[~Christina]

BirdDancer I am so sorry for your loss.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Went out to dinner and a movie last night to distract myself from mourning the separation from my friend and constant companion. Slept all day but I’m rallying...going to the pool and then to another movie. He’ll be so much happier with new adventures and a family to run around with. He made a friend of every body and every pet at the center yesterday He was so happy and excited.

Can’t wait until July 2nd to see my NP.

Warm wishes to all.

I am sorry you are grieving your companion. I hope this gets easier with time. My service dog has been gone approx. 9 years now and I still miss her terribly.

June 2nd is just around the corner. Yet it may feel a bit far away for you?

I do hope you are enjoying the movies! I wish I lived nearby and could go to the movies with you!

Thinking of you!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I'm going out tonight with my friend. Omg- what a whirlwind trying to arrange it! I was going to drive to her new apartment downtown but the parking really sucks. Then I was going to uber it home and have my mom drive me there. Then another friend offered to pick me up after! Said just not to make it 2 am and we're good. Its hot so I changed into shorts. Going to have fancy ramen for dinner. This should be fun- especially after all the planning it took. Not just today but the last 2 weeks.

I hope you have a lot of FUN!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by MidnightManiac

I'm trying to not swing downwards today. It's hard...although it's a beautiful day and I'm grateful fo the su shining and all that, I feel....insignificant and unwanted. By tonight who knows. Might feel all powerful and invulnerable again.

I am sorry you have had a rough day.
I do hope you are able to enjoy your evening.
Keep us posted!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Heading Texas Roadhouse for lunch with family. My Mom is 74 today!! If I can be half the woman she is, I'll be doing good. Shes one hell of of lady.

Hugs to all

Hi hopeless, It's a treat to have you around!
Did you go by motorcycle, perhaps?
Much

So sorry about dear Neruda, BirdDancer. I so enjoyed hearing about him and all his antics especially his playing soccer.

[Nammu]

Oh no. So sorry about your loss Birddancer.

WC I can't even imagine.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh no. So sorry about your loss Birddancer.

WC I can't even imagine.

Thanks, Nammu!
I am still having difficulty fathoming any of it and I have most of the hard evidence right in front of me.
I hope your days have been less humid!? It was very humid here today. I was working on paperwork and it was very soggy!
Hugs to you!

[Blueberrybook]

So sorry, BirdDancer

I had blood work done on Thursday, about 3 weeks after my 2nd iron infusion. The numbers look good so far. In fact, my iron saturation has never been this high in recent memory. I went from 3% to 35% (range 11-50% for normal). No longer anemic but still some days are good, some bad. I am told 6 weeks to feel the full effects of this infusion. I had labs again the first week of September, see the hematologist Sept. 10.

Slept in today, feel like I didn't get much accomplished though I did read some, and I washed all the bedding for our bed in the master bedroom., though that was a lot - sheets, quilt, 2 afghans, 2 throws, a blanket. Also went to urgent care because I stubbed the little toe I always break & the one next to it yesterday morning, and my toes/foot were bruised and painful. Of course, since I took the trouble to go there, they are not broken, just badly bruised, got the RICE advice - rest, ice, compression, elevation. Stupid ulcer, all I can take for pain is Tylenol, which did nothing, and at least the doctor gave me an anti-inflammatory injection (doesn't have to pass through the digestive system), and that is helping a lot.

[sadveiledbride]

Feeling very sad and alone.

[bizi]

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

Feeling very sad and alone.

I am sorry you are lonely...any chance to get out among others?
what are you doing to help yourself?
Do you have a therapist?

bizi

[LadyShadow]

Since yesterday, I have become very bitter. Just in general, toward the world, toward everyone. Stopped doing things that I used to do that benefit other people. I think I am going to start being selfish.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Since yesterday, I have become very bitter. Just in general, toward the world, toward everyone. Stopped doing things that I used to do that benefit other people. I think I am going to start being selfish.

Was there some kind of trigger or event that happened ?

How is your sleep ? That’s usually my first indication that Bipolar is acting up.

I hope you feel better soon

[Moose72]

WC- more hugs. I just can't imagine.

