[Moose72]

Great fall day! Judo was wonderful. Now out to lunch with n3.

Hugs to everybody!

[Moreta]

I'm going out tonight so ofc my stomach is messed up. why wouldn't it be?

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Sucks when a good meds comes out the gate working great then falls down.... breaks a leg and it’s piled on the heap of other meds that failed

Lol!

[Blueberrybook]

Today was gloomy. Woke up this morning to crashing thunder, pouring rain. I think maybe it’s rained off and on a little the rest of the day. It stayed cloudy; the sun never really came out.

Had stomach issues today, threw up several times this afternoon, but I am feeling better now. It might be my cycle. I thought I started a couple days ago, but it was a false alarm. Definitely am not pregnant as things never worked out this cycle for sex. Usually, I am on right on time, but I have had a lot of stress. Don’t think it is my weight, could be but I doubt it. Hopefully, it is not the start of peri menopause (I’m 40).

Didn’t do much but lie in bed, try not to throw up. Read a little once I started feeling better. Still just going to have stick with something light for dinner, like a sandwich.

[Unrigged64072835]

Today was a quiet day—if you consider reloading a computer a quiet day. Still have more to do tomorrow between cleaning stuff. It’ll be okay though.

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Anyone have any happy weekend plans ?

Kind of(!) After slogging through hours of the world's most futile moving sale (about 6 hours with about 6 people and a $5 sale anyone? And it's good stuff! But sucky neighborhood.) ANYHOW!

Now I am heading back to where home now is (MUCH nicer) to dial in the space better. Maybe not fun fun, but I love a new space and most of all the RESULTS. So that's pretty fun in my book.

I hope everyone can fit in at least a little fun for themselves today too.

[Fuzzybear]

Antidepressant I’ve had so many bad reactions to them

[pirilin]

I'm still doing fine. I'm almost broke again. Depression coming up at a theatre near you.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

We took my nieces to a festival in the town where I grew up. We had lots of fair food (which I shouldn't have eaten) and watched the parade. I was really anxious about going because running into people I know from back then stresses me out. Plus the last time I was in the time except driving through was 18 years ago. But it was all fine, no awkward encounters. It was a fun day and the girls were both worn out from the excitement. So was I but I'm having a hard time getting my brain to slow back down from the overstimulation.

But what a good day and a nice way to transition into fall.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I'm still doing fine. I'm almost broke again. Depression coming up at a theatre near you.

Don’t buy a ticket !

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Don’t buy a ticket !

She got ya!


WC

downloaded some music yesterday- some songs I'd wanted for a while so that was good.

I also started a new book.

was meant to watch a comedy show on tv, but didn't in the end

dry day today...

[Moreta]

I made it out last night and had a fun time. Me and my friends went to a male strip show. I am so tired though. Didn't get much sleep since ofc I still woke up at 5 am. At least I don't drink so I don't have a hangover. I bet all my friends do. Haha. At least there's not many nsfw pictures on my phone. lmao.

Originally Posted by Moreta

I made it out last night and had a fun time. Me and my friends went to a male strip show. I am so tired though. Didn't get much sleep since ofc I still woke up at 5 am. At least I don't drink so I don't have a hangover. I bet all my friends do. Haha. At least there's not many nsfw pictures on my phone. lmao.

I don't drink either. Not my thing, even before meds. I also know it'd mess with my meds and mood way too much anyways.

I do like the smell and flavor of beer, though. Certain types. But again, I don't drink. I've only had beer like 3-4 times, and I've done it socially by drinking part of the beer. That was back when I was 21-23. I'd typically drink like 1/4 of it and then everyone looked at me like, "you drank none of it." lol. So nowadays I just order a water instead of tying to fit in. But surprisingly, people aren't bothered like you'd expect them to be; they're cool with it and respect my decision.

Glad you had a fun night, though.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

We took my nieces to a festival in the town where I grew up. We had lots of fair food (which I shouldn't have eaten) and watched the parade. I was really anxious about going because running into people I know from back then stresses me out. Plus the last time I was in the time except driving through was 18 years ago. But it was all fine, no awkward encounters. It was a fun day and the girls were both worn out from the excitement. So was I but I'm having a hard time getting my brain to slow back down from the overstimulation.

But what a good day and a nice way to transition into fall.

I'm glad you had a good time. I get stressed meeting people I knew in high school or several years ago. I am glad you did OK. It sounds like you had a fun day though.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by pirilin

I'm still doing fine. I'm almost broke again. Depression coming up at a theatre near you.

