[komodo1971]

Hi everyone,

My name is Robert, or komodo1971 on this board. I just registered here. I might completely flood this board when I'm manic or simply withdraw when I'm depressed; just so you know. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a month or 6 ago, and before that time I was undiagnosed and untreated for years. Looking back, my bipolar issues already started in adolescence, when I was about 18. I struggled for nearly 30 years. In that time I was diagnosed with so many different mental health issues, including but certainly not limited to borderline personality, antisocial personality disorder, PTSD, uni-polar depression and many, many more. The PTSD diagnosis still stands, together with the bipolar type 1 disorder.


I take lithium, aripiprazole and seroquel to stay as stable as possible.


I live in the Netherlands, and I am married. I have a job, but they want to get rid of me due to the fact that I have been ill too much.


Just wanted to say Hi!

Oh god... It's Prime Day, and Target and Best Buy are having sales at the same time too. It makes me want to spend money! I must resist!

I think I'm going to buy a pair of headphones or a headset, though. I need some for work, and it's the perfect time to buy them since they have a bunch on sale. (I have lots of conference calls. At least one a day, but typically a few a day.) I might buy one of those video game headsets since they're cheaper than your average headset for some reason. They just come in funky colors... but who cares! Everyone else at work seemingly has a video game headset anyways.

Otherwise, doing okay. However, I've got A LOT of things to do this week -- running around, catching up on work, etc..

I had a horrible dream that I was IN JAIL. Even worse, I was framed for something I didn't commit, and no one would tell me what I did wrong. On top of that, I spent 18 days in jail already, but apparently the government only counted 9 of those days toward my sentence, and I had 27 more days to go. Then I tried to escape, but my friend from summer camp (this was a girl who I meant when I was like 14) ratted me out and I was re-arrested.. I had tried to get her to escape with me, but she said she only had 2 days left in jail and that she wasn't going to do it. (Turns out she had reported me, as I said.)

[Wild Coyote]

Hello deanny644,

Welcome to the Bipolar Forum at PC.

I hope you will find the support and the information you may be seeking.

I am taking quetiapine fumarate (Seroquel). I take 200mg at bedtime. I also take 25mg as needed. I need it right now; yet, I do not like the fact that I am gaining weight on it. Otherwise, it has been helpful.

Please do make yourself at home here at PC.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Oh god... It's Prime Day, and Target and Best Buy are having sales at the same time too. It makes me want to spend money! I must resist!

I think I'm going to buy a pair of headphones or a headset, though. I need some for work, and it's the perfect time to buy them since they have a bunch on sale. (I have lots of conference calls. At least one a day, but typically a few a day.) I might buy one of those video game headsets since they're cheaper than your average headset for some reason. They just come in funky colors... but who cares! Everyone else at work seemingly has a video game headset anyways.

Otherwise, doing okay. However, I've got A LOT of things to do this week -- running around, catching up on work, etc..

I had a horrible dream that I was IN JAIL. Even worse, I was framed for something I didn't commit, and no one would tell me what I did wrong. On top of that, I spent 18 days in jail already, but apparently the government only counted 9 of those days toward my sentence, and I had 27 more days to go. Then I tried to escape, but my friend from summer camp (this was a girl who I meant when I was like 14) ratted me out and I was re-arrested.. I had tried to get her to escape with me, but she said she only had 2 days left in jail and that she wasn't going to do it. (Turns out she had reported me, as I said.)

Oh no!Don't tell me about the sales!
I'm really not a spender, thankfully. I might take a look anyway.

What an awful dream, Blue!

I hope you find the headset of your choice at an excellent price!
Have a great day!!!

[Wild Coyote]

Good Monday Morning!

I hope everyone has a great day!!!

[Miss Laura]

Feeling great went to see Kylie Minogue last night AMAZING! Paying for standing all night though in agony well worth it though lol

Christina and Wild Coyote, I can definitely relate to having sound sensitivity. Also light sensitivity, to a degree. It actually used to be worse for me, but it's improved over the last few years.

