[AspiringAuthor]

BirdDancer, I am salivating - prune filling, farmers' cheese, poppy seed dressing. Post a picture of your Czech buns! Who gave you your recipe - has it come from your grannies?

[Under*Over]

I hope I dont hallucinate tonight. I havent had a guaranteed hallucination for like a week now. Just vague voices that might be just people who live with me chatting or a tv- so I dont count those because they might be real. So its been more than a week with no big bad ones. Im hoping a week turns into forever but probably not.

Im going to try to hope for that but also try not to be completely crushed if they come back.

[AspiringAuthor]

Feeling better today - not depressed or down.

Zyprexa 7.5 mg, Gabapentin 1200 mg, Topomax 15 mg AM + 15 mg PM

[Wander]

Originally Posted by cashart10

Congratulations on your relationship! I hope it works out for you! Also, your home is beautiful. I cannot imagine swimming in that ocean all of the time. The beach is like Heaven to me and I only go on average once a year.

Wow Thankyou! We married 16 years ago. Divorced ten years ago and have slowly been seeing more of each other over the last year. We have a profound bond that just wouldn’t break. When married we didn’t know we both had Bipolar and any psychological help we did receive was terrible. We had to part to save our lives. Now we are both seeing great psychiatrists and have almost got great med regimes. Basically, we are now a gift to each other and adore each other above anyone else.

Yes, I’m so lucky to live in such an amazing location. I have deep gratitude for it each day.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

Wow Thankyou! We married 16 years ago. Divorced ten years ago and have slowly been seeing more of each other over the last year. We have a profound bond that just wouldn’t break. When married we didn’t know we both had Bipolar and any psychological help we did receive was terrible. We had to part to save our lives. Now we are both seeing great psychiatrists and have almost got great med regimes. Basically, we are now a gift to each other and adore each other above anyone else.


Yes, I’m so lucky to live in such an amazing location. I have deep gratitude for it each day.

I love reading things like this

Well I'm overwhelmed. I have pink eye but the drops I've been using are making my eye worse. Called the pharmacy and he said I probably need a different kind of drops. Going to urgent care tomorrow to see what they can do.

I'm switching from Trileptal to gabapentin and my blood pressure is extremely high. Trileptal can decrease blood pressure too. So I'm going to have to go to the dr.

I have a cat with diabetes and have a vet appt on the 19th just to get blood work done. My sister mickey helps me with expensive vet bills but with my son's bed falling apart and me being so broke this month, we're just not going to be able to do it. My cat is fine. Just blood work is overdue.

They are predicting snow on and off the rest of the month bc we are 20° lower than our normal . It snowed 3 inches today. Just have to accept it.

Then tmi but my period came yesterday. It's 10 days early.

Just ugh!

Hopefully, today will be a little more laid back than the previous few days. We'll likely go to the movies and to the Mooyah hamburger joint for dinner. We have great coupons for there.

Hubby appreciated the buchty (filled sweet buns). I made an Americanized version of the bun dough and an authentic Czech version (two batches). I gave hubby a taste test and he prefers the Czech version, but both are quite good. The main differences are the flour (the Czech version uses authentic Czech hladka flour while the American version uses all-purpose) and the sugar (the Czech version uses more and confectioner's instead of granulated).

Aspiring Author, here's a photo of the Czech recipe batch. It's not my mother-in-law's recipe. She never passed that on, but it's an authentic Czech recipe. Luckily she did pass on some of her recipes.

[pirilin]

2nd rider got to me this morning.

I was not going to call anybody. A friend called, and I let it go.
He called others. Blabbermouth.
Inevitable party tonite.

Hope to keep it at two.

Cheers.

[AspiringAuthor]

Originally Posted by Wander

Wow Thankyou! We married 16 years ago. Divorced ten years ago and have slowly been seeing more of each other over the last year. We have a profound bond that just wouldn’t break. When married we didn’t know we both had Bipolar and any psychological help we did receive was terrible. We had to part to save our lives. Now we are both seeing great psychiatrists and have almost got great med regimes. Basically, we are now a gift to each other and adore each other above anyone else.

Yes, I’m so lucky to live in such an amazing location. I have deep gratitude for it each day.

What a story! Wishing you and him success in building your new relationship as a gift to yourselves and each other.

