Bipolar Check-In #38

Had a slow day. Went grocery shopping for a few items which I found challenging. I needed to take a Valium first just to step out of my apartment. DH went with me holding my hand the whole time. My agoraphobia has really flared up.
I’m also really anxious about my children - young adults who live out in the big bad world and are making poor choices and doing dumb things

Christina, I feel for you. You’re really in the wars at the moment. May you get over this new infection quickly.

Hugs to those who needs them.

Sleep is all messed up at the moment. Did not sleep one minute last night. I really don't have any emergency sleep plan anymore because the Zyprexa, which pdoc prescribed for sleep emergencies, doesn't work anymore. Had to d/c Ambien and Seroquel, so I don't know what to do. Will have to talk to pdoc and see what he wants to do.

On a table 😄

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I woke up from the couch, tried to go to bed...., now I'm wondering about my full potential and if I'll ever reach it.

Beautiful pic. Thanks so much for sharing

Its trying very hard to snow. At first it was small flakes that melted on contact not the flakes are getting bigger and bigger and lasting longer. Very pretty looks like we're in a snow globe, but much too early for this nonsense.

Mum and I went to the Norwegian festival at church. Got 2Nd 1/2 dos of lefse, donuts and various Christmas cookies. Also bought the softest prettiest shawl for my daughter. It's in off white greys and a pale blue. The softest curly yarn I've ever seen.

@beauflow That is a nice photo- i like the quality of the blue in the sky. Very Fall!

Update on me...

This morning I got up at 8 refreshed. (I went to bed 2 1/2 hours earlier than usual.) I met my friend at Starbucks at 8:30 and we went to the farmer's market downtown. Very nice- lots of fresh produce, honey, crafts, apple cider. We wandered for quite some time. I got N3 5 of these really tiny hot peppers 400,000 scovil units I think. I also got a pint of apple cider. Then we went back to the car and drove to a thrift shop. She was looking for games and puzzles for her occupational therapy patients at work. Apparently their favorite game right now is Don't Spill the Beans. I stared at the wall of (second hand) DVDs and finally picked one. - What Lies Beneath. Its a thriller. I hope its good.

After I got dropped off at my car, I was cold. (It was 36 when I left the house!) I put on a sweatshirt and got out my oil space heater. Its taken the edge off. Oh and they called and checked up on me too. I was kind of quiet at tthe farmers market. Just taking it all in I guess. Now I'm reading. I have another book coming but I must pressed the buy button twice because I was charged twice oon my card and Amazon says I made two separate orders. Its too late to cancel so I'll have to return one. Luckily, there's an Amazon spot just down the street where I can return it!

Happy Fall Saturday to All!

I'm back from IP( again). They switched me to ativan and risperdal. They kept my sza dx but changed the unspecified anxiety and trauma related disorder just to straight up PTSD. I guess that's what happens when you're honest about your symptoms. I start PHP on Monday. I spent four days in the ER and it was really bad. I was restrained multiple times for hours on end, threatened with pepper spray, and got several injections. Once they transferred me things got better,

I'm so afraid of back sliding but I feel alright today.

Welcome back Spikes!

Spikes! What an ordeal! Glad youre back.

Welcome back Spikes. That sounds like a rough few weeks. I'm glad you're safe and that you were honest in treatment. I hope php helps this time around.

Both books arrived in one package today. I got them and immediately went to the Amazon store near me to return the second one. I couldnt remember my login for Amazon though! Grr. But the lady helping me just had me open a browser with an Amazon page. My browser remembers the login. She got to the returns from there, scanned the barcode on my phone and printed the sticker on her computer! Ain't technology cool? So now I have my book. Another bipolar memoir! That makes seven!

Welcome back! I’m sorry you went through that ordeal and I’m glad you feel alright today.

Spikes, glad to have you back.

My wife is at a cafe working on her thesis so I'm going out for a ride. Not much more going on here today.

Spikes glad to see you back.

Last night was rough for me. I still don't know what to believe. Tomorrow H wants to see a friend. He assures me I'm invited too but that friend doesn't know me.

Thanks I’m glad your husband is so supportive

I’m sorry sleep was a rural busy tonight

Hope you can make up for it tonight

Sounds like a good day despite that white crap faking too soon.
Stay warm

I’m glad you got out today

Welcome back
Sorry it was a tough start but I’m so glad you went for help.

They will know you once you meet please push yourself outside your small world... you deserve a bigger life

Well geez ... I woke up , croaked like a frog once and POOF , no voice at all now. Husband might consider it a bit of a gift lol

I’m guessing come Monday morning I’ll call my Doctors to get in. I’m uncertain what the next step will be since I just got off prednisone. I know I will need an antibiotic, as for my worthless lungs now? I dunno.

Today I got a card in the mail the only Pulmonary Doctor in town is retiring it appears , It’s unclear if anyone is taking over as it just said if you need records sent call XXX-XXXX Now if my husband or I need to see one it’s that 1.5 hour trip North where I go to see my Rhuematologist. Small town living is swell , well ... until this stuff happens.

Hope everyone has a good evening

@~Christina No voice! That sux. I hate losing my voice. Of course I can barely sing anymore. I just do it for myself I guess.

Hi,
Just checking in for the day. A very busy day today. Have made it through, even though I was so very exhausted.
My niece and my ex-SIL visited here today. We've had a great time together. I did doze off for 10-20 seconds, repeatedly. I could not help myself.

Still trying. New information has been very hard to take and has only shored up my dedication to my decisions. I am very sorry things are the way they are; there's nothing I can do about another person's choices. I had married with the intention of keeping my vows and never thought I'd be in the middle of a divorce. I am thankful I can get out and can have a different life.

I hope everyone gets enough quality sleep tonight. Asleep or awake, may you enJOY deep Peace!

I don't know how I feel about it. I know it's wrong. I'm not upset about it they just don't understand. It'll be okay, I'll be okay.

I'm sorry you are continuing to have a very challenging time. You are being challenged on all levels at this point.

I am very concerned about your breathing. I am wondering if there is a "rebound" type of occurrence going on, making things worse. (I am wondering if ending the prednisone caused a "rebound," which may need prednisone asap?)

I am often relieved that you have worked in the medical field, you know yourself well, and you have very sound judgment as to when you do and you do not need more help. I am grateful for this. I can rest a little easier.

Please take good care. I hope you can sleep tonight!