Wild Coyote, I hope you have heard back from your psychiatrist, or will very soon.

I really need to do some self-care today. I've been OK about the very basics, mostly because of vacation and family gatherings, but some have been grossly neglected. When I went to my uncle's funeral service I was wearing a nice black dress. My sister told me that I had tons of dandruff showing. She was right. Umm, need to wash my hair already. The problem with my hair is that I am able to often make it look presentable even without proper care. But obviously, something gives. I don't usually wear black tops.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Christina and Wild Coyote, I can definitely relate to having sound sensitivity. Also light sensitivity, to a degree. It actually used to be worse for me, but it's improved over the last few years.

Wild Coyote, I hope you have heard back from your psychiatrist, or will very soon.

I really need to do some self-care today. I've been OK about the very basics, mostly because of vacation and family gatherings, but some have been grossly neglected. When I went to my uncle's funeral service I was wearing a nice black dress. My sister told me that I had tons of dandruff showing. She was right. Umm, need to wash my hair already. The problem with my hair is that I am able to often make it look presentable even without proper care. But obviously, something gives. I don't usually wear black tops.

Thanks so much!

My pdoc is not seeing people for appointments this week. She is in town. I have left a message as to what I am adjusting and how much. If she feels this is the wrong thing to do, then she can call me and let me know; otherwise, I have already started making the adjustment. I generally don't wait around too long for a response. 9 times out of 10, I have done exactly what she would have done. (I really like her and I feel she is way above average in the med department. She is also a very supportive therapist. At the same time, she does not always check her messages each day/night. I often feel I must make a change before I hear from her. She knows I will often do this.)

I wore a black top last week. I was shocked to see the dandruff when I walked into an appointment. I use special shampoo due to psoriasis. I had run out and was using a substitute. No can do.

I hope you have a good week, Bird Dancer. I imagine you are still feeling quite a bit of pain while grieving the loss of your companion.

Thanks again for your support and your compassion.

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Thanks so much!

My pdoc is not seeing people for appointments this week. She is in town. I have left a message as to what I am adjusting and how much. If she feels this is the wrong thing to do, then she can call me and let me know; otherwise, I have already started making the adjustment. I generally don't wait around too long for a response. 9 times out of 10, I have done exactly what she would have done. (I really like her and I feel she is way above average in the med department. She is also a very supportive therapist. At the same time, she does not always check her messages each day/night. I often feel I must make a change before I hear from her. She knows I will often do this.)

I wore a black top last week. I was shocked to see the dandruff when I walked into an appointment. I use special shampoo due to psoriasis. I had run out and was using a substitute. No can do.

I hope you have a good week, Bird Dancer. I imagine you are still feeling quite a bit of pain while grieving the loss of your companion.

Thanks again for your support and your compassion.

Wild Coyote, I'm very happy to give support, my PC friend!

My psychiatrist and I have had a similar arrangement with dosing. For years, only my Seroquel XR dose was increased or decreased, and it was frequently. On a couple of occasions I decreased it on my own and only told him when I saw him the next time. He sort of gave me a little lecture asking that I at least leave him a message about it to give him a chance to possibly "veto" my decision. If I didn't hear from him, it was OK, just as you seem to imply would be the case for you. I also have "prn" Seroquel and Ativan. Sometimes I use just a dose or two of them, but when actually changing my base meds, he wants to know.

It wasn't long ago that I started a small dose of Latuda. I think given that, he'd now rather me not be hasty about lowering my Seroquel XR. Understandably! He's been on a 6-week vacation up north. Though he has a psychiatrist his patients could call in his absence, he said I could always text him, in certain cases. I wouldn't unless something major happened. I'm hanging in there.

I really like the Latuda. I could be wrong, but I think it's probably helped keep my head at least just above water, despite everything. This may sound strange, but the little dose of Latuda has made me feel "more capable" than I had been for a long time.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Wild Coyote, I'm very happy to give support, my PC friend!