Sorry about that. I definitely understand lack of money...unfortunately...sigh.

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

Antidepressant I’ve had so many bad reactions to them

Sorry to hear that, Fuzzy. You are in a very difficult position with your allergies.

I hope in the near future that you'll be able to find something that works for you.

Have you tried any of the newer antipsychotics? I know Seroquel seems to work for you, and I really like Rexulti. There is also Vraylar. I don't know how bad your allergies are, but I know the newer antipsychotics are intended to have minimal side effects. Things just keep getting better and better within the past 10 years. So I hope you'll be able to find relief soon.

It's possible, though, that you're allergic to the fillers and binders within the pills themselves. Or the coating itself. If that's possibly the case, I wonder if you could get tested for those things by an allergist? Using the scratch test I mean.

I haven't had much luck with allergists myself, but it's a good option. I found out that I have an allergy to penicillin. They did a scratch test with it (without the penicillin's filler and binder, or the coating) and it came up positive with a slight raised skin. I just don't know wtf is up with my nose being completely closed off.

Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow

We took my nieces to a festival in the town where I grew up. We had lots of fair food (which I shouldn't have eaten) and watched the parade. I was really anxious about going because running into people I know from back then stresses me out. Plus the last time I was in the time except driving through was 18 years ago. But it was all fine, no awkward encounters. It was a fun day and the girls were both worn out from the excitement. So was I but I'm having a hard time getting my brain to slow back down from the overstimulation.

But what a good day and a nice way to transition into fall.

Boy, do I know that feeling of getting scared of running into people I know from in the past. I can relate 100%. I'm sorry you had to go through that too. At least things ended up ok.

I haven't been to a fair/festival in a long time. I have no one to go with and I feel lonely seeing other people bringing company with them. But they are a lot of fun when you have people to go with. It is a good time.

[Blueberrybook]

No interesting weekend plans. H spent all of yesterday working on tweaking his resume and emailing for letters of recommendation. Since he wants to apply to teach at university level, application is more complicated. You often need to email research plans for what you'd like to do since he has his Ph.D. in physical chemistry though he's had crossover into biochemistry & statistics, computer programming & CAD modeling through his work and self-teaching. And all the research plans need to be tweaked to showcase the department he is applying for. He has some past associates who are professors at various universities offering to help out and/or give letters of recommendation. It is just university professorships are hard to get with no first author publications. I still cannot believe Rice University in Houston (a private university and quite prestigious) let him graduate without a single first author publication. I had to have 1 first author publication to graduate with an M.S. at the University of Houston (much less prestigious than Rice), and Ph.D. candidates in my department needed 2, preferably 3 first author publications on top of the thesis to graduate. It is frustrating to H because he did his graduate work under a Nobel Prize winner too (Rick Smalley, for the Bucky Ball work, now deceased), but Smalley apparently in person made grad students & post-docs basically compete for first authorship on a publication, and H just isn't ruthless like that. And while still living, Smalley did not write letters of recommendation for his past grad students. All of that hindered H in the university field, though he had good paying jobs at NASA and with NASA contractors until the government cut funding to NASA. Now, he is teaching high school physics though he definitely has the background for large research projects or a professorship.

I am doing OK this morning. I feel much better than yesterday as far as my stomach goes. Not sure if throwing up was hormones, a bit of a bug, possible food poisoning (used a rotisserie chicken to make soup, but usually refrigerating it then re-heating it in the soup would have killed most germs responsible for food poisoning).

Still no sign of my period. I'm usually not late, but last month was super stressful. It could be I just ovulated yesterday as I had ovary pain, not that it means much for me; I've had it both mid-cycle and at the end of the cycle when I was religiously following stuff like that trying to have a sibling for my daughter. We just ended up with secondary infertility; nothing wrong with H, nothing wrong with me through the first stage of testing, and we left it at that. It's been years now and nothing, and this past cycle we were just so stressed, we didn't even have sex, so I know I am not pregnant. I have had stress delay cycles, not for years though, not even after ulcer surgery, but this past month has been extremely stressful with the CPS case, tough finances, hard talks with H, starting therapy again.

Though it is early yet, the good news is I think I've finally found a T that fits me. It's taken years; I don't know, sometimes it's hard to relate to other people, sometimes I got bad T's, sometimes, I wasn't with a T for long before moving or an insurance change. Never had a connection with any of them or felt I made any progress. I really hope I can trust my instincts on this T.

