[nikon]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Pretty good day. Hand can be fixed with another surgery and continued physical therapy. With the other, the biopsies came back benign. No pre cancer like before. Much relieved tonight.

Hugs to all.

yay! sorry to hear you need more surgery, but that's good news otherwise

I don't know how I'm doing. I just hope the parking lot is paved. I'm sick of losing things.

[Blueberrybook]

I slept in again today. I am pretty certain I set the alarm last night, so I must have turned it off in my sleep. Though I did keep my night guard in last night (around half the time, I remove it in my sleep, you've got to use 2 hands and everything, but I never remember removing it when I do). I need to keep that night guard in though, to prevent breaking off so many teeth & needing so many crowns. You win some, you lose some.

Got up too late to run as H has to work on a fence to hide a petty violation to satisfy the HOA, and a couple of guys from the HOA are coming over to help him. I think his presentation to the HOA board split the board decision which is why they offered to have some people from the HOA come to help if H wanted. H said yes because he figures if HOA people helped build this fence, the HOA will not complain about the outcome.

I see the T this afternoon. Think we're doing deep breathing.

I feel better than yesterday, more stable mood-wise, if that makes sense?

I see the pdoc tomorrow. I actually think he may keep my meds the same for a change. I don't think I have been doing too badly these last 2 weeks.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by sonjaward809

I’m back after a few months of a hiatus!! It’s been a rough year overall for me, but I’m trying to stay positive. I just got out of an abusive relationship w/ what I thought was the love of my life She was verbally, mentally and physically abusive towards me from the start but I tried my best to stick it out and see if I could get her to tone down on how she treated me. But it continued. I finally got away from her physically a few months ago but we remained together. Well we have been off and on since May 5th of this year. We had dated for 1-2 years when we were younger around 17-18 years old but I had broke up to her for lying to me about having a heart attack. She told me this go around that she lied about it because she had really been hanging out with an ex. She would tell me I’m “too sensitive, a drama queen, looking for attention, showing out for others” almost like everyday. I was “disloyal” if I ever told anybody what was really going on behind closed doors. It was a very depressing and stressful relationship to be in PERIOD. I officially ended things 3-4 days ago and now am feeling bad but at the same time it was too much, I simply couldn’t do it anymore. I was hospitalized last week for 5 days for suicidal ideations. She literally broke my soul man, that’s how it feels. Cause the whole time she’s saying she loves me, wants kids and marriage but get treated me worse than a dog on the street. She even told me I could kill myself knowing my brother had committed sui this past Christmas and knowing that I myself have attempted quite a few times as well. So that cut deep My MRI for my spine is finally getting finished up, the doctors office has been messing up on my paperwork for almost 2 months now * I really am getting depressed again && just trying to fight it. I don’t wanna go back IP. That would be 3x this year alone if I do It feels like my life has been in shambles since my grandma passed back in November. Right now I just started a job, at a little convenience store. I’m having to cut back on my hours and how long I can work a shift. My back can only hold up for about 4-5 hours. I’m frustrated that I’m in constant pain, it’s been that way for 3 years now following a wreck and I’m just NOW gonna get to see what is wrong with my back * The DR is thinking a herniated disc, but it would be in my upper back which is rare and a hard area to herniate. So I’m hoping it’s not that but really I just want answers. I want to know and get it fixed so I can at least attempt to work like normal people do. My bipolar has been taking its toll on me as well. Some days I’m lacking energy so bad that I don’t want to get out of bed. I’m struggling to motivate myself to do things too. I’m just trying my hardest but it feels like I keep getting knocked 10 steps back every time I try to peruse something

I’m so glad you could break free , it’s sooo hard but it will get better. I’m sorry you lost your brother I guess remember his loss if you start heading in that direction mentally yourself.

I feel either good or bad relationships we learn from. You can now move forward into a more healthy loving relationship , she sounds narcissistic and maybe Borderline ? Oh just a really shyttty human being.

Keep calling and calling about your MRI being done and having some answers finally.

Do you have anything to get some relief from your pain?

Pain and Bipolar seem to go hand in hand always one or the other but mostly both, I understand it so well.

I know you don’t want to go back IP , but if you need it at least it’s there

[Blueberrybook]

OMG, this university H keeps interviewing at and not getting a position for is going to be the undoing of me yet.

Now he has been contacted by the industrial engineering department; he had been interviewing for mechanical engineering. They asked for his 3 references ASAP last week, he told me this morning they possibly will interview him tomorrow (if they can get the critical people there, with it being so close to Thanksgiving). If not tomorrow, they will be interviewing him later, Friday or next week. They have been dangling a job in front of him and taking it away since last spring.

Hope, then no hope, then hope again, then no hope.

It's very hard.

[Moose72]

Do you ever get tired of yourself? I am. Its the same thought patterns the same reactions to things. I feel like im tired of being me. And especially when it comes to my bipolar symptoms. Same thing you know? Maybe thats why I sort of welcome the hallucinations: they are out of the ordinary.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Do you ever get tired of yourself? I am. Its the same thought patterns the same reactions to things. I feel like im tired of being me. And especially when it comes to my bipolar symptoms. Same thing you know? Maybe thats why I sort of welcome the hallucinations: they are out of the ordinary.