My psychiatrist and I have had a similar arrangement with dosing. For years, only my Seroquel XR dose was increased or decreased, and it was frequently. On a couple of occasions I decreased it on my own and only told him when I saw him the next time. He sort of gave me a little speech asking that I at least leave him a message about it to give him a chance to possibly "veto" my decision. If I didn't hear from him, it was OK, just as you seem to imply would be the case for you. I also have "prn" Seroquel and Ativan. Sometimes I use just a dose or two of them, but when actually changing my base meds, he wants to know.

It wasn't long ago that I started a small dose of Latuda. I think given that, he'd now rather me not be hasty about lowering my Seroquel XR. Understandably! He's been on a 6-week vacation up north. Though he has a psychiatrist his patients could call in his absence, he said I could always text him, in certain cases. I wouldn't unless something major happened. I'm hanging in there.

I really like the Latuda. I could be wrong, but I think it's probably helped keep my head at least just above water, despite everything. This may sound strange, but the little dose of Latuda has made me feel "more capable" than I had been for a long time.

Yes, this is my arrangement with my pdoc, as well.

I had a great response to Latuda, initially. About 3 months later, I was in trouble. (In addition, the Latuda was costing me $400.00 per month with the discount offered through the manufacturer. I'd used some savings because I was so desperate at the time.)

That is when we'd switched to Mirapex for a trial. I have responded well to it and quite quickly, in past (semi-recent) depressive episodes. I am hoping the same is true this time. (So far, Mirapex is very helpful and cheap to buy. Of course, once the manufacturer realizes there is a use in treatment -resistant depression, the price will likely go sky high!)

Thanks again, so very much!

[Nammu]

Originally Posted by komodo1971

Hi everyone,

My name is Robert, or komodo1971 on this board. I just registered here. I might completely flood this board when I'm manic or simply withdraw when I'm depressed; just so you know. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a month or 6 ago, and before that time I was undiagnosed and untreated for years. Looking back, my bipolar issues already started in adolescence, when I was about 18. I struggled for nearly 30 years. In that time I was diagnosed with so many different mental health issues, including but certainly not limited to borderline personality, antisocial personality disorder, PTSD, uni-polar depression and many, many more. The PTSD diagnosis still stands, together with the bipolar type 1 disorder.


I take lithium, aripiprazole and seroquel to stay as stable as possible.


I live in the Netherlands, and I am married. I have a job, but they want to get rid of me due to the fact that I have been ill too much.


Just wanted to say Hi!

Welcome. Hi!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by komodo1971

Hi everyone,

My name is Robert, or komodo1971 on this board. I just registered here. I might completely flood this board when I'm manic or simply withdraw when I'm depressed; just so you know. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a month or 6 ago, and before that time I was undiagnosed and untreated for years. Looking back, my bipolar issues already started in adolescence, when I was about 18. I struggled for nearly 30 years. In that time I was diagnosed with so many different mental health issues, including but certainly not limited to borderline personality, antisocial personality disorder, PTSD, uni-polar depression and many, many more. The PTSD diagnosis still stands, together with the bipolar type 1 disorder.


I take lithium, aripiprazole and seroquel to stay as stable as possible.


I live in the Netherlands, and I am married. I have a job, but they want to get rid of me due to the fact that I have been ill too much.


Just wanted to say Hi!

Hi komodo1971/Robert,

Welcome to the Bipolar Forums at PC!

I hope you find the information and the support you may be seeking.

Many of use were misdiagnosed for years.

I am sorry you must deal with both BPI and PTSD. You will find you are in good company with one or both of these diagnoses.

Many of us have issues within our marriages/primary relationships due to the course of our illnesses.

We all have mood changes and tend to show them as we write/share here, so please don't be concerned about your mood as you write.

Thanks for introducing your self to us. We are happy you are here with us.
Please make yourself at home!

