[scatterbrained04]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Feeling pretty good. Looking forward to two weeks in Florida which isn't usually the case. Sun, sand, surf and pina coladas might just be what I need. Slept 3 hours last night. Might be going too high but not as high as hypomania. Just a pleasant normal. Not telling pdoc Wednesday (although many will disagree).

Hope everyone is doing ok and has a good day.

Florida sounds fabulous. Hope you have a great time!! Please do tell your pdoc if you continue to sleep poorly.

yesterday I watched the movie, a series of unfortunate events (i'm reading the book series, so I thought why not?)

sadly, the movie was actually really poor, and I turned it off about 20 minits before the end (it did have jim carey in it though, and he's a good actor. makes me laugh)

didn't really do much else last night. had some roast bief, which was less than average, and played a few games online.

sleep didn't happen for me at all yesterday (though I suppose that is to be expected)

now 10 A.M in the morning on bank holiday monday, and i'm binging on after eight mints.

[halus1]

Mood has been good since I started the meds again. An old friend of mine is down from Sydney so I've been very busy taking him around Melbourne. It's been great to have someone with me that I can laugh so much with. Haven't had that for ages.

Do have a sore throat though, but I think I'll survive.

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Feeling pretty good. Looking forward to two weeks in Florida which isn't usually the case. Sun, sand, surf and pina coladas might just be what I need. Slept 3 hours last night. Might be going too high but not as high as hypomania. Just a pleasant normal. Not telling pdoc Wednesday (although many will disagree).

Hope everyone is doing ok and has a good day.

Couple weeks with sun and surf sound like a dream to me right now. Hope you have a great time!!

[Moose72]

Just woke up. Enjoying reading everybody's posts.

I agree that back in my day kids were free to roam - at least the neighborhood.

[scatterbrained04]

Hoping I'm not getting mixed again. Been feeling kind of energetic and restless this morning. Mind won't shut up. Been feeling like my pdoc is out to hurt not help me. Deep down I know that not to be true, but the feeling is definitely there. Guess it could just be anxiety. Absolutely dreading family cookout later.

[bizi]

good morning. Happy memorial day.
Mom used to decorate the graves today but I don't think she does that anymore.
I am working, will try to honor the military today some how.
Bizi
I am a Veteran, served in the air force and air national guard in the 80's and 90's. Never served during war time, staioned in alaska for a couple of years, but mostly served my time in Indiana.

Any way
have a good day.
Freedom is not free.

[Faltering]

I had a nice weekend spending time with my family. Yesterday my sister and I were walking on a trail in the woods when it started pouring. We had fun despite being drenched, muddy, and cold. Later my family and I went out to eat and we had a good time. They always make me laugh. Now I'm back home ready to relax and then get some work done. I need to start applying for jobs as well, though it's scary. I'm feeling good overall.

[Moose72]

Listening to a cathedral choir made up of girls ages 8-18- The Girl's Choir of St. Paul's Catherdral Buffalo, New York. They are taught like a boys' choir, but have a rounder, fuller sound because of the older girls. The piece is "Tantum ego" by Michael Sitton.

We are going to my mom's this afternoon for hamburgers, potato salad, baked beans and apple pie. I'd like a nap before that, but I'm waiting for N2 to get home. She annoys me sometimes! The whole day has been about her and what SHE'S doing. GRRR....

I'm trying to listen to my old CDs. I should start reading my old books. I did read one of them. They're just staring at me while I type on the computer. . . . . . . . .

[hopeless2015]

Sat out on my patio and had my coffee this morning, it's really beautiful out, so peaceful. Feeling good today. Nothing planned. Really should do some cleaning.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Hoping I'm not getting mixed again. Been feeling kind of energetic and restless this morning. Mind won't shut up. Been feeling like my pdoc is out to hurt not help me. Deep down I know that not to be true, but the feeling is definitely there. Guess it could just be anxiety. Absolutely dreading family cookout later.

I hope you start feeling better soon and make it through the cookout. Thinking of you.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry guys and girls, I just seem to have been all over the place the past few days: up and down and normal then up and down. I was really up at 4:00 this morning and now I'm stressed about getting ready for Florida.

Did just save my daughter's life. She choked on a carrot and was turning red then blue. I did the Heimlich maneuver and it came up. Scared us both but she's ok. I learned that from watching Ms.Doubtfire.

Hope everybody is having a nice Memorial Day.

[bioChE]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'm sorry guys and girls, I just seem to have been all over the place the past few days: up and down and normal then up and down. I was really up at 4:00 this morning and now I'm stressed about getting ready for Florida.


Did just save my daughter's life. She choked on a carrot and was turning red then blue. I did the Heimlich maneuver and it came up. Scared us both but she's ok. I learned that from watching Ms.Doubtfire.


Hope everybody is having a nice Memorial Day.

Dang, that's no small feat! Good on you for saving your daughter.

No need to apologize for your mood going up and down, that's what we do as BP.

My day has been going OK. Had a busy weekend with events on Saturday and a BBQ at friends' house yesterday. Today has been mellow at home.

[Unrigged64072835]

Good job, Jennifer! I had to do that on my ex-fiance once when he choked on a piece of steak. He chewed me out later and bought another 12-pack of beer. Hopefully your daughter was more appreciative!