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

No interesting weekend plans. H spent all of yesterday working on tweaking his resume and emailing for letters of recommendation. Since he wants to apply to teach at university level, application is more complicated. You often need to email research plans for what you'd like to do since he has his Ph.D. in physical chemistry though he's had crossover into biochemistry & statistics, computer programming & CAD modeling through his work and self-teaching. And all the research plans need to be tweaked to showcase the department he is applying for. He has some past associates who are professors at various universities offering to help out and/or give letters of recommendation. It is just university professorships are hard to get with no first author publications. I still cannot believe Rice University in Houston (a private university and quite prestigious) let him graduate without a single first author publication. I had to have 1 first author publication to graduate with an M.S. at the University of Houston (much less prestigious than Rice), and Ph.D. candidates in my department needed 2, preferably 3 first author publications on top of the thesis to graduate. It is frustrating to H because he did his graduate work under a Nobel Prize winner too (Rick Smalley, for the Bucky Ball work, now deceased), but Smalley apparently in person made grad students & post-docs basically compete for first authorship on a publication, and H just isn't ruthless like that. And while still living, Smalley did not write letters of recommendation for his past grad students. All of that hindered H in the university field, though he had good paying jobs at NASA and with NASA contractors until the government cut funding to NASA. Now, he is teaching high school physics though he definitely has the background for large research projects or a professorship.

I am doing OK this morning. I feel much better than yesterday as far as my stomach goes. Not sure if throwing up was hormones, a bit of a bug, possible food poisoning (used a rotisserie chicken to make soup, but usually refrigerating it then re-heating it in the soup would have killed most germs responsible for food poisoning).

Still no sign of my period. I'm usually not late, but last month was super stressful. It could be I just ovulated yesterday as I had ovary pain, not that it means much for me; I've had it both mid-cycle and at the end of the cycle when I was religiously following stuff like that trying to have a sibling for my daughter. We just ended up with secondary infertility; nothing wrong with H, nothing wrong with me through the first stage of testing, and we left it at that. It's been years now and nothing, and this past cycle we were just so stressed, we didn't even have sex, so I know I am not pregnant. I have had stress delay cycles, not for years though, not even after ulcer surgery, but this past month has been extremely stressful with the CPS case, tough finances, hard talks with H, starting therapy again.

Though it is early yet, the good news is I think I've finally found a T that fits me. It's taken years; I don't know, sometimes it's hard to relate to other people, sometimes I got bad T's, sometimes, I wasn't with a T for long before moving or an insurance change. Never had a connection with any of them or felt I made any progress. I really hope I can trust my instincts on this T.

Sorry to hear about your husband's situation. It is unfortunate that he could not graduate with a first author publication. I, too, am surprised by that. No one should have to "compete" for first author.

When I did my master's, I elected to get a non-thesis master's (2015). That's now an option, and I was okay with that. My degree is in CS (technically CE) and my undergrad (2013) was in a completely different area of study, so I preferred to get the non-thesis in order to take more coursework to figure out what I really wanted to do. Plus, as an undergrad, I did do research and publish a paper, but I eventually found out that research "wasn't my thing," so I decided to go with a "terminal degree" -- i.e., a degree that wouldn't get me into a PhD program. But I do empathize with you because I know what it's like to do a ton of research, only to have yourself put as second author, or even third author. (But I was a mere undergrad, so my lab could "get away with it," sadly.)

Not sure what to suggest about the research. Grants are a pain in the @ss to get. And some universities ARE very punishing about which # author you are. I'm guessing he never came up with his own research idea? Or if he DID come up with his own idea and designed the project HIMSELF, then that's b*llshit.

Congrats on the therapist, though. I hope it works out for you.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Sorry to hear about your husband's situation. It is unfortunate that he could not graduate with a first author publication. I, too, am surprised by that. No one should have to "compete" for first author.

When I did my master's, I elected to get a non-thesis master's (2015). That's now an option, and I was okay with that. My degree is in CS (technically CE) and my undergrad (2013) was in a completely different area of study, so I preferred to get the non-thesis in order to take more coursework to figure out what I really wanted to do. Plus, as an undergrad, I did do research and publish a paper, but I eventually found out that research "wasn't my thing," so I decided to go with a "terminal degree" -- i.e., a degree that wouldn't get me into a PhD program. But I do empathize with you because I know what it's like to do a ton of research, only to have yourself put as second author, or even third author. (But I was a mere undergrad, so my lab could "get away with it," sadly.)

