[Scooter9]

I updated one of my books and it went live on Amazon today. I've been working on the book for a month adding new chapters, and revising existing ones.

It's a pretty specialized topic on astronomy so I sell very few of them each month. But it's nice I have made some new online friends through the book based on a shared interest.

I'm working on another astronomy related book too. I'm about 50 pages in, and those pages needed a lot of research, I'm glad they're done. I think this one will be about 100 pages with lots of photos and diagrams. I have been taking lots of photos for this book.

I'm doing this to hopefully spark some motivation that I hope seeps into other areas of my life because I have lost that motivation I used to have due to this depression I'm in these days.

I'm reading everyone's updates and an thinking of all of you!

[Blueberrybook]

Very tired this afternoon. I did curbside grocery pickup this morning but got the timing wrong so that I had to rush to get my daughter to the pediatrician for her well-child exam. She grew 4 inches over the past year. She did very well, considering the last time she had shots she was 4 (so the nurse said). She got 3 vaccines and a finger prick (testing for anemia). She's doing just fine and was amused she's taller than her doctor now; she's in the 89% percentile for height. Probably she'll be a bit sore tomorrow, mild fever maybe.

It's a bit of a drive there and back. The car doesn't have the greatest AC, so it was quite hot, and very bright. I always forget to put sunglasses on though those tend to fog on me in such heat as the car cools some. My eyes are so sensitive to light. Part of it is just having blue eyes, according to the optometrist, but sometimes I get on psych meds that dilate my eyes some, maybe the Wellbutrin. And driving with sun glinting off cars in bright sunlight while hot is just tiring.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by sadveiledbride

It’s not going okay now. I am very sad and In a bad place

I am sorry you have been having a difficult day again today. Are you able to see your pdoc and/or tdoc?

What helps you when you feel this way?

Please keep us updated.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by spikes

Flying high right now! Only been enjoying it for the past hour or so, but I'm all sweaty. I'm trying to calm myself down because I have to go to IOP to see if I can get meds that I don't have today and I don't want to be tossed in IP. IOP is way better than IP. One letter makes a difference ya know. Ya know?

One letter does make a difference! Lol!
I hope you have a soft landing.
Sounds like fun .

[hopeless2015]

Hubby is working tonight so omelet for supper. Yummy, love em! Work tomorrow then off for 5 days...yes!!!

Hugs to all

[Moose72]

My idiotic mush-for-brains teenage son told me he was putting his 2 weeks in at his first ever job tonight. Nothing I could say would deter him. He says he has other things he wants to do- this while at taco bell. I said look at all those people behind the counter- Im sure they'd all rather be somewhere else right now!" Ugh! Children! 😒 we'll see what he actually did when I get him tonight.

I bought a CD today. My other one of the same thing is missing- I only have the case now.

I kept myself fairly busy today planning for an upcoming vacation. Hubby was working from home and will work from home tomorrow, mostly to support me (each other) after our loss of our parrot. I did have to do some very sad tasks, but it wasn't until a little after dinner that the sadness intensified. But I got past it.

Tomorrow I see my therapist. I'll have to tell her about our loss. I'm not sure how I'll be. I like her and find her very helpful, but I am not close to her in any way. I would have preferred to tell my psychiatrist first, but he's already left for his long vacation. He did tell me that if I had anything urgent that I could text him. That was odd. He never offered me to text him ever before. I rarely even call his cell phone number. I just call his main line, when needed. I've never wanted to be the type of patient that calls too much. Also, he knows there is a bit of transference going on. It's been going on for years. No, I won't call or text him. He's on his vacation trying to enjoy himself. The last thing he needs is to hear from his patient that she's grieving the loss of her parrot. Actually, I have no idea what I'd even text him about. I already told him that my medication supply is good. I guess unless I became stranded somewhere far away and needed him to confirm my meds, there's nothing else he should do. He has an emergency psychiatrist his patients can contact. Once several years ago, I actually contacted that doctor. She was not anyone I'd have continued seeing. I guess if I was REALLY very sick, I'd go to the ER.

[Sunflower123]

I dance in the summer rain every chance I get. I’d been waiting for an hour for M who is in Target when it started raining. We are in a remote row so out of the car I came. What fun! How joyful! Different strokes for different folks I guess.

I hope everybody has a peaceful Tuesday.

[sadveiledbride]

Feeling a little better than before but alone with my thoughts... and I wish I didn't take things for granted

I REALLY like my new job!! Today was my first day designing directly with customers. It went really well (ok, one significant mistake in the computer part of things, but...). They loved the designs and I put them together pretty quickly. I love color and design.

The days go by quickly. I don't even bother with the breaks (except lunch, lol) because I get so wrapped up in the projects.

What a difference doing a job that suits me! I am almost deliriously happy with my life right now.

Just wanted to share a good report.

[Moose72]

That's so great, Innerzone! 😀

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I REALLY like my new job!! Today was my first day designing directly with customers. It went really well (ok, one significant mistake in the computer part of things, but...). They loved the designs and I put them together pretty quickly. I love color and design.


The days go by quickly. I don't even bother with the breaks (except lunch, lol) because I get so wrapped up in the projects.


What a difference doing a job that suits me! I am almost deliriously happy with my life right now.


Just wanted to share a good report.

I’m so so so happy that you found something so awesome! New digs , new job that you actually like Wooot woot !!