Today was okay. I spent more money than I should have, but we only have two more days until money comes in. We've got enough food so we won't starve.

Turned in my second poem for class and worked on my photos from last week for a little bit. Still having anxiety, so I laid down for a couple of hours. Husband is grilling burgers tonight, so that's good.

My monthly tormentor is easing up until its return in a few short weeks. My head is coming above water a bit. Doing better and grateful.

[bizi]

exercises done! practicing on my banjo ukulele....
bizi

[scatterbrained04]

Starting today, I have to get adjusted to a new schedule. Lots of driving, longer hours in the office, and dealing with my son's day camp. Plus an added financial burden. Normally I do ok with the change, but normally I'm not in an episode. It's really stressing me out just thinking about right now.

[Moose72]

N3 took his zzzquil as planned last night and went to bed relatively early. He got up on time and made the bus!!!! A miracle! I hope he can keep it up!

I also signed him up for summer school.

So today I am closing up any social media accounts that I still have floating around that I either never got around to deleting or forgot that I had. I'm also closing down email addresses that are old and shouldn't be used because they are nothing but spam collection boxes for pornography and payday loans. Then I'm going to change all of my passwords to something that is simple and consistent. I will give that list to my wife and only change passwords if we have discussed the situation previously and it's a matter of security. I am no longer going to use a password manager which requires an extra program on my phone and my computer.

I believe I am also going to try and give up the internet for a while. This will mean no longer posting in these forums but also a moratorium on searching for a new job. I am tried of trying to get a new job and coming up short. The stress that I continue to put on myself to secure better pay and a more comfortable working environment is not working out. Maybe I'm here for a reason. Maybe I should just be happy I'm employed during a period where other companies or departments do not believe I am employable. I searched my username on Google and results are pointing to this site. Anyone that knows me realizes that I have, off and on, used this screen name. I tend to reveal too much about my personal life on forums so maybe this is for the best. I also don't want to write something on here that I will later regret, such as a complain about my wife regardless of the validity of said comments or observations.

In recent weeks, there have been some days I have awoken and felt like things would be different. Perhaps at those times there was a chance my day would be better, opportunities would present themselves and I would seize them. But now I realize this just isn't in the cards for me. The universe - I can't say I honestly believe in God right now - has it in for me. My life truly does even out over time. Maybe in the future I'll be in a better position to apply for a new job. Maybe then I will need to apply for a new job.

I am not looking for attention, pity, sympathy, empathy, or even apathy. I am just tired to trying and not getting anywhere. So I'm going to scale back on things and do the bare minimum. Enough not to get in trouble and enough not to exhaust myself physically or emotionally.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by neodk

So today I am closing up any social media accounts that I still have floating around that I either never got around to deleting or forgot that I had.
I believe I am also going to try and give up the internet for a while. This will mean no longer posting in these forums but also a moratorium on searching for a new job.

Sad to hear.

[zzzsmokeyzzz]

Hugs To All

[Sunflower123]

[QUOTE=neodk;5671845]So today I am closing up any social media accounts that I still have floating around that I either never got around to deleting or forgot that I had. I'm also closing down email addresses that are old and shouldn't be used because they are nothing but spam collection boxes for pornography and payday loans. Then I'm going to change all of my passwords to something that is simple and consistent. I will give that list to my wife and only change passwords if we have discussed the situation previously and it's a matter of security. I am no longer going to use a password manager which requires an extra program on my phone and my computer.

I am sad to hear this. I wish you good luck in your future endeavors. Best wishes.

[hopeless2015]

Cough and wheezing are back. Ues, I'm still smoking...uggg. I go for cat scan of my lungs and pulmonary specialist appointment today. My husband says he's not buying anymore cigarettes and will quit with me! I need to do this. This cough isn't going to go away as long as I'm smoking, that is obvious

[vjdragonfly]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

Hoping I'm not getting mixed again. Been feeling kind of energetic and restless this morning. Mind won't shut up. Been feeling like my pdoc is out to hurt not help me. Deep down I know that not to be true, but the feeling is definitely there. Guess it could just be anxiety. Absolutely dreading family cookout later.

For your sake I hope you level out before you go mixed, that is a horrible experience. I'm glad you are able to know your pdoc isn't out to hurt you, If you get worse please give your pdoc a call.

Originally Posted by bizi

I am a Veteran, served in the air force and air national guard in the 80's and 90's.

Freedom is not free.

Thank you for your service Bizi.

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'm sorry guys and girls, I just seem to have been all over the place the past few days: up and down and normal then up and down. I was really up at 4:00 this morning and now I'm stressed about getting ready for Florida.

Did just save my daughter's life. She choked on a carrot and was turning red then blue. I did the Heimlich maneuver and it came up. Scared us both but she's ok. I learned that from watching Ms.Doubtfire.

Hope everybody is having a nice Memorial Day.

I hyope your mood levels out soon. I'm glad your daughter is ok.

I have a pdoc appt to run too so I must run. to all.

[Wild Coyote]

I have not been as active here for a few days, although I have read here each day. Didn't have the extra energy to write, which saddens me.

Have spent time with a couple of family members, which quickly reminded me that I need to stay away from people/circumstances which add to depression for now.

Still tweaking meds, hoping for a better response.

Love and Healing to All!

WC