[Daonnachd]

Seeing my pdoc today as I always do the Monday before ECT. Otherwise, I expect it will be an uneventful day.

[Wander]

The last week has been pretty good, and busy. I stayed at my parents house from discharge nearly two weeks ago as they live near the psych hospital I get maintenance ECT done. Also my pdoc made staying at my parents house a requirement of my release. Well after ECT last Thursday and that week passing I went home Friday. It has been really weird since discharge as I remember little of the episode, mostly due to the ECT. I have to scour text messages and ask those close to me what happened. Despite this I’ve been quite social catching up with four separate friends. I went for a wonderful first swim of spring in the ocean and even cleaned a lot of my flat. The next week is going to be just as busy with ECT Thursday and my sisters 45 th Bday party Saturday, which I will be helping prepare for.

Reading over this I realise I’ve come out of hospital like a bull at the gate and should probably slow down after this party. I just feel so motivated and get bored easily.

[Faltering]

Today the lithium made me very nauseous and then sick to my stomach. I don't know if it's becoming toxic or if it's just a side effect. I'm not liking the risk.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by Faltering

Today the lithium made me very nauseous and then sick to my stomach. I don't know if it's becoming toxic or if it's just a side effect. I'm not liking the risk.

How long have you been on lithium? I found the first 2 months I was extremely sick from it. Possibly also a bit from the wellbutrin(and some weeks a lot of alcohol) but mainly it would happen a little while after taking the lithium. I was on 600. That included nausea and almost every night vomiting. I slept with a bucket because I would even wake up in the night if I went to bed right after. My levels were fine in this time though and it did start to get a little better with time.

Hope it doesnt continue but if you are worried its probably not a bad idea to get your levels checked

[giddykitty]

Speaking of wanting to cancel appointments, I'm not sure if I want to keep my therapy appointment tomorrow because I'm afraid it could be one of my bad period days, you know, the one day a month where i'm in so much pain I don't get out of bed. (I feel like a broken record on this, but maybe I haven't said it enough on this site.) Anyway, so I'm not sure if that day will be tomorrow and I am stressing about having to make this decision to cancel or not. The other problem is that I'll have to likely cancel or reschedule next week's therapy too. I'm starting to feel like giving up on therapy altogether, this DBT therapy, because I don't know if I'm advancing quick enough, making enough progress. Sigh

I was also stressed today because I had to make a meal that took a bit of concentration. Of course it ended up better than I'd feared, but I think I was so anxious I was going over and over it prior and that prepped me. I'm exhausted though.

Just to catch up, last week I saw my primary care doctor after a long time. We talked about a LOT of stuff. I don't even know what to share, except that he seems convinced that my health issues are causing my mood issues and that one day we might change my meds accordingly. Oh it's another stressor. I know I'm in good hands with him, but his practice is kinda far from home.

[Faltering]

Originally Posted by Tryingtobehappy5

How long have you been on lithium? I found the first 2 months I was extremely sick from it. Possibly also a bit from the wellbutrin(and some weeks a lot of alcohol) but mainly it would happen a little while after taking the lithium. I was on 600. That included nausea and almost every night vomiting. I slept with a bucket because I would even wake up in the night if I went to bed right after. My levels were fine in this time though and it did start to get a little better with time.

Hope it doesnt continue but if you are worried its probably not a bad idea to get your levels checked

I've been on lithium only four days. This is the first day I've had nausea. The only other side effect is drowsiness. I have to wait until I've taken the lithium a week to get my level checked.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I've been on lithium only four days. This is the first day I've had nausea. The only other side effect is drowsiness. I have to wait until I've taken the lithium a week to get my level checked.

Ok well I would definitely say dont worry You will get your levels checked soon and be sure but I had a lot of both of those in the beginning with the stomach issues unfortunately lasting pretty long. My stomach had issues before I started it as well though plus I know wellbutrin makes me sick too as that happened the other time I was on it so Im sure the side effect was increased and took longer to go away than it would have otherwise

[wildflowerchild25]

Still haven’t heard from that guy. I guess I should just stop hoping he will text. He’s obviously not going to. I hate when guys ghost though. Like just tell me you’re not interested anymore so I don’t have to do this wondering thing. Oh well.

I had a good day at work today. Didn’t want to get out of bed but that’s just because I got to sleep in for four days. I had trouble sleeping last night but I attribute that to sleeping so late in the morning. I should be fine tonight.

I had a physical scheduled for today but I skipped it. I really didn’t feel like sitting around a doctor’s office. Plus I’ve gained weight since my last one and I know he’d have something to say about that. And besides, I just had one six months ago. It’s supposed to be annual not biannual. I’ll go again in May.