You deserve it

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by Wander

PTSD has been spiraling out of control. I want to live, and I’m fighting so hard. Still, I’m backed into a corner and overwhelmed beyond belief. My mind is cracking. The last place I want to be is IP. It will only make me feel more trapped and traumatised. With my current presentation I fear my T will want me IP as I’m losing control. He is a good guy and will only want me safe but IP may make things worse. I see him Wednesday. I’m in trouble and he will see it. I will try to play things down but he knows me so well. Everything is falling apart. I don’t know what to do. It is possible I’m about to psychologically snap any minute and then anything could happen. I can’t find the way out which terrifies me. So much going on that I can’t tell. This is impossible.

Ptsd is horrible and tragic, I so get it.

I know you are fighting with everything you have to stay out of IP. But what kind of life are leading staying out of IP?? not much of a good one ?

Going IP is never the goal of anyone of course. Sure you might feel trapped.... But it would be a place you could just” let go “ no matter what happens there you will have support and understanding.

Sometimes it just gets too hard to keep swimming upstream and you need time to rest so you can gear up to fight the battle another day.

Hope you can find some light in the tunnel.

[sadveiledbride]

Back to feeling ****** again, and I'm just stating how things are, I ruin things, I'm rude, I hate how cruel I can be. I want to be constructive in explaining what I want, but I seem to get interrupted. I'm not dedicating this to anyone on P.C at all. just feel particularly ****** tonight.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Scooter9

I updated one of my books and it went live on Amazon today. I've been working on the book for a month adding new chapters, and revising existing ones.

It's a pretty specialized topic on astronomy so I sell very few of them each month. But it's nice I have made some new online friends through the book based on a shared interest.

I'm working on another astronomy related book too. I'm about 50 pages in, and those pages needed a lot of research, I'm glad they're done. I think this one will be about 100 pages with lots of photos and diagrams. I have been taking lots of photos for this book.

I'm doing this to hopefully spark some motivation that I hope seeps into other areas of my life because I have lost that motivation I used to have due to this depression I'm in these days.

I'm reading everyone's updates and an thinking of all of you!

Congratulations! It all sounds very interesting..
I'll bet your books are way over my head?
I am glad you are experiencing success.
So happy for you!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I REALLY like my new job!! Today was my first day designing directly with customers. It went really well (ok, one significant mistake in the computer part of things, but...). They loved the designs and I put them together pretty quickly. I love color and design.

The days go by quickly. I don't even bother with the breaks (except lunch, lol) because I get so wrapped up in the projects.

What a difference doing a job that suits me! I am almost deliriously happy with my life right now.

Just wanted to share a good report.

Fantastic!!!
I am so happy you are happy!!!
Much Love ~

[Nevvy]

I feel like diiiiiiirt.

Did what was suggested and now I feel like a dirt zombie? I hope this gets better with time. Last time it wasn't so bad, I'm getting old.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

I REALLY like my new job!! Today was my first day designing directly with customers. It went really well (ok, one significant mistake in the computer part of things, but...). They loved the designs and I put them together pretty quickly. I love color and design.


The days go by quickly. I don't even bother with the breaks (except lunch, lol) because I get so wrapped up in the projects.


What a difference doing a job that suits me! I am almost deliriously happy with my life right now.


Just wanted to share a good report.

I'm so happy for you iz! Glad that you found something that works for you, it really makes all the difference.

[Scooter9]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Congratulations! It all sounds very interesting..

I'll bet your books are way over my head?

I am glad you are experiencing success.

So happy for you!

Thanks WC!

The book is for beginners and intermediate people but you've gotta be interested in astronomy. It's how to guide for people that want to take their own images of things in the sky including the stars, galaxies, nebulae, planets, the sun and more. I teach a fair bit in it.

My other book about finding happiness despite depression sells a few copies a month, I make enough for a coffee about every 2 weeks lol but I'm just glad people are reading it.

Innerzone, liking one's job is among the luckier things in life. I'm happy for you!

Hubby is working from home again today but will go in tomorrow, then go out to dinner that night with his friend. It will be a bit tough for me being all alone at home without my bird boy. I will try to get out and do some errands. Plus, I need to pack for our long weekend away, and also need to tidy up the house and attend to the gardens. I know being busy helps.

I see my therapist today. She doesn't know about my pet passing away. I'm also going to be talking about possibly quitting my current French instructor. Not an easy session!

[MidnightManiac]

Surprisingly, no irritations at work this week so far. I'm almost shocked.

[MidnightManiac]

Spoke too soon.

I really can't stand working with people. REALLY. I wish I could just...change job. It's not so easy though...not that many job around here.

[tecomsin]

My father died yesterday, on Canada Day. My son enjoyed the fireworks with his friends. I have been quite sad but got out yesterday with a friend. Am going out tomorrow. May stay home today. My sister and brother in law are taking care of all the arrangements.

I edited a bit the obituary she came up with. He treated us so differently, so we would have a different perspective. It is sweet.

[sadveiledbride]

I am feeling a bit blue today and tired, and regretful. I want to be at peace for once.

[Unrigged64072835]

Finished a tank top this morning. Need to clean the machines and fix the pattern. Take a shower and see the dentist. Start something else tomorrow. Doesn’t sound like much but it’s too hot for us to go outside, and I’m enjoying sewing.

Love to all of you. Hope all who are struggling find comfort. Grateful for those who are doing well.