[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Everybody hang in there; there is no cure, but [URL="

Thank you for your dry wit. It always makes me giggle.

[Sunflower123]

[QUOTE=shattered sanity

rebooked that important phonecall I was meant to have last week for thursday at 2 PM (does anyone want to actually remind me on the day lol

I can seriously if you need me to. I think that's the same day as the James Comey hearings so I'll be inside glued to the tv anyway. Best wishes.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

It's sad to begin with and even sadder it cannot be discussed.
My father's suicide cannot be discussed, either.

(((((( bizi ))))))


WC

My mother could not talk about his death for 8 years. Finally brain talk and peter allowed her to talk.
bizi

[hopeless2015]

It's been a good weekend. Husband and I got out on motorcycle yesterday and enjoyed the sunshine. Today I have to get my bathroom cleaned! It's been to long, and the mountain of laundry lol. Hugs to everyone!

[Moose72]

Church was good. Last day till the fall for the choirs. Sad. Great service. Combined bells and all choirs on one piece!

[liveforsummer]

Decisions, decisions...do I crawl into bed with my lap top, phone and e-reader or get out that front door and make that trip to Ikea to get that area rug I've been procrastinating on..hmmm

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

Decisions, decisions...do I crawl into bed with my lap top, phone and e-reader or get out that front door and make that trip to Ikea to get that area rug I've been procrastinating on..hmmm

Tough decision!

Welcome to the Bipolar check-in thread!
Looking forward to your posts.

WC

I'm still plugging along. It seems everything keeps coming together and making sense and I feel hope that I can survive this life....then the nasty film collects over it all again and I'm peering out into a cloudy unrecognizable world again. If I could break this film , once and for all, perhaps there is meaning beneath....or perhaps the clarity I see is only another delusion. Not much I can do but live and see I guess.

Grooming advisory: my facial follicles have flourished from fine to fair to fuzzy to familiar to fundamentalist to full-fledged feral. I care.

The disease damages identity: all your mistakes and misdeeds and mortifications have damaged what you are or were or could have been, and you must mourn your ruined plans and potentials and aspirations and affectations and play the hand you were dealt. As my Harvard-educated pdoc put it, "It sucks." Then he told me to take more drugs.

Everybody hang in there. There is no cure, but nobody ever said that mental illness would be easy.

[xRavenx]

I'm sort of in the middle. I am trying to stay more positive, and it's gotten a little bit easier, but I acknowledge that my moods fluctuate. When it gets bad, I know I will have better days. So at least I am not stuck in that dark place that I've been many times before. My self-esteem is a little shaky lately though. More so than usual actually.

[Sunflower123]

Didn't take my 3 ad for 2-3 days. Totally unlike me and very irresponsible. I'm always compliant. Hope I don't experience fall-out which will totally be on me if so.

Hope everyone is doing ok and has a good day.

[Unrigged64072835]

Got busy, forgot lunch and my afternoon meds. Went to church, then did grocery shopping. I'm okay, though. Had anxiety around noon but kept busy so it didn't take over.

Mood has been okay. Need to look at my homework for this week. It's probably critiquing poems and discussion on two of them. Not looking forward to this.

[liveforsummer]

Made it out the front door but only came home with some groceries for supper, though I guess that's a good thing.

[Moose72]

Today in church, this man was standing in the balcony and starts loudly "preaching"! The congregation, choir, organist/choir director, clergy and congregation were stunned. The choir director quietly came up to the choir and started singing a chant we know "Veni Sancte Spiritu" and we followed suit. I don't know if this was to soothe the congregation or distract the man or both. Soon, the priest got up and went up into the balcony and eventually got this guy to quiet down and come down from the balcony.

[Wild Coyote]

Had a rough night.
Paralyzed today.
Feel like ****.

I hope all is well with others here.

WC

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Had a rough night.
Paralyzed today.
Feel like ****.

I hope all is well with others here.

WC

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time today. I hope tomorrow is a much better day for you.