I went to a friend's new apartment on the 13th floor. She had another friend visiting from Ohio. We got real ramen noodle soups for dinner. Her friend needed to rest after so she stayed in the apartment while my friend and I walked to a festival in town. But the music sucked so we walked to a fancy- cheap!- ice cream place and indulged. Walking a lot, I figured, would take care of the ice cream.

[jmariah001]

Not doing so good today. Physically sick on top of being filled with anxiety. Today was supposed to be my second day at a new job. But with me being sick I didn't want risk giving it to someone else. Plus I work around food. Not a good combo. Now I am getting the 3rd degree from my parents for calling off. Now mind you I am almost 39 years old. I am not a child. Would they rather I make someone else sick? My mom said she is disappointed in me. How am I supposed to feel about that? I already feel bad enough. All this just makes me feel worse. I think I will turn my phone off and just ignore things for a bit. I don't live with my parents. My step dad was gonna give me a ride to work today. Otherwise they wouldn't have known I called off. I think I will go lay back down now. This stuff is too stressful.

Originally Posted by whatever2013

So sorry about dear Neruda, BirdDancer. I so enjoyed hearing about him and all his antics especially his playing soccer.

@whatever2013, that's so sweet of you to contactremember such details about our little guy🌺

Thanks again to everyone for your kind words! Today we will go to my father's woods and he will join our last parrot.

[Sunflower123]

I’ve got a busy day planned: my mom, M and I are going to the local market today. The theme is red, white and blueberries. Definitely going to get another huge bouquet of flowers and blueberries. It’s going to be so hot, we’re going to stop by BR for our favorite ice cream then jump in the pool.

Wednesday, M and I are going to an event put on by the symphony where they play by the river and at the end of the concert there is a huge fireworks display set off over the river off one of the three bridges. I haven’t been for years and M has never been. Really looking forward to it.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

I’ve got a busy day planned: my mom, M and I are going to the local market today. The theme is red, white and blueberries. Definitely going to get another huge bouquet of flowers and blueberries. It’s going to be so hot, we’re going to stop by BR for our favorite ice cream then jump in the pool.

Wednesday, M and I are going to an event put on by the symphony where they play by the river and at the end of the concert there is a huge fireworks display set off over the river off one of the three bridges. I haven’t been for years and M has never been. Really looking forward to it.

I hope everyone has a peaceful day.

Wow! This all sounds like FUN!
I am glad you are able to take advantage of these opportunities.
Thinking of you!!!
Enjoy!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by jmariah001

Not doing so good today. Physically sick on top of being filled with anxiety. Today was supposed to be my second day at a new job. But with me being sick I didn't want risk giving it to someone else. Plus I work around food. Not a good combo. Now I am getting the 3rd degree from my parents for calling off. Now mind you I am almost 39 years old. I am not a child. Would they rather I make someone else sick? My mom said she is disappointed in me. How am I supposed to feel about that? I already feel bad enough. All this just makes me feel worse. I think I will turn my phone off and just ignore things for a bit. I don't live with my parents. My step dad was gonna give me a ride to work today. Otherwise they wouldn't have known I called off. I think I will go lay back down now. This stuff is too stressful.

I am sorry you are experiencing stress on top of stress!
I also find parents can go a bit overboard with their adult children. If we can see this as their way of caring/showing their concern, it may make it more tolerable. At the same time, it sounds like they were not validating the fact that you are ill today, which hurts.

How do you typically deal with your anxiety?

I hope you can get some rest and will feel better soon.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

Feeling very sad and alone.

Are you feeling any better today?
I hope so.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

WC- more hugs. I just can't imagine.

I went to a friend's new apartment on the 13th floor. She had another friend visiting from Ohio. We got real ramen noodle soups for dinner. Her friend needed to rest after so she stayed in the apartment while my friend and I walked to a festival in town. But the music sucked so we walked to a fancy- cheap!- ice cream place and indulged. Walking a lot, I figured, would take care of the ice cream.

