struggle like me. Have to work a few days with old stressful job. Have a lot of anxiety about it. Wish I knew how to say no. But at least it's only few days.

[Unrigged64072835]

Another quiet day. Sent in my poem to the editor of the church magazine. Hope it gets through. Did a lot of reading and tried to take a nap to get past the anxiety. Mood was okay. Dinner was good and dessert even better. Looking forward to bed.

Double-booked! My T somehow managed to schedule two different people for the same time this morning, so I volunteered to be the one to leave without therapy. He felt bad about it. I didn't catch a glimpse of the patient that ganked my appointment, but had it come to a competition of pathologies, I would have ended up with the slot.

We may get more work next week, our biggest contract so far this year. It's easier to do business when you don't need it. My contact with our clientele is strictly limited to phone and email; the unexpected appearance of a wild-eyed cracker (out here we're called 'haoles', but I've always preferred 'cracker') with unabomber grooming could undermine a contract. Our clientele is both wealthy and racist, a dangerous combination.

Evidence has surfaced on the web of a short story that I wrote for a horror magazine 18 years ago. It would give my life meaning to write again, but nothing that takes shape in my head carries any momentum through depression and meds.

Everybody hang in there; there is no cure, but

.

[bizi]

My 2 best girl friends are going thru divorces. I asked my husband if we were ok and he said yes. thank goddess!
bizi

[lola0987]

Originally Posted by bizi

My 2 best girl friends are going thru divorces. I asked my husband if we were ok and he said yes. thank goddess!
bizi

I do the same thing haha when everyone is breaking up around us. Glad I'm not alone.

[jacky8807]

I'm feeling sad today. saw my uncle, my grandmother's brother. he was actually born in a mental hospital that my great grandmother was in and out of until finally never coming out and dying there. he opened up to me how he spent most of his life suicidal. how he strugstruggled and how he was put down for it in the family.

their father wouldn't even talk about it when she would go in and not come back for months and months. it was like it wasn't happening.

makes me sad for my uncle my family the generations of hiding and being ashamed.
it left me feeling wounded

[Cocosurviving]

My day was decent. I went to the zoo with my two daughters. My older daughter invited us to her company picnic. She bought along one of her friends. I don't like the friend she parties too much. The whole time at the zoo the friend kept cussing. The food was good. Later we went to a craft store to pick up a few things. My older daughter paints.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

I'm feeling sad today. saw my uncle, my grandmother's brother. he was actually born in a mental hospital that my great grandmother was in and out of until finally never coming out and dying there. he opened up to me how he spent most of his life suicidal. how he strugstruggled and how he was put down for it in the family.

their father wouldn't even talk about it when she would go in and not come back for months and months. it was like it wasn't happening.

makes me sad for my uncle my family the generations of hiding and being ashamed.
it left me feeling wounded

(((((( jacky ))))))

My family also buries the truth. When asked if there's any family history of depression, they say "no." They know better.

I'm sorry, jacky.


WC

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

I'm feeling sad today. saw my uncle, my grandmother's brother. he was actually born in a mental hospital that my great grandmother was in and out of until finally never coming out and dying there. he opened up to me how he spent most of his life suicidal. how he strugstruggled and how he was put down for it in the family.

their father wouldn't even talk about it when she would go in and not come back for months and months. it was like it wasn't happening.

makes me sad for my uncle my family the generations of hiding and being ashamed.
it left me feeling wounded

My family might admit that they have a bipolar member of the family (me), but they would never admit that any of the rest of them have any issues. And none of them are diagnosed, so in a way, they're right! But I know better. I've seen things that show that they definitely have issues. They don't have to have been admitted to have mental issues.

[scatterbrained04]

Had a nice visit with my dad yesterday. He taught my son how to do some cooking on the grill. Saw pdoc and increased my Latuda. Hoping it doesn't cause irritability like I had when I first started it. Feeling a little overwhelmed by all I need to do today. Anxious about my upcoming work week.

[bizi]

There is mental illness in my family history. My brother commit ed suicide and I believe he was BP2, I brought this up to my mother one time and she would not speak to me for a very long time. geesh!
bizi

yesterday I got to speak to tara

she's well, just getting a little impatient with her leg recovery

rebooked that important phonecall I was meant to have last week for thursday at 2 PM (does anyone want to actually remind me on the day?. lol)

spent the night last night watching touched by an angel

realised I still had the dvd of all 9 seasons, and it was great to get it out again and watch it (I forgot how sweet that programme is!)

today I am making home made batters with my roast dinner (see I'd just usually cook the frozen ones, but I didn't order any on wednesday, so)

I don't like my cooking at the best of times, so guess i'm not really looking forward to them, but it's giving me something to distract me from the hot weather outside (and you all know my mood struggles in hotter weather)

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bizi

There is mental illness in my family history. My brother commit ed suicide and I believe he was BP2, I brought this up to my mother one time and she would not speak to me for a very long time. geesh!
bizi

It's sad to begin with and even sadder it cannot be discussed.
My father's suicide cannot be discussed, either.

(((((( bizi ))))))


WC