Bipolar check in #37

I was very anxious and depressed yesterday, and today isn’t looking much better. I’m so anxious about my job. It’s so hard, much harder than I thought it would be. I’m so upset. I don’t know if I’ll ever get into the swing of things. I’m doubting all my abilities. I feel so overwhelmed.


I wish I could make as much money doing something else. Something less stressful. But I can’t. I think I just have to honor my contract, get through the year, and then make decisions then. I might be ok in a few weeks when I get better acquainted with the students and the school.


On top of this I really need to get to my doctor to get a blood test to check my blood sugar. I am thirsty all the time, I’m peeing like crazy, I’m hungry all the time, etc. all symptoms of diabetes. My dad and my uncle had type 1 diabetes but I’m likely to have type 2. It would be very unlikely for me to have type 1 so late in life. And maybe it’s nothing but I feel like I need to be checked. I am about 80lbs overweight so that’s a factor. The only problem is I don’t think my particular primary has evening hours. The office does, but it’s only for sick visits, not a general malaise. So I’m not sure how I’m going to get there. I also don’t have insurance until nov 1 so I have to wait anyway.


I hope everything’s ok. The last thing I need is to add a physical illness. I know many of you here deal with a boatload or physical illnesses on top of MI and it adds a lot of stress. I feel you guys!

I am still trying. Cannot function until mid to late afternoon. I cannot keep up with my life this way.


I think my meds are currently too much. I think I am having a downward mood swing which is making my current med regimen feel like way too much. Pdoc would reason that IF I had enough of a mood stabilizer on board, I would not be experiencing a mood swing into depression. I see her point, but I can only tolerate so much medication. I feel the goal is to be as functional as possible, not to be so sedated I miss most of the day. .

I have increased my Mirapex just a tiny bit, as that is all it takes with Mirapex. Lol.

Pdoc is out of the country for 2 weeks. What to do? I think I will try for being less sedated during the day. Wish me luck!.


Love to All!

I think what you and I discussed about changing the time of your night meds to much earlier could potentially give you a much more alert day.

I dunno ! But your Pdoc needs to take a better look at the WHOLE picture!!

Much love!

Most people can tolerate Lamictal but you have tried and tried .. yet you are one of the reasons there is a warning about the med possibly causing drowsy sedation side effects lol

Your Pdoc is daft thinking no one has this side effect. I have a cousin that can’t take a single Tylenol with out it knocking her out for 8 hours. Oh wow have I been jealous of her a lot with my constant struggle with insomnia. But a single Tylenol?? So yes any med can have any effect on a person.

Maybe she should try your psych meds and see if they cause her any difficulty ???? LOLOLOLOLOL!!

A IP Pdoc once wanted to try Depacoke on me and I said you first , he was like wha??? I said I have researched it and spoken to lots of people on it and I have no interest in being a guinea pig for THAT med. so you take it and we can talk tomorrow if you can pick your head up off your pillow. He thought I was hilarious, I was not kidding

You have been on Lamictal long enough to where if it were a temporary side effect it would have passed but now.

I say do what you can right now , she’s outta the country anyway. Deal with her possible reaction when she returns , your not just dropping the entire medication , your just trying to balance things out.

How is this stability?

I did offer to take 300mg at night and stay at 100mg in the morning. She said this is a 12 hour drug and taking the extra at night won't help during the day.

Good morning, doing well. Slept great, got up went to the store, out to breakfast and then the pharmacy

Have an appointment at my college Thursday to see about starting classes again in the spring. A little nervous. Hopefully the meeting goes well. My case manager is coming with me

Hope everyone has a good day

I hope your meeting goes well!
Are you looking to take on a full load of courses?Best wishes!

Ugh, work... Don't wanna do work... but I've got to...

At least I am doing okay this morning. I hope that the rest of the day is at least okay for me too. I'm feeling kind of tired, though...

I woke up at 4am and it's nearing 6am now. I have a loooooong day ahead of me today. I also have to do some more cleaning. My place STILL isn't clean after all these months.

Many thanks Christina, BirdDancer, Pookyl and MM. Thanks, Bizi, too.
I will likely move doses around, taking 300mg at night and 100mg in the morning. If that still feels like too much, I will go back to the prior amount of 300mg/day.(100mg in AM and 200mg in PM).
I cannot spend my days dazed by meds! That's no life.

Much Love

Many thanks Christina, BirdDancer, Pookyl and MM. Thanks, Bizi, too.
I will likely move doses around, taking 300mg at night and 100mg in the morning. If that still feels like too much, I will go back to the prior amount of 300mg/day.(100mg in AM and 200mg in PM).
I cannot spend my days dazed by meds! That's no life.

Much Love

Many thanks Christina, BirdDancer, Pookyl and MM. Thanks, Bizi, too.
I will likely move doses around, taking 300mg at night and 100mg in the morning. If that still feels like too much, I will go back to the prior amount of 300mg/day.(100mg in AM and 200mg in PM).
I cannot spend my days dazed by meds! That's no life.

Much Love