[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Second round of the nasty drink. 6:00 am.

I hope you are doing okay.
I've forgotten the time of your procedure today.
I am thinking of you.
I hope all goes well!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Wander

Saw my pdoc this afternoon nearly two weeks after discharge. I came out of hospital like a rocket, caught up with heaps of friends and couldn't sit still without getting bored. Since Tuesday last week I have crashed and its only getting worse and heading towards severely depressed again with SI. Today I lay in bed listening to music until my appointment at 3pm. I didn't even eat.

My pdoc is having me get a lithium level taken tomorrow morning and having it urgently sent to him so he can send me the results tomorrow afternoon and adjust my dose if needed. I see him next Tuesday and he is talking med changed which worries me as I have tried just about everything that doesn't cause major weight gain. He also talked about putting me back in hospital if I worsen as my thoughts are starting to get weird and dangerous.

I have been off work for months. I am broke and I want my life back. Trying to be hopeful and meditate to bring peace but despair is creeping in.

I am sorry you are having a difficult time.
I hope your lithium level is okay.
I hope the despair dissipates.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blue_Bird

Hey, haven't checked in to this thread or part of the forum for a few years. I have schizoaffective disorder bipolar type. My mood has been pretty good the past few days I was experiencing a lot of ups and downs for awhile . I had like 2 months of mania, 1 month of depression, and it just kind of continued alternating like that for awhile. Part of it being stress, part of it from missing my meds and also having a terribly sleep routine. I'm trying to get into a good schedule with sleep, it's very difficult to regulate. Sometimes I'm sleeping 12-16 hours a day other times I'm not sleeping at all or only a couple hours. I slept 3 and a half hours last night but feel alright

Hi Blue_Bird,
Welcome back!

WC

I'm stressed. I'm still hearing voices even after taking my clozaril as prescribed at the target dose (that's making me sleep too much) and doing ECT regularly. I'm having SH urges. Recovery seems impossible.

[liveforsummer]

I doing ok. Works going ok so a plus there.
Have a good Monday

[pirilin]

Went a boat show yesterday. To suffer. I don't have the money for what I want.
At least I have the brochure. Hahaha.
And a lot of hope of find a two year old used with the habitual 40% depreciation.
Dream on. It's free.

[Blueberrybook]

I didn't sleep well last night. Woke at 2:30 AM, and that was pretty much it. Went running a lot, started to rain toward the end of the run, the rain was not too bad though. Now, it's raining more.

I need a better day today, but I am already feeling anxious and on edge. Have no clue which way my mood is heading.

Mixed really sucks

[nikon]

i haven't posted in this thread before but have lurked for a while. hi!
i've got a mood disorder, anxiety and a variety of other issues such as addiction etc.

today my mood has been relatively good but i've been sleepy all the time and slept a lot. about a week ago i stopped taking one of my meds (with dr's agreement) and i thought it would make me more awake and more anxious, but instead i've got more and more sleepy. today i've read a book quite a bit, which is great because i haven't been able to read for months. i'm going back to work tomorrow after having been in the psych ward a couple of weeks ago, and am a little bit nervous. i'm not great at interacting with people, and that's all work is unfortunately. sometimes i think i should look for a new job, but i don't like new things either

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I hope you are doing okay.
I've forgotten the time of your procedure today.
I am thinking of you.
I hope all goes well!

WC

Its not. i shouldve been there by now but i got confused and accidentally took my blood thinner. I called a nurse who called the dr and he said no go so here i am planning lunch for a real meal at least but other than that the prep went well.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by spikes

I'm stressed. I'm still hearing voices even after taking my clozaril as prescribed at the target dose (that's making me sleep too much) and doing ECT regularly. I'm having SH urges. Recovery seems impossible.

Are the voices scaring you or are they just annoying?

Originally Posted by ~Christina

Hope your not coming down with something , it can blast right past you !!!

Force fluids and get as much sleep as possible.