[fern46]

Originally Posted by komodo1971

Hi everyone,

My name is Robert, or komodo1971 on this board. I just registered here. I might completely flood this board when I'm manic or simply withdraw when I'm depressed; just so you know. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a month or 6 ago, and before that time I was undiagnosed and untreated for years. Looking back, my bipolar issues already started in adolescence, when I was about 18. I struggled for nearly 30 years. In that time I was diagnosed with so many different mental health issues, including but certainly not limited to borderline personality, antisocial personality disorder, PTSD, uni-polar depression and many, many more. The PTSD diagnosis still stands, together with the bipolar type 1 disorder.


I take lithium, aripiprazole and seroquel to stay as stable as possible.


I live in the Netherlands, and I am married. I have a job, but they want to get rid of me due to the fact that I have been ill too much.


Just wanted to say Hi!

Welcome to PC. I'm newish around here, but everyone is lovely and made me feel at home. I'm looking forward to your posts regardless of your mood. I hope you find the same support here I have.

Originally Posted by komodo1971

Hi everyone,

My name is Robert, or komodo1971 on this board. I just registered here. I might completely flood this board when I'm manic or simply withdraw when I'm depressed; just so you know. I was diagnosed with Bipolar 1 a month or 6 ago, and before that time I was undiagnosed and untreated for years. Looking back, my bipolar issues already started in adolescence, when I was about 18. I struggled for nearly 30 years. In that time I was diagnosed with so many different mental health issues, including but certainly not limited to borderline personality, antisocial personality disorder, PTSD, uni-polar depression and many, many more. The PTSD diagnosis still stands, together with the bipolar type 1 disorder.


I take lithium, aripiprazole and seroquel to stay as stable as possible.


I live in the Netherlands, and I am married. I have a job, but they want to get rid of me due to the fact that I have been ill too much.


Just wanted to say Hi!

Hiya Robert! We love to welcome new people to the Psych Central forums. Thanks for introducing yourself!

Many of us can relate to much of your experience. My bipolar disorder surely started in my teens, and I wasn't properly diagnosed until I was 32. Anyway, we both finally got diagnosed and it's good to just look forward.

I'm sorry to read that your job is in jeopardy. Is it possible to get mental health leave? Or at least be allowed to work fewer hours while you stabilize more fully? Many people in the US get short-term disability. I would hope that in the Netherlands they would be understanding. If not, can you go on a longer type of disability? I have been on disability for a while. It has been necessary for my recovery and well-being. My Czech nephew was on disability for mental health issues in the past. CZ has a pretty good system for that.

Were you or your wife born in the Netherlands? Or just living there? I know that people from the Netherlands usually speak nearly perfect English. It's hard to tell.

Welcome again!

[deanny644]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Hello deanny644,


Welcome to the Bipolar Forum at PC.


I hope you will find the support and the information you may be seeking.


I am taking quetiapine fumarate (Seroquel). I take 200mg at bedtime. I also take 25mg as needed. I need it right now; yet, I do not like the fact that I am gaining weight on it. Otherwise, it has been helpful.


Please do make yourself at home here at PC.

Thank you, I might see if they can change me from the extended release to the instant release.

[wildflowerchild25]

Well I went down to my pdoc’s office and made them call in the prescription in front of me. So they did. But now my insurance says it’s too soon to fill it and they won’t pay until July 21! It’s $46 without insurance. That may not seem like a lot but I simply don’t have it. I’m going to check goodrx and see if I can get a coupon to make it cheaper. Maybe RS will help me pay for it. I don’t know. I don’t want to go a whole week without haldol. I’m afraid the paranoia will return. I don’t need that.

Lame *** insurance companies.

[Wild Coyote]

Hi wildflowerchild,

I am glad you were able to get a prescription. Oh, I get so upset when the insurer says they won't refill yet. They are usually wrong in my case... I mean they have their dates wrong.

I have had very good luck getting prices on my mom's meds through GoodRx.
Their prices beat her insurer, by far.

I hope you were able to get a good price through them.

