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Back to wanting to die...
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#677
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spikes, big hugs to you. I hope as the day progresses that you feel a little better. I felt horrible yesterday, but today is better. It does improve. Waiting is tough, I know.
I'm doing chores, unlike yesterday. I actually washed my hair for a change, put in some laundry and brought some upstairs, loaded the dishwasher, and made myself a nice lunch of toast with poached eggs and fresh local tomatoes. Tonight I want to make a healthier version of eggplant Parmesan. Maybe I'll also make zucchini Parmesan (the same recipe as for the eggplant). I have loads of fresh basil, oregano, and parsley in my herb garden. |
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saw PDoc today. thought I was gonna fall off of my chair when he prescribed klonopin for me for my bad anxiety and poor sleep. also he increased the geodon and is going to ween me off the buspar and may put me on depakote (it isn't definite). I see him in 2 months and I start the new meds tonight. wish me luck, gang. I need SLEEP!
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#681
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"Do or Do Not. There is No Try" - Yoda, Jedi Master ![]() Diagnosed 2008 Bipolar II with Mixed States, Rapid Cycling with Anxiety / Depression: Meds: Zoloft, Latuda, Gabapentin & Depakote. |
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#682
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About 30 minutes ago I got a call from the hospital where I get ECT treatments. They haven't received this month's second opinion letter from my regular psychiatrist, a requirement for ECT. This is quite a stressor because my psych doc isn't in her office on Fridays and if the hospital doesn't get the letter I can't get treatment on Monday as I'm scheduled to do. I've sent a message to my doc's right hand staff, but haven't heard back yet. I'm hoping the letter was prepped and signed on the 8th when we met.
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Fern I am really sorry about your brother's situation. What about a Gofundme fundraiser or a fundraiser just locally? I recently volunteered at a fundraiser for a friend's friend who has cancer. People bought tickets for an event that had food and performances and items for auction. Most things were donated including the church space. I think they made a decent amount of money. Of course that's hard to coordinate, but I just wonder if there's a way to help him out?
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Rose that sounds challenging. It also sounds like a lot to have so much trauma and to be her first client. Of course someone must be the first, but if you don't feel her experience is adequate given your circumstances I could understand. Also, I would think trust is very important for this process. Maybe you could discuss that you have not yet built up trust with her yet?
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#686
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But right now we are going through a time line of my traumas. It's just making me angry. She says I have a right to feel angry. We haven't even got to the major traumas yet. I feel this is all she can offer me. I really don't know what to do. I just dont. I've got to get over this fear of bathing though. That I do know. Thanks for your response. ![]() |
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People have been great about helping out as they can though. His buddies have done all of the yard work all summer, many people from the church have brought food and my husband and I have helped with groceries. My parents are helping and so are his in laws. Maybe I can bring the Gofundme idea back up again now that the bills have gotten worse. Thanks so much for the ideas! |
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I’m sorry he is battling cancer, I lost my father to it in 97. As for these out of network providers I? I say you need to fight the insurance company about the charges. His cancer treatment team is at one location. It’s not your fault the anesthesia group doesn’t have a provider for X insurance. You can submit an appeal stating his oncologist and surgeons needed are all together at hospital A there is no way for continuity of care if you have to go to another hospital, it’s likely another hospital will refuse it and your Doctors do not have privileges there. Insurance companies will do anything to bill a patient , they bank on people just not fighting a bill. I hope he can get some sort of break or a complete write off of those charges. I hope your brother receives some positive news soon ![]()
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Bloody paperwork grrrrrr I hope that somehow it gets sorted out quickly ![]()
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took my increase of Geodon with dinner. looking forward to the .5 of Klonopin later. need to get a grasp on my sleep and anxiety. wishing everyone well.
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#693
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I'm on 20mg of Geodon and it makes me feel like a sleepy zombie. Hopefully your increase works!
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Today has been a better day so far. I took exra trazadone to sleep last night. My psych nurse was ok with the increase. But she was hesitant. That really irritates me because when I met with her on Wed she said she had no problem raising my trazadone as I come off the diazepam. Medicaid just sucks! You get wishy washy providers. Ugh!
I decrease my diazepam to 2 mgs tonight. I will be on that for 3 weeks. Then 1 mgs for 3 weeks then off. I hope the horror stories aren't true. If you go to benzo buddies or other websites about coming off 1 mgs of diazepam it's like he'll for ppl. But I am very strong. I've been through a lot in my life. So far it's been difficult but definitely not the hardest thing I've been through in my life. Omg! My sister just called and said she will not discuss what happened in my childhood. She's just blocked it out. I'm left here with the peices. She likes me all medicated. She said I was angry before the meds in 2011 when I had that ptsd psychosis. Yeah I was! Now I'm in bad shape. From all the meds that make me like her! I'm sorry that was a huge trigger. I'm crying now. I better get off here.... |
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I just want to go to bed. I'm tired. I want to sleep through this but all that happens is my anxiety spikes when I lay down unless I'm already passing out. Then I wake up to large amounts of anxiety and it just builds. My H wants me on anti-anxiety meds. I'm suppose to be working on advocating for myself I'm questioning whether to call or not. I'm not suicidal so I feel it can wait but I tend to get talked to for waiting to long. I should have asked about IOP when I saw the therapist. I'm trying to hang on until the first to see if I'm switching clinics or not I'm not switching pdocs because I like mine and less is more with her. I'm in the "it's not that bad" phase.
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#696
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It sounds like you have had a lot "stirred up" for awhile, and from a few different sources. I hope you can safely "chill" and take some time out. You might benefit greatly? ![]() I hope you are feeling better, if not now, then ASAP! ![]()
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![]() Do you feel there is a truly helpful way to get some control over your anxiety? The anxiety, as you describe it, seems very painful. It's often a very fine line we walk as we try to negotiate our way through life. I hope you will be just fine! If you find you are having a to rough of a time, please do reach out to someone able to respond. ![]() We are right here if you need us!!! ![]()
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I've had a very rough day today. It started out being highly problematic.
Things are quieter tonight. I hope to get a couple of hours of sleep, in the least. Love to All! ![]()
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I’m glad you got some improvement as the day progressed !!!
Hopefully tomorrow will be an easier day to manage while getting necessary things worked on. I’m always here for you ![]()
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