[Guiness187055]

Housework stacking up. I have 9 days to get it done and I can't seem to get out of bed. I even tried the working in 15 minute intervals. Still nothing. I don't feel depressed but I need to get some motivation and fast.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Had to laugh!

It's just ridiculous, what they think!


WC

Yes it is!

Btw is your avatar an animated gif?

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Yes it is!

Btw is your avatar an animated gif?

I guess my avatar is animated. It was a choice given for avatars here at PC.

I hope you do okay with your med decrease.

Happy Thanksgiving!

[Daonnachd]

A very busy day at work and busy when I got home - good to keep the grief at bay.

[99fairies]

I barley made it out of my bed today. I've been super depressed.

[251turnaround]

My mood is okay so far. I've been really stressed out so my sleep has been terrible. In the past week I've been averaging about 5-6 hours of sleep at the most every night and it's starting to have an effect on me in other ways I think. It's getting worse, the stress, and I only got 3 hours last night. I'm not manic though. I really wish I could sleep but I really can't.

I'm getting sick of this. I was already out and about for my class, but then I had a couple hours to do nothing and now I have to go back out and do a urine sample, then I have to go for (my weekly) blood work, then I have to go to one pharmacy in the next town over, and Friday I have to go to another pharmacy in the city. Next week has just as many appointments including two I won't be able to drive myself to because of ECT.
I also lost a plug so I can't even listen to my own music while spending hours in the car. And there's a ton of black ice everywhere and asshole holiday tourons that don't know how to drive.

[nikon]

i'm struggling to wake up this week.
i saw my therapist, which went well, and we talked about emotional trauma i went through a few years ago that is still affecting me daily. i struggle to accept it as trauma - one part of me sees it as that, while another part sees it as me being oversensitive to normal happenings.
now i just feel like eating everything.

[beauflow]

The last two days I've been crying in bed before sleep... idk how long I've been crying when waking up.
I need to get going, I agreed to watch doggies and they need someone to help them.
Though I feel bad because I forgot my cat will be alone since my ex has moved out. Ex has agreed to come check on cat. I will be local so I will try to as well while house sitting.
I am making the issue worse by thinking i am a horrible person for thinking my cat will be ok... he will be alone at night and i am just
He will have food water and clean box.. I will see him and ex will see him. I feel bad about this right now... but know my cat will be ok.

[~Christina]

And my sleep went from 7 to 5 to 3 hours. This probably won’t end well, I’m already rage-y

Oh boy

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

And my sleep went from 7 to 5 to 3 hours. This probably won’t end well, I’m already rage-y

Oh boy

Can you contact your pdoc? It sucks to end the hypo, but, for me at least, mania has not once ended well.

[Blueberrybook]

Pdoc appt. today. No med changes, have a phone appt. with him in 2 weeks. Got a lecture to eat more, especially protein.

Doing OK but ran again this morning, a lot. Then, I don't know if it was the running or not, but I got so sick to my stomach (and sorry if TMI) with diarrhea and feeling like I needed to throw up. Finally got over that for the pdoc appt but am not feeling well, weakish, very dehydrated, lucky he didn't weight me because I look bad, but I told him straight out I was super dehydrated, and my weight would be messed up.

I'm hungry, not sure what to eat though as not many foods are appealing right now. I had some JELLO, but it was sugar-free, not much calorie-wise. I think I have some canned soup. If I have one without a cream broth, I will try that, a chicken noodle or minestrone, something like that.

Wanted to get a ham & some rolls for Thanksgiving tomorrow, just feel blah right now, and the thought of either one of those foods turns my stomach right now. Maybe later I can pick it up or have H get it.

H has a job interview today AGAIN with that university that keeps dangline jobs and taking them away. He's on his way there now. Maybe a better outcome, I don't know. This has been 3 or 4 times already. Some of this bad luck, you can't even write this stuff. I hope 2019 is a better year for us.

[Blueberrybook]

Update: Ate chicken, rice & barley soup with crackers, some applesauce. Feel horrendous again, like I might throw up any second. I think I have a stomach bug Maybe I will try some apple juice later. I really need some Gatorade, but we don't have any, and I cannot drive to the store like this. May send H when he gets home. I hate stomach bugs

[Faltering]

The pdoc's secretary called and said my lab results were good but I need to pick up another lab order to get a blood test in 2 to 4 weeks. I looked at the blood test results and my creatinine is slightly high and carbon dioxide is low. My thyroid level increased but is still in the normal range. I don't know if I should be concerned about my kidneys. The doctor isn't. My lithium level is .07, which is the low side of the normal range. I saw the psychologist today and he basically asked some background about me. I don't know if he can help me, but I agreed to five sessions to try. I got in trouble at work yesterday for a major error (like against the law) and now all I can think about is how much I've screwed up at work lately. I can never get another job because my supervisor would probably not provide a positive reference. I really need to get myself together but I just can't. I'm still hearing voices too.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Update: Ate chicken, rice & barley soup with crackers, some applesauce. Feel horrendous again, like I might throw up any second. I think I have a stomach bug Maybe I will try some apple juice later. I really need some Gatorade, but we don't have any, and I cannot drive to the store like this. May send H when he gets home. I hate stomach bugs

Stomache bugs are no fun. Thats what my mom used to call "the flu"- i didnt realize the flu is totally a different animal for years.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

Can you contact your pdoc? It sucks to end the hypo, but, for me at least, mania has not once ended well.