I accomplished some important things today, but the ones I haven't show most as unaccomplished. I did go to the grocery store, but I totally forgot to look at this chalkboard my husband has on the chest freezer in the garage. That's where he puts his part of the grocery list. One of the items really needed to be purchased today. Whatever!

I took a full shower, including washing and conditioning my hair. The latter was way overdue. I'm wearing clean clothes, too. I did a little extra self-care, but it's rare that I do the full shebang.

I'm struggling a bit today with anger, frustration, a little intermittent anxiety, and brief tearfulness. In the grocery store, I caught sight of a platter painted with parrots on it. I really was struggling not to breakdown. At the deli counter I managed to get the slowest poke clerk possible. He was slooooooooooooow! I kept telling myself that he obviously has a disability and that I have to be patient. But when you're revved up with mixed feelings, it's tough. I was going to order two things, but stopped after the first. He didn't hear me, but in frustration I was talking to myself out loud. I wasn't really angry at the clerk helping me as much as another that refused to help me because apparently they don't allow two clerks to help the same customer. Because of that, the unoccupied clerk stood there doing nothing while I fumed. Other things annoyed me, too. I could go on and on.

I fully prepped dinner, but the kitchen is a mess again. I really would like to clean it up and spare my husband that task, for a change.

I wrote to my sister that I will not visit my father, at least for a while. Frankly, I do not wish to visit him while he's actively drinking. It's possible that may be for the rest of his or my life. I was thinking about going to Al-Anon this morning, but I totally forgot about it until hours later. I don't really like Al-Anon, but do wish I had support with that issue. I don't like 12 Step programs for various reasons, nor do I like the format of the particular Al-Anon meeting I'm referring to. Those things piss me off when I'm there.

If my father was just a happy or dazed drunk it would be one thing, but he is an obnoxious and inappropriate drunk. He knows that my siblings and I are frustrated and angry about his behavior. What really gets to us is that he often does things that equate to figurative middle fingers at us. He totally neglects all of us in favor of these alcoholic cronies and money suckers. He shows more respect to them than us. We can only take so much of that abuse. My siblings and I are all adults from late 40s to mid 50s. We're not going to take this.

I screen all of my phone calls nowadays.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

I accomplished some important things today, but the ones I haven't show most as unaccomplished. I did go to the grocery store, but I totally forgot to look at this chalkboard my husband has on the chest freezer in the garage. That's where he puts his part of the grocery list. One of the items really needed to be purchased today. Whatever!

I took a full shower, including washing and conditioning my hair. The latter was way overdue. I'm wearing clean clothes, too. I did a little extra self-care, but it's rare that I do the full shebang.

I'm struggling a bit today with anger, frustration, a little intermittent anxiety, and brief tearfulness. In the grocery store, I caught sight of a platter painted with parrots on it. I really was struggling not to breakdown. At the deli counter I managed to get the slowest poke clerk possible. He was slooooooooooooow! I kept telling myself that he obviously has a disability and that I have to be patient. But when you're revved up with mixed feelings, it's tough. I was going to order two things, but stopped after the first. He didn't hear me, but in frustration I was talking to myself out loud. I wasn't really angry at the clerk helping me as much as another that refused to help me because apparently they don't allow two clerks to help the same customer. Because of that, the unoccupied clerk stood there doing nothing while I fumed. Other things annoyed me, too. I could go on and on.

I fully prepped dinner, but the kitchen is a mess again. I really would like to clean it up and spare my husband that task, for a change.

I wrote to my sister that I will not visit my father, at least for a while. Frankly, I do not wish to visit him while he's actively drinking. It's possible that may be for the rest of his or my life. I was thinking about going to Al-Anon this morning, but I totally forgot about it until hours later. I don't really like Al-Anon, but do wish I had support with that issue. I don't like 12 Step programs for various reasons, nor do I like the format of the particular Al-Anon meeting I'm referring to. Those things piss me off when I'm there.