[AspiringAuthor]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Aspiring Author, here's a photo of the Czech recipe batch. It's not my mother-in-law's recipe. She never passed that on, but it's an authentic Czech recipe. Luckily she did pass on some of her recipes.

I love seeing everything dusted with powdered sugar, so these look super yummy to me. Also, how they are sitting together, like mushrooms after a rainy day.

I have never been to Prague, but it is my dream to go, esp. on Christmas.

Originally Posted by AspiringAuthor

I love seeing everything dusted with powdered sugar, so these look super yummy to me. Also, how they are sitting together, like mushrooms after a rainy day.

I have never been to Prague, but it is my dream to go, esp. on Christmas.

My husband is a native of Prague (Praha). It's quite beautiful there around Christmas because they generally have snow that adds to the romantic look and feel of the place. They also have some different traditions. I have been to Prague many times, but with the exception of my wedding visit in May, 20+ years ago, Christmas was the loveliest time. I had the benefit of spending it with hubby's family. I hope you get to go some day. I'd be happy to provide recommendations for things to see.

[Wander]

8.30am - about to pick up my eleven year old niece to take her snorkeling at my beach for a couple of hours. Really looking forward to spending one on one time with her. It is a beautiful day, not too hot or too windy. Perfect conditions. Lucky.

Haven’t been sleeping more than 3 - 5 hours a night for the last 9 nights. I’m taking my meds and 50 mg Seroquel. The Seroquel knocks me out within 1.5 hours but I wake really early. Wide awake and happy. No chance of more sleep. Might try 100mg tonight to break the cycle. Don’t want to wreck my new found stability with 9 days of mild hypomania. See my pdoc on Tuesday so I’m sure he will have some ideas. This is causing me no distress. Enjoying each day. Just don’t want to mess with the best health I’ve had in like forever.

[winter loneliness]

Sleeping more than usual. Feel like I am getting sick. But then again, How many of us just sleep as a bipolar coping mechanism? I have always have had vivid dreams and they are a lot more exciting than life. Oh and whoever said pot stunts your dreams? Not for me.

[Under*Over]

Originally Posted by winter loneliness

Sleeping more than usual. Feel like I am getting sick. But then again, How many of us just sleep as a bipolar coping mechanism? I have always have had vivid dreams and they are a lot more exciting than life. Oh and whoever said pot stunts your dreams? Not for me.

Sleep is my number one coping mechanism. Hang in there. Best wishes your way

[wildflowerchild25]

I had the best day today. RS spent the night last night so we woke up together. We cooked breakfast together, eggs and pancakes. We took my son to see the LEGO movie. It was chilly but sunny out so we played outside for a couple of hours. Then RS and I went out to a nice belated Valentine’s Day dinner. It was so great. I am so in love with this man. It’s been exactly three months since our first date. It feels like a lifetime. I can’t imagine my life without him.

I just feel like we could actually be a family. He is so good with my son. He doesn’t just pander to him, he’s not afraid to lay down the law. Not as harshly as I do but he shouldn’t have to, he’s not his father. So I appreciate that he puts my son in his place from time to time. My son needs that firmness in his life. Especially from a male role model.

I’m so glad I had such a good day. Made me completely forget my work woes. And now I have two more days off. Tomorrow I’m going to my grandma’s house to hang out and then Monday I’m going down the shore with RS to have some barbecue and spend a nice day together without my son lol. So it’ll be nice.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

As usual after prolonged stress I'm sick. Just a cold but I have asthma and these things generally go to my chest and then the treatments cause agitation and I have to worry about hypomania. Hopefully I'll avoid that part this time. I didn't realize until today that I don't have a 2nd inhaler to use as back-up to my daily one and I usually do. I'll have to call my dr. Monday if I'm not better.

It's been exactly one month since the call that my father was "dying". Oh so much has happened in that month. He should be going to the nursing home this week, although I thought that about last week too. I guess I'll find out Monday when I call the case manager.

Hoping everyone is having the best possible weekend.