Not sure what to suggest about the research. Grants are a pain in the @ss to get. And some universities ARE very punishing about which # author you are. I'm guessing he never came up with his own research idea? Or if he DID come up with his own idea and designed the project HIMSELF, then that's b*llshit.

Congrats on the therapist, though. I hope it works out for you.

Well, H is very creative & inquisitive with a very scientific mindset as well as being quite artistic. He has plenty of ideas for things he would like to research but of course lacks time, funding, equipment, and materials. He has scientific interests in many areas, so that is not a problem for him.

Even I had to have a 1st author publication to graduate with an M.S. from the University of Houston (much less prestigious). I had to have a thesis too but nowhere near what Ph.Ds had to do. Ph.D. candidates in my department had to have 2, 3 1st author publications to graduate.

I went on the M.S. track too because I realized I hated lab research.

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Well, H is very creative & inquisitive with a very scientific mindset as well as being quite artistic. He has plenty of ideas for things he would like to research but of course lacks time, funding, equipment, and materials. He has scientific interests in many areas, so that is not a problem for him.

Even I had to have a 1st author publication to graduate with an M.S. from the University of Houston (much less prestigious). I had to have a thesis too but nowhere near what Ph.Ds had to do. Ph.D. candidates in my department had to have 2, 3 1st author publications to graduate.

I went on the M.S. track too because I realized I hated lab research.

Sorry to hear about your husband's situation. You basically need experience (first author) to get a job, and you need a job to get experience (also first author). So I can see why he's "stuck" in his current situation. I hate how things play out like that.

And yep, I know all about that PhD route, sadly. That's why I didn't like it. You also needed to maintain a 3.7 GPA at my school, a school which scaled grades downward. (e.g., If the class average was a B, they scaled your 85% down to a C, 75%.) No thanks. I ended up with a 3.69 with my master's, so I technically would've "failed" to graduate from a PhD program. But I was totally new to computer science. I had no idea what I was doing sometimes because I never took introductory computer science classes. So getting a 3.69 was HARD.

The only reason I went to this school is that I did my undergrad there. I got a free scholarship for my master's, as well as a $20,000 stipend from my research lab. (Yep, I still worked in the lab despite me studying CS. I helped them write software to do their research.) $20,000 wan't much, though, for Boston/Cambridge area. Prestigious schools really aren't worth it sometimes. No one really gives a f*** where you graduated from -- MIT, Harvard, or John Doe's Random College. It gives you an edge up on your first job, but that's about it.

Hubby wants to go to the beach today. I must confess that I'm not in the mood for it. I'll go anyway. I can't look excited, but I won't moan about it. If it was just a quick trip with minimal hassle it would be more tempting, but hubby always wants to bring a huge number of things. I'd be happy bringing just a couple chairs, a sun hat, a sandwich, drink, and sunscreen. I won't wear a bathing suit. It's only 68 F (20 C) right now, though sunny, at almost 11 am. Really, if we go I'll want a pullover. It may feel even cooler by the ocean. At least the beach will likely have relatively few people on it. There aren't life guards there anymore at this time of year.

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Hubby wants to go to the beach today. I must confess that I'm not in the mood for it. I'll go anyway. I can't look excited, but I won't moan about it. If it was just a quick trip with minimal hassle it would be more tempting, but hubby always wants to bring a huge number of things. I'd be happy bringing just a couple chairs, a sun hat, a sandwich, drink, and sunscreen. I won't wear a bathing suit. It's only 68 F right now at almost 11 am. Really, if we go I'll want a pull over or sweater. At least the beach will likely have relatively few people on it.

Sorry that you don't want to go. My sister and parents sometimes try to drag me to the beach midday, but the water is FREEZING and it's far too crowded up here. I don't know how it is in NJ, but you can barely walk without bumping into someone.

I think I've been to Wildwood and Cape May in NJ, and I enjoyed riding a bike down Wildwood in the morning when no one was there. Can't remember if Cape May had a boardwalk. But we went in the early morning hours, so we never got to experience either one of them during the busy, afternoon hours. But there is no way you can ride a bike up here, not with all the people.

I actually do wear a sweatshirt even in the summer when I go to the beach. The ocean breeze is just too cold for me. I'm a cold blooded creature.

[~Christina]

I woke up on the wrong side of the world so I might snap and have no filter. Just a heads up