I honestly am not one to jump on the “Call your Pdoc “ train BLAH BLAH BLAH

Medications can only do so MUCH and then it’s UP TO ME to make adjustments to my daily life to deal with my symptoms.

[TheSeaCat]

I feel so tired and run down today and I don't know why. I know I stayed up late working on school work and trying to figure out if a study I read is true or not. I personally don't agree with it neither does the PA friend. I don't think my medication is working my heart rate is still ridiculously high my blood pressure is too. I have also been so cold today even with my tiny heater my office felt like Antarctica. PA said my office felt fine but I just couldn't get warm today. Work was okay had another angry patient upset about the wait times. I swear nobody has an ounce of patience anymore.

I am ready for tomorrow getting to sleep in and go out with family. Aunt told me I have to explain to the girls why I decided to break up with a guy they both liked. I just don't know how to explain to a 10 and 8 year old that he was an idiot. Oh well I promised I'd take them to the movies this weekend, maybe they'll forget and just enjoy time with me instead of him and I.

Off to the first therapy appointment of this week.

Hugs to everyone

[251turnaround]

3 hours of sleep! Woot!



I was doing so well for a couple days with sleep, but now I guess I'm back.

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I am ready for tomorrow getting to sleep in and go out with family. Aunt told me I have to explain to the girls why I decided to break up with a guy they both liked. I just don't know how to explain to a 10 and 8 year old that he was an idiot. Oh well I promised I'd take them to the movies this weekend, maybe they'll forget and just enjoy time with me instead of him and I.

Maybe it's just me, but I really don't understand why you'd be under any obligation whatsoever to explain the problems of an adult relationship to children. I just don't see how it'd be any of their business. *If* it came up, I don't think I'd go into any more detail than, "he didn't treat me with enough respect" or something. Personally, I'd be taken aback at being asked such a personal thing by children.

Hope you get to feeling better (and warmer!) soon!

[Moose72]

Aaahhhhh..... Sex, shower, warm PJ's! Feelin' good!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

I feel so tired and run down today and I don't know why. I know I stayed up late working on school work and trying to figure out if a study I read is true or not. I personally don't agree with it neither does the PA friend. I don't think my medication is working my heart rate is still ridiculously high my blood pressure is too. I have also been so cold today even with my tiny heater my office felt like Antarctica. PA said my office felt fine but I just couldn't get warm today. Work was okay had another angry patient upset about the wait times. I swear nobody has an ounce of patience anymore.

I am ready for tomorrow getting to sleep in and go out with family. Aunt told me I have to explain to the girls why I decided to break up with a guy they both liked. I just don't know how to explain to a 10 and 8 year old that he was an idiot. Oh well I promised I'd take them to the movies this weekend, maybe they'll forget and just enjoy time with me instead of him and I.

Off to the first therapy appointment of this week.

Hugs to everyone

This is why I think waiting a while to have dates meet the kids is a good thing. Especially young kids.

[wildflowerchild25]

We made it to Tennessee! Yesterday of course. Today we went to pigeon forge to the titanic museum because my son is obsessed with the titanic. We had a great time! He loved it! I bought him a stuffed titanic and his grandparents bought him a die cast titanic model. Then we went to some outdoor shops and spent some time there. We finished up eating at Paula deen’s family restaurant. That was ok, the food was alright but it wasn’t worth the price. But hey, what do you expect in a tourist area?

Tomorrow is thanksgiving at my in laws. Excited about that! And my son will have another kid to play with so that’ll be great.

Just wanted to check in real quick! Everyone try to have a nice thanksgiving tomorrow! Love and hugs to all!

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Maybe it's just me, but I really don't understand why you'd be under any obligation whatsoever to explain the problems of an adult relationship to children. I just don't see how it'd be any of their business. *If* it came up, I don't think I'd go into any more detail than, "he didn't treat me with enough respect" or something. Personally, I'd be taken aback at being asked such a personal thing by children.

Hope you get to feeling better (and warmer!) soon!

They are bugging her about what happened and she has told them it's not her story to tell, to ask me, since it's technically my story. I personally don't care what the girls ask me and I've known them forever, it would be extremely weird if I didn't know and love them like they are my own and it was just a random child. Thank you for that advice, that's probably what I'll use. Lack of respect.

I hope so too I'm under two blankets and wearing a thick hoodie and I am still freezing, my cat is even laying on my feet.

[TheSeaCat]

Originally Posted by Moose72

This is why I think waiting a while to have dates meet the kids is a good thing. Especially young kids.

He and I were together for about six months before he met my cousins who I see more like my nieces. We usually would take them to do something fun over the weekend and they got attached. I will definitely think harder with the next relationship about bringing him around my girls.

[Moose72]

I've been freezing today too Theseacat.

Tomorrow morning we are going to my mom's. We'll watch movies and have cinnamon rolls for breakfast while we cook. Im lending my mom a DVD- the Mr Rogers movie. It made me cry. Hopefully if we watch it tomorrow I won't cry again! Not after me breaking down in therapy Friday. Oh- and speaking of crying over your dad, my sister's father in law died yesterday or today. Unexpected. I think he was in his 60s.