Just gonna have tuna sandwiches for dinner tonight. My chicken thighs aren’t thawed yet. Forgot to take them out in time.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by giddykitty

Speaking of wanting to cancel appointments, I'm not sure if I want to keep my therapy appointment tomorrow because I'm afraid it could be one of my bad period days, you know, the one day a month where i'm in so much pain I don't get out of bed. (I feel like a broken record on this, but maybe I haven't said it enough on this site.) Anyway, so I'm not sure if that day will be tomorrow and I am stressing about having to make this decision to cancel or not. The other problem is that I'll have to likely cancel or reschedule next week's therapy too. I'm starting to feel like giving up on therapy altogether, this DBT therapy, because I don't know if I'm advancing quick enough, making enough progress. Sigh

I was also stressed today because I had to make a meal that took a bit of concentration. Of course it ended up better than I'd feared, but I think I was so anxious I was going over and over it prior and that prepped me. I'm exhausted though.

Just to catch up, last week I saw my primary care doctor after a long time. We talked about a LOT of stuff. I don't even know what to share, except that he seems convinced that my health issues are causing my mood issues and that one day we might change my meds accordingly. Oh it's another stressor. I know I'm in good hands with him, but his practice is kinda far from home.

I fell apart last week making tacos and rice. Rice ended up unedible. Sometimes, if you don't laugh about it, you cry. Most of the time, I cannot cook anything that requires much concentration. I have just one go-to easy recipe I've been cooking since high school (chili & cornbread). I know the measurements, cook times, oven temperature for the bread. I can cook that on auto-pilot. Anything else is up in the air. Even though I have a rice cooker, my success rate with it is about 2 out of 3 times, better than the 1 out of 10 I started with. And it's usually not a total flop; I just have to add water & cook more or cook more to cook the moisture out. But the stupid thing goes through a 10 minute process before restarting. If I manage to make cheese quesadillas with a quesadilla maker, it's a miracle. Last time I tried, I put down one tortilla and cheese and closed the device, not topping it with the 2nd tortillas first I often feel like I am just a total airhead.

God, there used to be a time I could cook this pasta crab casserole, a million things going on at once or make vegetarian lasagna with tofu (you never noticed the tofu), but the recipe was complicated. I don't know if I could even concentrate enough to bake cookies.

Sorry about the issues going on healthwise. Waiting on doctor's appointments and test results is just the pits.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I've been on lithium only four days. This is the first day I've had nausea. The only other side effect is drowsiness. I have to wait until I've taken the lithium a week to get my level checked.

Hopefully things go well. I hope the nausea goes away.

[liveforsummer]

I wish everyone a good day

[Blueberrybook]

I'm tired now, but I've been running around all day. I had to get my daughter to school early today for a tryout for a math competition team. And I had to get groceries. Ugh, I hate grocery shopping. I am trying to shop more at Aldi since a lot of things are cheaper there, especially produce, canned goods, pasta, rice, but since it's smaller and the way they arrange the displays are usually not super prominent, it takes me awhile to find stuff (plus I have to find recipes 2 picky eaters will be willing to try to eat). Then, I have to get whatever they did not have at Aldi at Super Wal-mart, which I totally hate shopping at, but pretty much it's the next cheapest store, except one other near me but they tend to be heavy on items of interest for Latino cooking and products from Mexico, so there will also be something they do not have either. While I was shopping, I got a text I had 2 prescriptions ready, so I had to get those.

Put away groceries, prepped veggies, which I hate, but later it does make life easier. Cats wanted to be fed, had laundry to fold, one of my crazy cats kept jumping on top of my folded towel pile, knocking it down, then she laid down in my T-shirt drawer and wouldn't budge for the longest time. Not sure what is going on with her lately; it is like she has hit a second kittenhood or something.

Finally had lunch and watched a show recorded on the DVR. Nice to take a breather.

Just worn out now, some of my back muscles are spasming, so I will probably have to take some tizanidine (tends to make me sleepy though like most of my meds, I can force myself to stay awake when I take it). It's gray outside, wind blowing hard, ugh, it does not look like fun weather to stand outside the school to pick up my daughter. It is really going to be miserable as the area where the parents wait is prone to wind drafts, even when it is not that windy nearby. Temperatures are falling along with it being extremely windy. They have actually issued a wind warning affecting the inland areas, not just the ocean and beach areas. Tomorrow it will feel like winter here as they are predicting lows in the upper 30s. I am not a cold weather person and hope it warms up again soon.