If my father was just a happy or dazed drunk it would be one thing, but he is an obnoxious and inappropriate drunk. He knows that my siblings and I are frustrated and angry about his behavior. What really gets to us is that he often does things that equate to figurative middle fingers at us. He totally neglects all of us in favor of these alcoholic cronies and money suckers. He shows more respect to them than us. We can only take so much of that abuse. My siblings and I are all adults from late 40s to mid 50s. We're not going to take this.

I screen all of my phone calls nowadays.

I love the smell of a clean body and clean hair!
I don't know why I put off showers as often as I do.

I did not accomplish much today; yet, it was more than I often accomplish.

I was trying to do some accounting and could not, for the life of me, do the math. Lol! I am a cognitive mess that way...right now, anyway.

It has to be very difficult, Bird Dancer, to watch your dad, as well as to take abuse from him. It is very strange to me, how addicts "buddy-up" with one another, yet rarely stand by each other if/when there is a crisis.

I'd hoped he would see the value in treating his family in a healthy way. I am sorry he does not seem to do so.

I have mentioned my dad and his alcoholism. I also had a brother.. my favorite brother...who was a severe alcoholic, too. What a nightmare. I had gone to AA with him for 6 months. He was such a terror, at times, I'd had to call the police and have him arrested. It was the safest thing to do, too often. It was all so very SAD and, often, infuriating. He and I had always remained on good terms. He has passed away due to liver damage and peritonitis. I was his healthcare "proxy" and I had to sign the papers giving the hospital permission to take him off of life support. He passed at 42 y.o. he'd left two young children. Very sad. He was, otherwise, such a loving, sensitive, wonderful guy. Once he had a drink... watch out! It was poisonous/toxic to him It was also toxic to anyone around him..

I hope your dad will get more help. Yet, I know it's very tough for many alcoholics to do so. If they get help, many go back to drinking. Very sad, indeed. Let's hope for the best and see what transpires.

It is very important that you do protect yourself to whatever degree you feel is best. It can be tough to do so; yet, it is super important, as often, alcoholics/addicts, in my experience, tend to deplete the energy of those around them.

What's for dinner?

Thinking of you and yours.

[Wild Coyote]

I am getting through the day somehow. I had started a Mirapex increase last night. I have found it starts helping, to some degree. almost immediately. It does have some GI side-effects. Mostly nausea and, in some cases, vomiting. When people first start taking it, it is important to slowly increase in small increments until one knows how one will respond. If people can tolerate the GI effects, then it can be very helpful with depression. I have increased it quite a bit, so I have some GI side-effects, which will quiet down soon.

July is also a month full of sad anniversaries. My wedding anniversary on July 4th...and we all know that story. I've lost 2 brothers, each in July. I've lost 4 family members in a plane crash... all in July.

My depression and my PTSD both go bonkers in July. In addition to July anniversaries, my former pdoc had theorized that I was so stressed at home (when not in school) that my cortisol levels were much higher during the months I was on school vacation. One's body can learn that pattern and can continue to repeat it.

Summers are notoriously very hard for me.

Anyway, spent a decent day with my mom, just doing paperwork, etc., while sitting around the table together, making calls and doing paperwork. She likes to learn a bit more about computers, so I help her with that. I don't know much; yet, I know enough to help her out.

I did change my home security company today. It was a great deal through AARP and ADT. Much more comprehensive and less money per month than our current home security company. I am adding some additional sensors. Installment in a week.

I have already changed all of the locks. I have also changed the gateway, the modem, the network, etc., in hopes of avoiding any further remote clearing of computers (pictures, etc.). The internet provider came and helped me to change up things and also made the network invisible (nobody can see it in order to break into it.). Take that! I wish it were that entertaining; it's not. and !!!

So we (mom and I) are feeling more and more secure. I wish the night terrors would stop. They are very intrusive in nature. I am often trying to get rid of someone trying to remotely take all of my favorite videos and pictures. One night, I was trying to rescue pictures sent to me by Bird Dancer, by Jennifer 1967 and by ~Christina!!! Lol!

Those are the light-hearted dreams. They get very dark otherwise and I won't get into it here.

