[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I was thinking about this yesterday. I'd almost started a thread on this topic. I seem to be so easily affected by people/things in my environment. It's frustrating! I thought we are supposed to get "tougher" as we age! Instead, my heart is more open and, thus, is an easy target for miserable people. I've always been "sensitive." In many ways, I am even more sensitive, not less. I need to learn how to protect myself sometimes and how to not allow others to cause any inner turmoil for me.
It takes great awareness to keep an open heart and to not allow people/situations to "rock the boat" too much.
It takes awareness and time/practice to learn how to balance it all.

The "default" behavior might be to close one's heart. Yet, that just does not feel healthy to me. It's so the opposite of who I am. I am guessing it's the same for you?


WC

It really, really is. You said everything I didn't know how to say. I don't want to lose my compassion, empathy or caring because I think it's important in a dark, hurting world but I want the over sensitivity to stop because it hurts. I'm hoping my therapist can help me walk a fine line. Thank you for weighing in. I value what you say. Best wishes.

[hopeless2015]

Thanks WC and Jennifer. I think I'm guilty of all or nothing thinking and I usually go the negative route! It's a hard habit to change

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Seroquel withdrawal -- nauseous

This is going "cold turkey" off 6.25mg. What the ****

I reduced from 400 down to 12.5 (which is 1/2 of the smallest tablet they make) and I was fine... and I was fine going from 1/2 a tablet to 1/4 of a tablet, but apparently going from 1/4 of a tablet to 0 makes me want to throw up

Wow. That sounds horrible!
Have you been able to speak with a pharmacist or your doctor about this?
Maybe obtain some anti-nausea medication (OTC or prescription) and do the last bit of withdrawal on the weekend?
A pharmacist can help you select an OTC anti-nausea med.
I hope you feel better soon!

WC

[jacky8807]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Thanks. My friends wouldn't think I'd be a particularly religious person that's why I said that. I do sing in the church choir though.

really?? I thought you were super religious because of all the choir stuff. !

anyone need a laugh you must look at my towns police log at times
"woman calls in saying a man with wild hair is chasing and harassing a mailman. Mailman reports it is ok and it is his friend."

in other news I'm doing ok just not as motivated as I wish to be in some areas of my life. it's a work in progress!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

really?? I thought you were super religious because of all the choir stuff. !

Yup. But I'm going to read the Bible. First time for everything!

anyone need a laugh you must look at my towns police log at times
"woman calls in saying a man with wild hair is chasing and harassing a mailman. Mailman reports it is ok and it is his friend."

in other news I'm doing ok just not as motivated as I wish to be in some areas of my life. it's a work in progress!

Too funny!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

really?? I thought you were super religious because of all the choir stuff. !

anyone need a laugh you must look at my towns police log at times
"woman calls in saying a man with wild hair is chasing and harassing a mailman. Mailman reports it is ok and it is his friend."

in other news I'm doing ok just not as motivated as I wish to be in some areas of my life. it's a work in progress!

Pretty amusing police log!

I keep telling myself, I need a little progress, not perfection!
I don't know how you stay stable working the night shift!
Amazing!

WC

[jacky8807]

I don't know how I'm staying stable either lol. last time i did night shift i just never went back to the job because it caused me to be so depressed. just up and left which is not like me (because money!) but I'm keeping it going
(very rocky at first)

I feel like (knock on wood dear lord) I'm in a state of remission. like I can't imagine any "big" episodes in the near future.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by jacky8807

I don't know how I'm staying stable either lol. last time i did night shift i just never went back to the job because it caused me to be so depressed. just up and left which is not like me (because money!) but I'm keeping it going
(very rocky at first)

I feel like (knock on wood dear lord) I'm in a state of remission. like I can't imagine any "big" episodes in the near future.

Fantastic!

WC

[Unrigged64072835]

Slow day today. Worked on a poem for the church's next magazine. Read a lot. Tried to sleep a little bit. Still have restlessness and anxiety. I dropped the Latuda to half a 60mg tablet and still have issues. Washed a load of clothes. Did a little retail therapy. Making dinner now.

I'm feeling okay now. I see the new pdoc near the end of June. I might have to go lower on the Latuda or take something different all together.

[scatterbrained04]

The stress of my job is going to put me in the hospital one way or another. I swear it.

I'm starting to feel like maybe I shouldn't post as much for awhile. I've been dreadfully negative for quite some time now.

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

The stress of my job is going to put me in the hospital one way or another. I swear it.

I'm starting to feel like maybe I shouldn't post as much for awhile. I've been dreadfully negative for quite some time now.

You never bother me. I just wish I knew what to say to help you feel better. Hope you feel better soon. Thinking of you.

[Moose72]

Yes I don't mind your posts, Scatterbrained.