Am glad you are out having FUN!
Thanks for sharing!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Blueberrybook

So sorry, BirdDancer

I had blood work done on Thursday, about 3 weeks after my 2nd iron infusion. The numbers look good so far. In fact, my iron saturation has never been this high in recent memory. I went from 3% to 35% (range 11-50% for normal). No longer anemic but still some days are good, some bad. I am told 6 weeks to feel the full effects of this infusion. I had labs again the first week of September, see the hematologist Sept. 10.

Slept in today, feel like I didn't get much accomplished though I did read some, and I washed all the bedding for our bed in the master bedroom., though that was a lot - sheets, quilt, 2 afghans, 2 throws, a blanket. Also went to urgent care because I stubbed the little toe I always break & the one next to it yesterday morning, and my toes/foot were bruised and painful. Of course, since I took the trouble to go there, they are not broken, just badly bruised, got the RICE advice - rest, ice, compression, elevation. Stupid ulcer, all I can take for pain is Tylenol, which did nothing, and at least the doctor gave me an anti-inflammatory injection (doesn't have to pass through the digestive system), and that is helping a lot.

I am sorry for all you have been going through.
I am glad you can have the infusions. My aunt has had them recently. She feels much better. I hope you will feel better soon.

I hope your toe recovers quickly.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by LadyShadow

Since yesterday, I have become very bitter. Just in general, toward the world, toward everyone. Stopped doing things that I used to do that benefit other people. I think I am going to start being selfish.

Hi!
I wonder why the change so suddenly?
You have such a wonderful Spirit!

Sometimes, we feel we are selfish, when, in fact, we are simply taking care of ourselves.

Much Love to You, Always!!!

[wildflowerchild25]

RS and I went to a party last night about two hours away. It was his cousin’s wedding celebration since they never had a proper reception. It was fun! I had a couple drinks, nothing too crazy. We left my son with my mom as I didn’t think he’d want to be in the car for four hours round trip, plus we were coming back late. It was a nice time.

The triggering dreams have abated for now. I’m hoping they stop for a long time. I think I’ll always get them but getting them multiple Times a week is wearing. So I hope they’re gone for awhile.

I have to work on my final project for my class but I’m finding my motivation is about zero. It’s due tomorrow so I better get cracking. I’m not as worried about this one as I was about the other one so it’s better. The other one got graded but I’m too scared to look. I will when I turn in my project tomorrow. I also have to take a 96 question final exam for my other class I’m not looking forward to that! I do well on tests though so I should be fine. Although it seems for this class I’ve missed one question on every quiz I’ve taken so I might miss a few. But 96 questions should give me a good chance I’m still getting an A. As long as I didn’t fail the final project.

All
In all things are going well still. Preparing for our party on July 6. Wish my brother could come but I understand them not wanting to be around drinking. I’m just glad he finally came clean and I know it’s not about me.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

RS and I went to a party last night about two hours away. It was his cousin’s wedding celebration since they never had a proper reception. It was fun! I had a couple drinks, nothing too crazy. We left my son with my mom as I didn’t think he’d want to be in the car for four hours round trip, plus we were coming back late. It was a nice time.

The triggering dreams have abated for now. I’m hoping they stop for a long time. I think I’ll always get them but getting them multiple Times a week is wearing. So I hope they’re gone for awhile.

I have to work on my final project for my class but I’m finding my motivation is about zero. It’s due tomorrow so I better get cracking. I’m not as worried about this one as I was about the other one so it’s better. The other one got graded but I’m too scared to look. I will when I turn in my project tomorrow. I also have to take a 96 question final exam for my other class I’m not looking forward to that! I do well on tests though so I should be fine. Although it seems for this class I’ve missed one question on every quiz I’ve taken so I might miss a few. But 96 questions should give me a good chance I’m still getting an A. As long as I didn’t fail the final project.

All
In all things are going well still. Preparing for our party on July 6. Wish my brother could come but I understand them not wanting to be around drinking. I’m just glad he finally came clean and I know it’s not about me.

So glad you and RS have one another! Your time out last night sounds like FUN! I hope your projects and your exam all go well.

The gathering in the 6th also sounds like FUN!

It's always nice to read updates on how life is treating you!