I guess now I've got my groceries, I can hibernate...well, except for the T appointment tomorrow. I think I need to come up with a plan to survive the holidays combined with my daughter's birthday (Dec. 14). I am nervous about H too. He is coming up on the 1 year anniversary of his mom's passing. I was so lucky to have such a wonderful mother-in-law through 14 years of marriage and through my super long engagement period. I couldn't just plan a wedding, it didn't seem fun to me, so H & I finally eloped, and I do not regret that decision a bit. Even I tear up about certain things that remind me of MIL, and I worry H will find it difficult. He tends to keep all his emotions bottled up inside, and I don't think that is good for him, but a lot of men are that way, I think.

Hypergraphia again...hard to control it, sorry about that.

[Blueberrybook]

Daughter's math teacher called again. Apparently, my daughter has been trying to glitch the computer math program (instead of working ahead once she has the concept) and thinking it is hilarious. She's playing an online game a lot now where the players purposely find glitches in the game and post it in the chat box for all to try. But how on earth to get her to behave on the school computer math program?! This went on even when the teacher did her work right behind her.

My daughter is GT and does get bored often in school as she will catch onto concepts quickly, and they do not really have classes for the GT or high achieving students until elementary school is over, and the students are in the 6th grade school. Plus, the teachers are under so much stress to have their students perform well on the state standardized test that they are required to teach things again and again, using different strategies, some which are beyond puzzling and had me thinking "Why don't they just teach kids to multiply 2 and 3 digit numbers the standard way?"

Hopefully, H can talk to my daughter. I told the teacher to maybe ask the school counselor if she had some ideas that might work. I know school is very boring for my daughter (has been since 3rd grade, when the state standardized tests started), but it's not like she can just stay home. And there is no way I could homeschool her or that she could do online school. Also, she was so slow to play with other kids her own age and make friends, that H and I both feel the social aspect of school is important, even when it is not fun, like dealing with a "frenemy".

Third phone call from the math teacher, and the school year is not halfway over yet

[Wild Coyote]

I am so tired of med changes!
It's been at least 3 months of making weekly changes.

I have 3 doctors who want to make major changes, many of which include careful tapering down and increasing a new med. I have explained that it's just too much to have them all doing this at once!

I need to be able to discern which med is doing what.

I am not allowing more changes until after the holidays. If it's emergent, I will do it, but otherwise, talk to me about changes after Jan. 2nd, when my deductible is sky high! Cannot win where health care is concerned. It's just way too expensive!

Love to All!

WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am so tired of med changes!

It's been at least 3 months of making weekly changes.


I have 3 doctors who want to make major changes, many of which include careful tapering down and increasing a new med. I have explained that it's just too much to have them all doing this at once!


I need to be able to discern which med is doing what.


I am not allowing more changes until after the holidays. If it's emergent, I will do it, but otherwise, talk to me about changes after Jan. 2nd, when my deductible is sky high! Cannot win where health care is concerned. It's just way too expensive!


Love to All!



WC

I’m so sorry you have to go through all this.

Good for you standing up and not letting anyone treat you like a revolving lab rat !!

One med at a time is all that can be done and should be done.

Has you sleep improved ?

Hugs my friend

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

I’m so sorry you have to go through all this.

Good for you standing up and not letting anyone treat you like a revolving lab rat !!

One med at a time is all that can be done and should be done.

Has you sleep improved ?

Hugs my friend

Thanks, ~Christina!
My sleep is still very wonky.
The sleep doc is appealing to my insurer (CIGNA) for them to allow a sleep study in the sleep lab. Once he hears from them, I will hear from him. If it's a go, we will schedule the sleep study.


WC

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Faltering

I've been on lithium only four days. This is the first day I've had nausea. The only other side effect is drowsiness. I have to wait until I've taken the lithium a week to get my level checked.

Did your Pdoc tell you to increase your fluid intake by a lot?

[Faltering]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Did your Pdoc tell you to increase your fluid intake by a lot?

He didn't tell me anything about lithium, but I've read about it. I drink a lot of water throughout the day.

[Moose72]

Still depressed. Sleeping all day. Dreams are more interesting than my life. Plus with my cpap i can sleep with my head under the covers. No judo no church no choir. I just cant get out. Plus i have to call pdoc because my hand has a tremor now.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Still depressed. Sleeping all day. Dreams are more interesting than my life. Plus with my cpap i can sleep with my head under the covers. No judo no church no choir. I just cant get out. Plus i have to call pdoc because my hand has a tremor now.

Sorry your feeling so depressed

Can you bribe yourself to get out ??