[beauflow]

Possible trigger:

*in an upbeat tone* even with a little happy dance
" no one gives a sh** ... no on gives a *****"

earlier it was like a sad realization, but an accepted one... now it's a happy freedom thought, but still some sadness...
Anyways ... I reread my living sister's email to me, .earlier she wrote and it confused me.. a lot of back stories stuff
can't recall the last Time we emailed each other...but refreshed a little as fb let's me see what I wrote in conversation in her profile that's deleted I think, or I'm blocked? She's on a different one, ... not even sure if it's her.

This is the one that our mother claimed to me that "I cut her off"... sister's Message, surprisingly to me, the grammar is off for this sister.... it's a bit up to interpretation with how to read it...
I have been in my funk lately, so I'm "sensitive " a bit.... but yet, if I read another way, taking off my mother's info.. maybe it's genuine?
.. idk .. I'm also at times wondering if it is my sister.

I am confused with how I cut her out,
Dont mean to sound like a teenager but... I didn't delete or block her, have had same # and even gave my addy that I'm still at- I have to laugh now. I had tried to call her last year but the number I had didn't work soooo... I just don't get it. A part of me doesn't care. "Apologize " try to understand, but in the end live life as best as one can.... right?

I'll get by.

[Guiness187055]

Quiet day today just hung out around the house. I think after two years I have finally found a combination of pills to end my two year bout with insomnia. I am praying these keep working because I am sleeping great.

[Tryingtobehappy5]

Had a great day at work. Havent been getting much sleep still and not feeling like tonight will be any different. So dancing and enjoying my shadow's company.

H made me promise to be good when he went to bed, too cold for a walk anyways. He is obviously getting concerned which makes me worry a bit too. Lots of cravings but I will make it through tonight so thats good enough for now. He joked that he should handcuff us together for the night when he went to bed and I wouldnt come. He is so caring and does a great job taking care of me I just wish it wasnt necessary.

Struggling with what is me and what is a symptom. I dont know if I can separate those anymore and its frustrating. Been taking my meds so thats good at least. Chocolate milk instead of water and splitting up the doses to more often during the day seems to have done the trick. No more nausea and gagging

[Moose72]

Me Im just making my friends mad at me, being annoyed by everybody, waking up for a couple hours each night, and VERY into sex. I can hardly get enough.

I just got 9 solid hours of sleep. Gabapentin at bedtime FTW!!

I'd been having problems waking up way too early, so experimenting a bit, and this seemed to be working (maybe that's why it'd been in my nighttime meds(!) ) and last night actually paid good attention to the times.

[Scooter9]

I had to lower my dose of Modafinil again due to mouth sores.

I lived with them for 2 weeks but they wouldn't go away and lowering the dose last time this happened helped for a while.

I'm getting a little worried since I'm now down to 100mg when I was at a high of 300mg just a couple of months ago.

I'll see how it goes with respect to my mood and the sores now.

[AspiringAuthor]

1200 Gabapentin, 7.5 mg Zyprexa, 30 mg Topamax divided, Melatonin

Good mood, some anxiety about work but I am turning it into being proactive and planning carefully as opposed to just brooding. Cleaned up in the kitchen, did a full scope of dental hygiene this morning incl. WaterPik and a Xylitol mouthrinse. Am going to put on sunscreen and go to work.

Talk to my childhood teacher this morning over Skype. Looking forward to having an in-person conversation in less than 2 weeks when I travel back home.

Yesterday, I received my first shipment of Blue Apron's Weight Watcher's Freestyle meals. [ You cook meal packages.] I got to choose between eight choices, though Blue Apron has several others beyond the Weight Watcher's choices. I only elected for two meals for two people, just to try it. It's fun and saves us some calories. I made one today, and it was pretty good. The one I made was best as a weekend lunch option. The second one seems more substantial. I will continue this for at least a few weeks, while the promo discount lasts. Maybe afterwards I will try another outfit that offers a promo discount. As said, I find it fun, and it actually facilitates making meals. I made today's in literally 15 minutes, even though it labeled it as taking 20-30, but I'm an experienced cook.

I promised my therapist I'd submit my French level test to the French language school before I see her on Thursday. I'd better get my butt in gear and prepare to get that done. I have to say that my new therapist clearly seems better able to help me take steps forward again.

[hopeless2015]

Doing pretty good. Got some things done here this weekend and have a pot of chili cooking, I'm hungry lol. Husband made bacon and eggs this morning and we didnt do lunch so early supper it will be.

Hugs to all