Glad you see your Pdoc this week.

Thanks, Christina. Alas, it definitely turned out to be something. Fever, terrible body aches, swollen glands, stuffy, sneezing, NO energy, just... UGH! It's been awhile since having such a thing. I called into work. Thawing some orange juice. Have been downing broth, tea and water. Just wiped out, and with that "hit by a truck" feeling. Sitting up a few minutes just to get some light box time in. (Must keep from tanking!!) Then it's back over to the bed, where I will DEFINITELY be staying!

The sooner this is gone, the better!

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Thanks, Christina. Alas, it definitely turned out to be something. Fever, terrible body aches, swollen glands, stuffy, sneezing, NO energy, just... UGH! It's been awhile since having such a thing. I called into work. Thawing some orange juice. Have been downing broth, tea and water. Just wiped out, and with that "hit by a truck" feeling. Sitting up a few minutes just to get some light box time in. (Must keep from tanking!!) Then it's back over to the bed, where I will DEFINITELY be staying!

The sooner this is gone, the better!

Yucky! Be good to youtself. When i had the flu a number of years ago i just watched dvds oin bed.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Thanks, Christina. Alas, it definitely turned out to be something. Fever, terrible body aches, swollen glands, stuffy, sneezing, NO energy, just... UGH! It's been awhile since having such a thing. I called into work. Thawing some orange juice. Have been downing broth, tea and water. Just wiped out, and with that "hit by a truck" feeling. Sitting up a few minutes just to get some light box time in. (Must keep from tanking!!) Then it's back over to the bed, where I will DEFINITELY be staying!

The sooner this is gone, the better!

I’m sorry you’re sick. Is it the flu? If you get to the doc soon enough, maybe they could give you Tamiflu?

[TheSeaCat]

Cardiologist went well, I am now back at my office eating Burger King with the super sweet PA. He’s been threatened if he drops lettuce it’s the last time he’ll be allowed in my office. He and I also wore the same color shirt today so we look like twins. The nurse and doc both thought we were a couple, granted with how he has been staring I think they aren’t too far off. I’m feeling some things that I shouldn’t be feeling.

I almost had a panic attack in the waiting room I was so glad to have him by my side, even though I really had nothing to worry about. The Cardiologist was really good looking and had a pretty accent too. I’m pretty sure had I know this I could have gone alone. Granted I was really greatful for his hand. He even got me to laugh once we got back to the room he sat where he’s used to sitting and the nurse and I both laughed when he said force of habit.

Anyway I have Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia, please laugh at the name I know I did. I am now on a Beta Blocker, hey look another pill.

I also have to go get a Holter Monitor and an Echocardiogram sometime next week.

I’m also on my phone so expect a bigger update later tonight once I get off work.

Hugs to everyone

[Daonnachd]

I'm working on my dad's obituary and other stuff related to his death today. Lots to do. It's got to be all business. I'm seeing my T this afternoon though, so she will help some of the processing of both my mum's and da's passing.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

Thanks, Christina. Alas, it definitely turned out to be something. Fever, terrible body aches, swollen glands, stuffy, sneezing, NO energy, just... UGH! It's been awhile since having such a thing. I called into work. Thawing some orange juice. Have been downing broth, tea and water. Just wiped out, and with that "hit by a truck" feeling. Sitting up a few minutes just to get some light box time in. (Must keep from tanking!!) Then it's back over to the bed, where I will DEFINITELY be staying!

The sooner this is gone, the better!

I am sorry you are not feeling well!
I hope this is not the flu and you recover quickly.
Please take good care!
Thinking of you.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Daonnachd

I'm working on my dad's obituary and other stuff related to his death today. Lots to do. It's got to be all business. I'm seeing my T this afternoon though, so she will help some of the processing of both my mum's and da's passing.

Much love to you during this very challenging time.


WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by TheSeaCat

Cardiologist went well, I am now back at my office eating Burger King with the super sweet PA. He’s been threatened if he drops lettuce it’s the last time he’ll be allowed in my office. He and I also wore the same color shirt today so we look like twins. The nurse and doc both thought we were a couple, granted with how he has been staring I think they aren’t too far off. I’m feeling some things that I shouldn’t be feeling.

I almost had a panic attack in the waiting room I was so glad to have him by my side, even though I really had nothing to worry about. The Cardiologist was really good looking and had a pretty accent too. I’m pretty sure had I know this I could have gone alone. Granted I was really greatful for his hand. He even got me to laugh once we got back to the room he sat where he’s used to sitting and the nurse and I both laughed when he said force of habit.

Anyway I have Inappropriate Sinus Tachycardia, please laugh at the name I know I did. I am now on a Beta Blocker, hey look another pill.

I also have to go get a Holter Monitor and an Echocardiogram sometime next week.

I’m also on my phone so expect a bigger update later tonight once I get off work.

Hugs to everyone

Thanks for the update!
So glad the PA could go with you!
I hope you have found the cardiologist helpful.
Looking forward to your bigger update.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by nikon

i haven't posted in this thread before but have lurked for a while. hi!
i've got a mood disorder, anxiety and a variety of other issues such as addiction etc.

today my mood has been relatively good but i've been sleepy all the time and slept a lot. about a week ago i stopped taking one of my meds (with dr's agreement) and i thought it would make me more awake and more anxious, but instead i've got more and more sleepy. today i've read a book quite a bit, which is great because i haven't been able to read for months. i'm going back to work tomorrow after having been in the psych ward a couple of weeks ago, and am a little bit nervous. i'm not great at interacting with people, and that's all work is unfortunately. sometimes i think i should look for a new job, but i don't like new things either

Welcome Nikon!

It's great to have you posting with us!

I hope the return to work will go well.
Please keep us posted?

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by liveforsummer

I doing ok. Works going ok so a plus there.
Have a good Monday

It's a treat to have you posting with us!
So glad your Monday is going okay!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by spikes

I'm stressed. I'm still hearing voices even after taking my clozaril as prescribed at the target dose (that's making me sleep too much) and doing ECT regularly. I'm having SH urges. Recovery seems impossible.

It may feel all too impossible right now. Please don't give up! It is likely to get better and/or more easily managed in time.
Is something stressing you?
Have you talked with your pdoc?
Please stay safe.

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Its not. i shouldve been there by now but i got confused and accidentally took my blood thinner. I called a nurse who called the dr and he said no go so here i am planning lunch for a real meal at least but other than that the prep went well.

Bummer!

WC

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

I didn't sleep well last night. Woke at 2:30 AM, and that was pretty much it. Went running a lot, started to rain toward the end of the run, the rain was not too bad though. Now, it's raining more.

I need a better day today, but I am already feeling anxious and on edge. Have no clue which way my mood is heading.

Mixed really sucks

I am sorry you could not get more sleep.
I hope you have a better afternoon.

WC

[Scooter9]

I'm really sorry for your loss, Daonnachd. I was telling my wife of your losses and she felt so bad for you too.

I started a new job a couple of weeks ago. They use a hoteling system so that means I have a different desk every day. It's good and bad.

Good because I sometimes get nice window seats. Bad because you never know who you'll end up sitting with for the day. Like today, I'm next to a dude that has major body odor!

My mouth sores from the Modafinil are healing and I'm keeping an eye on it...I hope that'll end on it's own.

I'm still depressed but I'm managing. Starbucks and life's daily distractions to the rescue.

[Blue_Bird]

I took a nice nap which helped since I only slept like 3 hours last night. Just went for a walk, I like taking walks when it's cold out, especially when there's snow. It's refreshing and relieves anxiety, gets me out of my head.

I'm very excited about Thanksgiving. It will be a challenge with the eating disorder, but I think it will go okay