I hope everyone had a good Monday, also known as Prime Day, as Bluebicycle has informed us.

Did you buy anything today due to the big sales?

Love to ALL!

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I love the smell of a clean body and clean hair!
I don't know why I put off showers as often as I do.

I did not accomplish much today; yet, it was more than I often accomplish.

I was trying to do some accounting and could not, for the life of me, do the math. Lol! I am a cognitive mess that way...right now, anyway.

It has to be very difficult, Bird Dancer, to watch your dad, as well as to take abuse from him. It is very strange to me, how addicts "buddy-up" with one another, yet rarely stand by each other if/when there is a crisis.

I'd hoped he would see the value in treating his family in a healthy way. I am sorry he does not seem to do so.

I have mentioned my dad and his alcoholism. I also had a brother.. my favorite brother...who was a severe alcoholic, too. What a nightmare. I had gone to AA with him for 6 months. He was such a terror, at times, I'd had to call the police and have him arrested. It was the safest thing to do, too often. It was all so very SAD and, often, infuriating. He and I had always remained on good terms. He has passed away due to liver damage and peritonitis. I was his healthcare "proxy" and I had to sign the papers giving the hospital permission to take him off of life support. He passed at 42 y.o. he'd left two young children. Very sad. He was, otherwise, such a loving, sensitive, wonderful guy. Once he had a drink... watch out! It was poisonous/toxic to him It was also toxic to anyone around him..

I hope your dad will get more help. Yet, I know it's very tough for many alcoholics to do so. If they get help, many go back to drinking. Very sad, indeed. Let's hope for the best and see what transpires.

It is very important that you do protect yourself to whatever degree you feel is best. It can be tough to do so; yet, it is super important, as often, alcoholics/addicts, in my experience, tend to deplete the energy of those around them.

What's for dinner?

Thinking of you and yours.

Wild Coyote, you are a dear to share what you did. I am so sorry about the loss of your brother in such a tragic way, and your dad's struggle.

Maybe an early night's sleep will help you wake up with a little more mental zest to tackle that math. I know when I'm struggling, my thinking makes things difficult - either because of racing thoughts, or the opposite --brain freeze.

I prepped for a stir fry. Pork stir fry with snow peas, red pepper strips, scallions and a sweetened sesame soy sauce. I top it with toasted sesame seeds and lime juice. The lime juice is actually a great discovery for the dish, as odd as it sounds.Jasmine rice.

[Wild Coyote]

Sounds YUMMY!

I am going to make mango coconut habanero chicken with wild rice and assorted veggies. I just love this! I cheat and use a pre-made sauce.

[Sunflower123]

I’m still doing well. No more episodes of bliss (I think I took my Abilify twice that day and it’s maximum dosage) but generally feeling better all around. We just got through going to a huge sunflower field and picking as many sunflowers as we could get in a bucket. Really beautiful.

Been spending the past three days running around morning to night with M having adventures. Storing up memories to get me through to August 9th when I go up there to help decorate her apartment.

The life coach is going well. We have continued working on limiting beliefs (I have a few). My conclusion has been that nothing takes the place of a good therapist and I can’t find one right now that takes my insurance. In the mean time, this is working out nicely and I’m excited about the goals I’ve set.

I apologize for being behind on the posts. My hug says I read you and I care. I’ll catch up when she leaves Wednesday morning.

Warm wishes to all and hugs to all who are struggling.

[Moose72]

Birddancer, Im 47 and my dad is also an alcoholic. Its really hard. My thoughts are with you. I don't know if you've found it but there's an "ACOA" board here at PC. You can also PM me if you like.

[tecomsin]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Sounds YUMMY!

I am going to make mango coconut habanero chicken with wild rice and assorted veggies. I just love this! I cheat and use a pre-made sauce.

That sounds delicious! I have lost interest in cooking but have recently found a meal service. It's more like home cooked food than restaurant. It will add a little variety to my diet, which hasn't been great.