Took a nap today in my bed. Hadn't slept in my own bed in at least a month. (I took it apart because of the crack in my ceiling thinking they'd fix it soon. NOT!) So its back up courtesy of the kids.

I'd like to go to bed early. N2 will be cooking empanadas (SP?) tonight for school tomorrow. Her last day! So I shouldn't go to bed, but I can read my new bible.

Dreadfully stable over here. Most I've done is bought this bible. It was $25 but it's small and nice and leather-bound! Easy to carry around, though I do need my reading glasses. Hey- there's an idea! I can try my new glasses to read it! (Multi focals).

I haven't been to the gym in weeks. Boo on me! I either am too busy or I just feel like doing other things. The most I've done is 7,000+ steps walking around with N3. That's something, I guess.

And my good friend called. He had called yesterday to tell me that he's getting fed up with his wife of 5 months. He can't deal with her behavior and he doesn't really understand it either. Honestly, I don't know what to make of her either but I don't live with her. And he's a psychologist! So, today, he tells me his wife asked for a divorce. He seems pretty upset about it but was going out to church band rehearsal to get his mind off of it. I would think this would be a relief to him. He said he wanted a companion, but from what he's said he doesn't actually have that staying married. Anyway, its hard on me to support him because I've been through a divorce but never with someone who is as much like her as she is! Its just hard to describe her. She says one thing than turns around and says another and says she never said either.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by scatterbrained04

The stress of my job is going to put me in the hospital one way or another. I swear it.

I'm starting to feel like maybe I shouldn't post as much for awhile. I've been dreadfully negative for quite some time now.

I am sorry you are continuing to have a difficult time.
This is a support forum. We are here to support one another!
Don't stop posting!


WC

[Wild Coyote]

I've had a good day!
Adjusted Wellbutrin and Adderall again.
I hope this continues.
Love and Healing to All!

WC

[gina_re]

I'm tired all of the time. And my sleep is disrupted...I think. I take my night meds around 9pm every night, but I don't fall asleep until about 11:30ish. Wake up the next day super tired and stay in and out of sleep for the first half of the day. I woke up around 4:30 this morning, fell back asleep and finally got up around 9:30, ate breakfast, then went back to sleep. Pdoc said to increase Risperdal to 1mg since I hadn't noticed much of a difference since I began taking it. But now I'm nervous to, will I even be awake during the day?

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Your body has been through some trauma. On some level, your psyche picks up on this, too, even though surgery was elective. Give yourself ample time to fully recover.

Yes, moment-to-moment and lots of self-compassion.

WC

Thank you, WC. I think I need to work on being patient. Since I've always been such an anxious person, I have the bad habit of thinking worst-case-scenario. Luckily, work wasn't too bad today, so I am definitely glad about that.

[bizi]

have a guest staying with us since last sunday night, he will stay with us again tonight then go to a friends house for the weekend to give us a break.
so am glad about that.
bizi

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by gina_re

I'm tired all of the time. And my sleep is disrupted...I think. I take my night meds around 9pm every night, but I don't fall asleep until about 11:30ish. Wake up the next day super tired and stay in and out of sleep for the first half of the day. I woke up around 4:30 this morning, fell back asleep and finally got up around 9:30, ate breakfast, then went back to sleep. Pdoc said to increase Risperdal to 1mg since I hadn't noticed much of a difference since I began taking it. But now I'm nervous to, will I even be awake during the day?

Could you try taking it at 7pm and go to bed earlier?

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bizi

have a guest staying with us since last sunday night, he will stay with us again tonight then go to a friends house for the weekend to give us a break.
so am glad about that.
bizi

Sounds like you need a break. Glad you're getting one!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

Thank you, WC. I think I need to work on being patient. Since I've always been such an anxious person, I have the bad habit of thinking worst-case-scenario. Luckily, work wasn't too bad today, so I am definitely glad about that.

I do, too, actually and then I panic. Happened even before diagnosis when I had no clue what was going on with me.

[gina_re]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Could you try taking it at 7pm and go to bed earlier?

That makes complete sense. Which is probably why I haven't thought of it! I guess since I've taken my Trileptal at 9pm every night for the past seven or so years, I'm just stuck at that particular time...but my night meds have changed over the years.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Sounds like you need a break. Glad you're getting one!

he is separated from his wife....
bizi

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by bizi

he is separated from his wife....
bizi

Oh I didn't know his wife was the house guest.

[Daonnachd]

I'm likely going to have to cancel my ECT. My only option at this point is to have my wife take a day off work to drive me. I don't really want that because she freaks out about bilateral ECT and that's what my doc and I have decided is necessary to combat my depression. I think that it would be obvious in the car on the drive home that I'd had a bilateral treatment.

[lola0987]

Started new job today! Excited to work in a less stressful job. Will make anxiety way less.