I was just saying the other day Im tired of Me !

[~Christina]

Didnt sleep well last night had a heavy chest.. Odd for my normally well treated Asthma..Maybe from my Flu shot yesterday???? Id rather have a bit of a heavy chest than the chance of full blown Flu..... Been there done that and bought the Tshirt .

So I dusted off my Laptop for the first time in months !!! I normally use Tapatalk on here..... SO this looooooks so weird to me lol

Feeling cranky and twitchy today.

[Miss Laura]

Home after a few days away in a cottage with my parents and Sister. Was lovely we took a long drive through the north of Scotland. Took my Mum on a trip down memory lane she was delighted. The cottage was cute and I now want a wee cottage of my own lol.

My mood has been up and down I'm so drained and tired all the time. But I'm mildly manic and mildly depressed at the same time. I want to sleep all the time when when I am wide awake

[Nammu]

A wee cottage in Scotland sounds perfect

[Wild Coyote]

I am still not feeling well. It's very frustrating!

Trying to plug away at tasks which need to be done for Thanksgiving. Company arrives tomorrow, already.

This is sooooo not my idea of a good time this year. I would deeply appreciate it if someone else would host. Yet, that is not going to happen.

So I will keep on keeping on!

Love to all!

[wildflowerchild25]

Still four hours to go to Tennessee. I’m ready to snap lol. I need to get out of this car! My son is driving me crazy because he’s bored. I can’t wait until we get there.

Hope everyone’s day is going acceptably well!

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am still not feeling well. It's very frustrating!


Trying to plug away at tasks which need to be done for Thanksgiving. Company arrives tomorrow, already.


This is sooooo not my idea of a good time this year. I would deeply appreciate it if someone else would host. Yet, that is not going to happen.


So I will keep on keeping on!


Love to all!

Gentle hugs !

Just do what you can manage

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

Still four hours to go to Tennessee. I’m ready to snap lol. I need to get out of this car! My son is driving me crazy because he’s bored. I can’t wait until we get there.


Hope everyone’s day is going acceptably well!

Hope you get there sooner rather than later. Enjoy getting out of that car

[Moose72]

I really do wish two of my children could learn to rinse their dishes right after eating. N2 leaves hot sauce on the edge of plates and lets them dry that way! Ugh! I am so over this.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I really do wish two of my children could learn to rinse their dishes right after eating. N2 leaves hot sauce on the edge of plates and lets them dry that way! Ugh! I am so over this.

Buy paper plates. I did that a lot when my daughter was in the hellish habit

[Blue_Bird]

Mood has been low, sleeping a lot. Very strange because normally around holidays I get super excited nearly to the point of being manic. I'm not upset about the holidays or anything, I'm just not feeling like I normally do

[Lefty Seven]

Best estimates suggest that my friend and spirit animal Anita finally told everyone I'm bipolar. Secret's out.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by Lefty Seven

Best estimates suggest that my friend and spirit animal Anita finally told everyone I'm bipolar. Secret's out.

I try not to tell people. They seem to think we're lunatics on a rampage.

[251turnaround]

Mood still elevated but I'm sleeping well at least. It's possible that I'm going back up but I could just be stable. I'm not really myself lately though.

I had my first musical performance on Sunday by myself and I wasn't in the least bit nervous going up on stage and playing in front of a few dozen people I didn't know. I was kind of cocky in fact. Nothing at all like my normal self.

That's what's worrying me. I like the courage, but I'm kind of a jerk and I'm talking way too much.

[Moose72]

Pdoc called to check up on me. Im to cut my haldol in half. We talked about my therapy session. Apparently i already mentioned this to her. Hmmmm.... Embarrassing.

[TheSeaCat]

Today was a good day work wise, I managed to get a lot of things done today at least this way I can enjoy my four day long weekend. Family and I are going out to eat none of us felt like hosting a big meal so restaurant it is; at least this way I get out of the million and one dishes since that always seemed to fall to me. I just have one more day of work and then a nice long weekend. This weekend I told the cousins I'd take them to see Wreck It Ralph 2 since they did really good on their most recent report card.

I am feeling okay today no anxiety and I got my Beta Blocker filled and took the first dose. I go on December 3rd to have my Echo and to get the 48 hour monitor. Hopefully this medication drops my heart rate and blood pressure. I had salad for lunch, stupid Metabolic Syndrome. Not to mention I don't like exercise since it feels like my heart rate shoots way too high and it hurts.

Hugs to everyone

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I try not to tell people. They seem to think we're lunatics on a rampage.

Had to laugh!

It's just ridiculous, what they think!


WC

[yellow_fleurs]

No especially interesting updates, just stopping in to say hi and give s.

[pirilin]

Good day. La Bruja woke me up with great news.
I've spent 7k in a month. Good riddance. I thought it was more.
She doesn't understand that I'm not spending, but investing.
In happiness!!!. Priceless.

Cheers!.