“ go out to get some kind of yummy drink at Starbucks “

Call a friend and meet for lunch ?

You always feel better after you do choir and especially Judo even when you first have to drag yourself there

Try and push yourself out tomorrow if fo nothing other than take a walk.

Hang in there

[TheSeaCat]

Today was alright; I woke up a little bit depressed I haven't slept alone in a while. I know kitty was there but it just isn't the same as a man. I guess I got so used to him snore/wheezing in my ear. I didn't fall asleep much before 3am last night, and then I had to be up at 7. It was weird getting ready alone, I got so used to his alarm and my alarm going off that it's weird just having one. I ended up not wanting to eat breakfast at home and grabbing something on the way to work; along with coffee I didn't need.

Work was alright, I'm getting the hang of referrals but managing a practice is a whole different ballgame. My boss emailed me the credentials of all the medical staff, I felt like a stalker reading them. I know it's my job, but it just felt so weird. I guess this just proves I've got a little longer to go before I understand all it takes to manage a practice.

The PA and I did lunch together, he's really good about talking my anxiety down a few notches. I have exactly a week before I see Cardiologist and I am massively terrified my brain keeps coming up with zebra diagnosis's. I decided to let him come along, I just don't want to be alone. I know realistically all he is going to do is probably order a laundry list of tests, but still my brain keeps coming up with anxiety to the situation.

Currently waiting for my first of four therapy sessions this week; I'll let you all know how this goes.

Hugs to everyone

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am so tired of med changes!
It's been at least 3 months of making weekly changes.

I have 3 doctors who want to make major changes, many of which include careful tapering down and increasing a new med. I have explained that it's just too much to have them all doing this at once!

I need to be able to discern which med is doing what.

I am not allowing more changes until after the holidays. If it's emergent, I will do it, but otherwise, talk to me about changes after Jan. 2nd, when my deductible is sky high! Cannot win where health care is concerned. It's just way too expensive!

Love to All!


WC

Sorry about med changes. Unfortunately, I have them much more than I like. I did have a 6 month stable period once; I'd love to get back to that. I definitely agree it is better to only change one thing at once. It gets very frustrating.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Today was alright; I woke up a little bit depressed I haven't slept alone in a while. I know kitty was there but it just isn't the same as a man. I guess I got so used to him snore/wheezing in my ear. I didn't fall asleep much before 3am last night, and then I had to be up at 7. It was weird getting ready alone, I got so used to his alarm and my alarm going off that it's weird just having one. I ended up not wanting to eat breakfast at home and grabbing something on the way to work; along with coffee I didn't need.

Work was alright, I'm getting the hang of referrals but managing a practice is a whole different ballgame. My boss emailed me the credentials of all the medical staff, I felt like a stalker reading them. I know it's my job, but it just felt so weird. I guess this just proves I've got a little longer to go before I understand all it takes to manage a practice.

The PA and I did lunch together, he's really good about talking my anxiety down a few notches. I have exactly a week before I see Cardiologist and I am massively terrified my brain keeps coming up with zebra diagnosis's. I decided to let him come along, I just don't want to be alone. I know realistically all he is going to do is probably order a laundry list of tests, but still my brain keeps coming up with anxiety to the situation.

Currently waiting for my first of four therapy sessions this week; I'll let you all know how this goes.

Hugs to everyone

Four therapy sessions in one week! I think that would completely do me in! How do you plan to manage?

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Still depressed. Sleeping all day. Dreams are more interesting than my life. Plus with my cpap i can sleep with my head under the covers. No judo no church no choir. I just cant get out. Plus i have to call pdoc because my hand has a tremor now.

Sorry about your depression. I don't know, it seems like when I'm on meds I almost never remember my dreams. Occasionally, I will have one I remember but it's few and far between and usually something mundane like I have to take a final exam in a subject I am not good at and completely forgot to study for the test. Even my boring life is more interesting than that!

Are you not going to judo & choir because of being depressed? If so, can you motivate yourself to go to one session of either of those? It seemed like you were pretty happy when you were doing judo.

I'm sorry about the tremor. Do you suspect a specific med? Wellbutrin gives me hand tremors (first go around on it was in grad school), but thankfully, they always stop shortly after I stop the med.

I hope you start feeling better

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Sorry your feeling so depressed

Can you bribe yourself to get out ??

“ go out to get some kind of yummy drink at Starbucks “

Call a friend and meet for lunch ?

You always feel better after you do choir and especially Judo even when you first have to drag yourself there

Try and push yourself out tomorrow if fo nothing other than take a walk.

Hang in there

Those seem difficult but ill try.