[Sunflower123]

Pet peeve: the vast majority of posters are nice, grateful and positive when you try to offer kindness, solutions or support. I've run across a few people who have been abrasive or attacked me when I offered my support. I really don't appreciate it. It's not anybody on this forum. WTH? There's one or two passive aggressive as well. I guess it takes all kinds including poorly mannered folks.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Pet peeve: the vast majority of posters are nice, grateful and positive when you try to offer kindness, solutions or support. I've run across a few people who have been abrasive or attacked me when I offered my support. I really don't appreciate it. It's not anybody on this forum. WTH? There's one or two passive aggressive as well. I guess it takes all kinds including poorly mannered folks.

Yes, there are all kinds at PC.
For some, the abrasiveness/attacks may be a part of their condition(s).
And, of course, a certain percentage of any large group of people likely have poor manners. I've been attacked, too, yet not on this forum. I have learned to keep my distance from a couple of people who "run hot," want to "fight" and cannot be reasoned with. (Not anyone on this forum.)

I am sorry you've had these experiences, too.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time today. I hope tomorrow is a much better day for you.

Thanks!

It will get better the further I get away from Friday's chemo injection.
I spend weekends extra tired and doing my best to not vomit.
(I chose to endure this on weekends because H works weekends.)


WC

Someone named Bobby with email address 'robertasianlove@yahoo.com' just sent an inquiry to our website, enabling me to begin my response with the salutation "Dear Mr. Asian Love", which felt like the pinnacle of my career.

[gina_re]

Well I wasted my day. But since I don't really have anything else to do with my days now, I guess not really since I can make up for lost time tomorrow. I wanted to at least get some laundry done. However, I did clean up around the kitchen so I did at least get something done. I've pretty much been laying on the couch all day. I was expecting my mom and nephews to stop by but communication between my mom, my sister, and myself got crossed and nobody came (well I told my mom nevermind after it was all said and done).
Not sure if I can accurately notice if my med change is working, but I did up it to 1mg as advised. I want to say yes because I dug up some motivation to clean today. But so overly cautious that I'm leaning on the side of pessimism. Luckily I have an appointment with my T this week and I can hopefully figure this all out.

I read this post repeatedly before submitting, and it still sounds awkward. Hopefully it makes some sense because my communication skills seem to be lacking these days.

[Moose72]

Your post definitely makes sense. It sounds like you had a good day. Not every day has to be a scrub from top to bottom type day.

[Moose72]

I'm back in my pajamas drinking Ovaltine. I've been walking a lot- made over 10,000 steps yesterday at the garage sale!- but need to get back to the gym. I've been lazy where that's concerned. The treadmill just isn't the same as fresh air. I enjoyed church today, even though next Sunday will be weird. One of the choir members says they usually sit as a group in the congregation during the Summer break. I guess I'll try that. And no Thursday rehearsals. I should get back to my reading, too. Enjoying my glasses, even though the comments on them vary. One person today said that retro glasses were back in. Uh- okay. I didn't know these were retro. Like what- '70's? That and my daughter laughing at me and finally admitting that I looked like "Sonic the Hedgehog"! Oh- it was my hair, she said, not the glasses. Uh huh. I wonder when I'll ever get off zyprexa. Never. *sigh*

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Grooming advisory: my facial follicles have flourished from fine to fair to fuzzy to familiar to fundamentalist to full-fledged feral. I care.

Awesome alliteration, Lefty!

Been busy. Getting things done. Dips here and there (don't leave Brain to its own devices for too long…). Been kind of weird. Been emotional and even crying over other people's stuff. My own? Nothing. Which on one hand is ok, but on another makes me wonder if I'm slightly overmedicated(?) or if I'm just REALLY good at denial/walls whatever (which is a distinct possibility). Overall it's been freakily smooth sailing. What is this?! I don't quite trust it, lol.

Hugs to all who are struggling

[Sunflower123]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Thanks!

It will get better the further I get away from Friday's chemo injection.
I spend weekends extra tired and doing my best to not vomit.
(I chose to endure this on weekends because H works weekends.)


WC

That's good. I thought I remembered you saying your weekends were h***. I think that's very considerate to do it when H works so you can spend quality time when you're comparatively better.